Assurance

I had been in and out of sleep for a little while, daring not to move. Oliver was awake, rubbing my back slowly. I looked over at the clock and saw it was almost six, making it almost 7 hours I'd been asleep.

"Are you awake now?"

"I'm very awake." I whispered.

"I've been up for a while, thinking about something." he said softly.

"What's that?" I said sleepily. I could really go for another hour.

"You were crying earlier." he said carefully and I let out a laugh and looked up at him. All of the sleep was gone out of his body and I could tell he was somewhat serious about whatever he was thinking. He wouldn't look down at me, but his gaze stayed fixated on my colorful ceiling.

"Yes, Oliver. I was crying, it's not big deal."

"You were crying because it was so lovely."

"Yeah."

"Can you explain it to me a bit more?" I continued to look up at him confused. I can't understand why it's so important and a big deal to him.

"There's nothing really to explain really. The way those two love each other so much. They're just so in love. It's like something out of a movie or book, I guess watching it all made me cry. When stuff just gets so emotional, that I don't know what to feel, I cry." I said quietly as he continued his slow movements on my back. It was quiet, a tension in the air as we both tried to decipher what the other one was thinking. He pulled me up by his side and turned so he could face me, keeping his arm wrapped securely around my waist.

"Have you experienced that love?" he said and my heart skipped a beat. I couldn't hide from him, and the blush came to my face quickly as I stared at his shirt. I couldn't wrap my head around why he was asking me these things.

"I think I've experienced loving a person, but never being in love." I said before looking up at him. "Being in love requires both parts to really love each other, and that's something I've never had." His brown eyes melted with mine as we both still tried to understand the other.

"I love you." he said quietly, his eyes never leaving mine. There was a pause and my insides turned. My heart sank, and it hit me where he was going with this. I couldn't look at him as I felt the water forming in my eyes. I moved my arms to try to get out of his grip, but he held me in place. I looked up at him and his face was sincere as he used his free hand to wipe my tears gently with his long fingers. "Now I'm asking you, do you love me?"

My mind couldn't process what was happening right now as I nodded slowly, my lip starting to quiver. Is this really happening?

"I still can't really understand wh-, I mean why you're crying." he said confusingly, yet still sincere. "Maybe I can't feel what you feel, because I knowhow I feel. But I want to feel part of what you feel." he said even more confused and I couldn't help but let out a small giggle and he smiled. "I'm making myself confused, but I know what I wanna say."

I bit my lip in anticipation for his words.

"Kristiny, would you let me fall in love with you?"

I wish I could just freeze time, save the way his eyes connect with mine in this infinite moment.

I couldn't find my words and I looked down and shook my head in his chest.

"Is that a no, love?" he said painfully cute.

"No." I whispered meekly.

"So, that's a yes?" he asked and I nodded as he groaned. He pulled me out of his chest and made me look at him. I couldn't help but laugh at his adorably, confused face. "I don't speak your face language, so you're just gonna have to tell me." he said, smiling down at me as I continued to laugh.

"Yes. Yes Oliver." I said, calming my laughter as he pressed his forehead down to mine.

"I know you meant yes. Just had to hear you say it." he said while leaning back and laughing. I moved out of his grip and rolled my eyes, trying to hold back a laugh myself. I leaned up as grabbed my phone as it buzzed, seeing it was a message from Betzy.

we're still on for tonight. pick you up at 8(;

I could hardly read it before Oliver took it from my and tossed it back behind me. I looked up at his face, he seemed just so happy right now, so playful. I pushed all of the thoughts out of my head, forcing myself not to analyze what had just happened.

"Only you would have me crying one moment and laughing the next." I said getting up and walking towards my closet. Party once again, and even though I questioned their choices, getting ready was much easier when the girls did it for me.

"Going somewhere this late?" he asked behind me.

"Betzy's dragging me off to a party tonight in the city." I said rummaging through my closet. I threw a pair of dark jeans to the side and searched for a shirt. I heard him get up and his arms were soon wrapped around my waist as I continued to go through my shirts.

"Am I supposed to be the concerned boyfriend and stalk you all night?" he said before abruptly tickling my side. I laughed while bending over and shook my head, unable to talk. I spotted the familiar black shirt in the corner and threw it next to the jeans. I managed out of his grip and I started getting everything I needed...which included undergarments which thankfully he shied away from when I opened the drawer. "Can I pull the boyfriend ticket and ask one question though?" I was leaned over in the closet looking for shoes.

"I don't expect anything to change. So you can pull the typical Oliver ticket and ask me a question." I said still bent over in the closet.

"Okay then, why are every pair of shorts you own no longer than three inches?" he said and I immediately stood straight. I glared back at back at him while tugging on my shorts and he laughed loudly. I chucked my black flat at him which he caught before impact.

"Not even gonna answer that." I replied simply, before going in the bathroom to change. I put on the jeans and smiled to myself as I slipped on the black shirt with letters i couldn't even read. I had stolen it from Oliver's room a while ago.

I opened the the door and Oliver stood there smiling widely, making a slight blush come to my face.

"Aargh! I might have to retract my answer if you're gonna be so damn happy now." I said getting up on the counter and sitting indian style, facing the mirror. I pulled my hair to the side and started to put some eyeliner on.

"Dressing to impress now, are we?" he smirked while leaning against the door frame.

"Oh yes." I said simply, getting some product and running it through my hair. "Get my shoes I tossed at you."

"Yes ma'am." he said sarcastically and left back into my room.

I leaned against the wall, staring at the cabinets in front me. Not thinking was getting harder.

"You're not wearing the-" he started before my door bell rang. "I'm going to get that, get some different shoes." he laughed while I continued applying a little more make-up. I went out and switched my pants for a pair of leggings and slipped on a pair of boots while heading out to where I saw Betzy and Tom in her car. They were arguing cutely about something while Oliver was putting on his shoes by the front door.

"We're gonna go on over to Matt's for the night, so if you need anything just call. " he said before pulling me into him for a hug. I laughed into his chest while he rubbed my back. I honestly think it was awkward for the both of us at this point. He kissed the top of my head lightly and I pulled away to lock my door.

"Cheerio!" yelled Tom at us while getting out of Betzy's car. He held the door out for me and ran out to Oliver's car. I turned back to Oliver who was looking down awkwardly at his shoes. I smiled and grasped his hands before standing on my toes and placing a light kiss on his cheek for the second time. I dashed off into her car before he could say anything, which left him smirking at me in my driveway. I watched him until he disapeared from my view.

"I'm not gonna ask now because I probably won't remember." sad Betzy and I shook. I completely disregarded her sitting next to me, or being in a moving car for a while. "But whatever's going on....I like it."

I rested my head against the window and sighed at the message that came in instantaneously on my phone from the boy who had my heart beating too fast right about now.

be good, love.