Story of a Girl

Anger and guilt weigh heavy on her head
The girl stares into the mirror
Mask fastened in place
And watches herself disappear

She feels ugly and horrible
Everyday of her life
With emotions so heavy
She yearns to be light

Finding things she once did
To feel like a chore
Losing interest in people
Having no appetite anymore

The empty feeling
She now felt in her stomach
Matched the hollowness
She felt right above it

Denial set in
And consumed her chest
But feeling empty was better
Than feeling hurt and unrest

She learned that the pain didn't ache
When you ignored it was there
Avoiding thoughts and topics
Denying the facts to sear

A common misconception
That the girl realized to be empty
Wasn't not eating at all
But eating strategically

She finally felt power
And finally felt strong
With a head full of black
That kept screaming at her, wrong!

Unable to give up
The one thing that felt good
After losing what it was
To feel like you could

Good, it felt good
The way that clothes felt
The way that she walked
And kept tightening her belt

But all streets lead to cross roads
That lead to dead ends
Avoiding the street signs
Won't make the roads bend

Instead of feeling like
She was becoming thin
She felt as if she
Was just getting better at hiding it

She'd stand and stare and analyze
In font of a full-length mirror
Her reflection whispering words
That were undeniably familiar

Frustrated and defeated
By never even seeing
What the scale told her
She kept losing

Hating everyday
And the things she had done and was doing
She scratched, and bruised, and bit herself
Cursing the mind she was losing

Disconnected and spiraling
Nights bled into day
When she unexpectedly
Caught your eye