Just a Thought

Aaron has always been there for me, Practically since day one. He's been my best friend for 16 years now, i have to admit that they've been the best 16 years of my life. But I've been think alot lately and I'm going through alot of shit right now...I'm gay, and.... I'm in love with Aaron Gillespie! I feel like i should confront him about these feelings and my sexuality, but 2 things are stopping me. Our Faith and our Friendship! I guess I've always knew i way gay, well actually when i was about 13, 14 but i never had the guts to tell Aaron or anyone. So these thoughts always bring me here to the church, whenever i start thinking about Aaron or what could happen if my secret leaked out i always go to the church and talk to god. Its always just so comforting and i feel like he actually supports me! I have been sitting here for about 45 minutes now just praying and thinking and I've missed about 7 calls...all from Aaron. Finally i got tiered of my phone vibrating so i quickly opened it and i had a new text from Aaron...of course.

"where are you at Zack?" he asked

"I'm at church...where else would i be Hun." i replayed, when i pushed send i shut my cell off and went back to thinking about shit. About 15 minutes later i felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up and of course it was a very concerned looking Aaron staring at me. He sat down next to me (very close actually) i smiled at him and continued to look forward and think. I herd him mutter a quick prayer then he turned to me.

"Zack i know something is wrong, you never come to the church after school, talk to me please?" he begged

"I'm fine Aaron...i was just bored OK." i stated, now i was getting a bit irritated

"bored, yeah right...that's a dumb lie Zack...please tell me." he said

"nothing, now go away." i snapped at him

"Not until you tell me whats wrong." he stated, i rolled my eyes

"Nothing is wrong Aaron...fudge..." i said very annoyed by now

"stop being stubborn!" he said plainly

"I'm not stubborn, i just don't wanna talk to you."i said rudely

"I'm your best friend, if something is bothering you I'm here and ill listen." he told me, concern laced in his voice

"i know Aaron OK, but why tell you something when nothing is wrong...thats just pointless." i said rolling my eyes

"i hate you!" he stated coldly

"piss off." i told him quietly

I don't know where all this anger and meanness was coming from, but we just sorta blew up on eachoher. I finally got tiered of it and i just got up and started walking around and eventually ended up in the basement in some random room. I didn't think Aaron would follow me but of course its Aaron and he wont give up. He followed me into the room and shut the door behind him. I turned my back and then i herd a click. I turned back around and saw Aaron throw something silver in a dark corner.

"what the fuck was that Aaron?" i asked him

"oh nothing...just the key to this room!" he said calmly and innocently

"and you just threw it..."i asked in disbelief

"well when you tell me what's wrong ill go find it." he said looking around

"are you fucking crazy Aaron?"i asked him

"I've been accused of it, now start talking Zachary!" he said

I rolled my eyes and just turned my back on him again, a couple seconds later i felt arms around my waist and hot breath down my neck. I brew in a shaky breath and tried to concentrate on the big wall in front of me.

"Zack please I'm your best friend tell me whats bothering you?" he asked, pulling me closer to him

"seriously Aaron, I'm fine...i wouldn't lie to you." i lied

"well i don't believe that bullshit." he said, obviously he saw right through me

"i can't..it...it will just ruin everything we have Aaron." i said looking down, he kissed my neck

"no it wont, what will it ruin?" he asked, i gulped

"everything, family...friendship...school, just everything." i whispered

"it cant be that bad babe...just please talk to me."he whispered back

"fine but you have to promise me that you wont get mad no matter what!" i kinda snapped

"i promise love." he giggled

I turned around so that i was facing him, his hands still around my waist. I looked down and took another shaky breath. I then looked back up at him and l pressed my lips against his, His eyes were wide open in shock and he didn't respond so i quickly pulled away and started muttering out apology's. He stayed planted in that same spot. Confusion and shock...and happiness mixed with his features.

"I...i love you Aaron, i seriously am...falling in love with you! I've been gay since i was 13 and I've realized that i have feelings for you. well actually I've had feelings for you for about 3 years now. I know its wrong and against everything we believe in but i just cant help it Aaron...I'm sorry..." i said immediately looking down

Moments later Aaron was across the room and right in front of me. He lifted my head and pressed his lips against mine gen-tally. It was my turn to be shocked, Aaron was kissing me! Aaron fucking Gillespie my Best Friend who was just shocked and confused one minute ago is now kissing me passionately! I pulled myself out of la la land and kissed him back hungrily. Half smiling we pulled back. I smiled and looked down, he put his index finger under my chin and lifted my face so i was looking at him. He pressed a sweet close mouthed kiss on my lips and then he went to go look for that key. But i wasn't so interested in leaving right now, i grabbed his arm and turned him around to face me. I pressed my lips against his again. He groaned and i put one hand behind his neck and one on his hip pulling him closer to my body. He pushed me on top of a desk that was next to us and climbed on top of me.

"you know i always wondered what it would feel like having sex in a church....just a thought you know." he said smirking seductively

I grabbed his head and pressed our lips together, i liked where this is going. He started kissing down my jaw then attached his lips to my neck and started sucking and biting hard (definitely leaving a mark) I groaned and grounded my hips into his letting out a breathy moan, he looked at me and smiled. He grounded down hard letting out a small groan. He lifted up my shirt and tossed it to the floor, i did the same to him but i took his pants off as well as his boxers in the process! He thought this was unfair so he quickly discarded me of my pants and boxers. He hovered above me, i leaned up and kissed him.

"look Aaron we don't have to do anything if you don't want to." i told him

"No i want to do this." he said smiling

"well then, i want you to fuck me so hard that i cant even walk...Make me scream your name baby." i moaned

he gulped and got on his knee's looking at me, He aligned himself with me and thrust inside fast and hard with out any preparation. I groaned in pain but arched my back in process. He kissed my neck and started pounding into me, causing me to moan in pleasure and slight pain. He changed his angel and thrust roughly into me. He didn't hit it yet then he changed his angel once again and hit my special spot dead on. I let out a scream and moved my hips back into his.

"Oh god Aaron...right th-ere HARDER."i screamed

He listened and grabbed hold of my hips and made his pace harder causing me to scream in pure pleasure. I was getting close and i so was he. I worked with his hips, pushing back causing him to go deeper inside me and fit every inch! He moved faster and th rusted harder, i was very close now. i dug my nails into Aaron's back causing his to moan my name. That did it, i arched my back and an orgasmic wave of pleasure took hold of my body causing me to tighten around his pulsating length and scream his name! He came as well, filling me up with his warm juices..His body shaking in pleasure. Once we regained our breathing he collapsed on top of me. I stroked his hair causing his to yawn. God i was so full of happiness, i really did love him, i never wanted this moment to end but sadly it did. Out of the blue someone was started pounding on the door. It was the revered! We jumped off the desk and hurried to get our cloths on, just when i pulled my shirt down the Reverend pushed the door open. He looked at us suspiciously, then motioned for us to get out. We hurried out of the church and started walking to my house.

"well that was a great thought!" i stated, we both broke out laughing!