Sequel: Say You Remember Me

Say You Love Me Damon Salvatore

Music Guru

Was it really the night of our gig? Oh, how time flies. Like last time, I was really nervous. But, hopefully since I hadn’t seen him since Saturday, I wouldn’t have any trouble from Damon this time. Delaney didn’t have the same prayer as me, though.

“You need to dress really sexy tonight,” Juliet said.

I smiled at her and gestured to the menacing pile of clothes and accessories on my bed. “Way ahead of you.” I didn’t know why I felt the need to dress sexy tonight, but I did.

Juliet picked up the black mini dress and whistled. “You know someone’s gonna try bringing you home tonight, right?”

I smiled, snatching the dress. “They can try.”

I had pulled out a pair of knee high black boots—with a killer heel—that Jewels had bought me a long time ago, the black mini dress—strapless with a pink bow on the top and two others by the hip—and obnoxious pink lipstick I was fully intent on wearing. As for the hair I just cut yesterday…I was straightening it, putting in the newly cut pink hair extension.

My hair hung just below my chin, and a part of me regretted getting it that short. What could I do now, though?

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Setting up wrecked my nerves, but what was even worse was the way Paul was looking at me. Even Zack had raised his brows. Okay, little too Playboy bunny there, Liv, I thought grudgingly. Why did Jewels let me go out dressed like this? Well, at least I had brought an extra pair of clothes—black skinny jeans, black and pink Aerosmith shirt that said ‘Long Live Rock’ on the front and Aerosmith on the back, a pink tank top—the shirt was a little short—and black converse. Haha, yes, the all prepared one. Where I was going to find time to change, I didn’t know.

“You ready?” Zack was well over his momentary shock of my appearance by now. I wasn’t so sure about Paul….Which made no sense, because Delaney was wearing a black and red mini skirt, black pumps with a killer heel, and a corset blouse. Lane was more subdued; mini skirt with leggings, knee high converse, and a T-shirt.

We all nodded. Zack and I were singing ‘What’ve You Done Now’ first.

Zack made the introduction and Delaney started with her short piano intro.

I took a deep breath and prayed my voice wouldn’t crack.

“Would you mind if I hurt you?
Understand that I need to
Wish that I had other choices
than to harm the one I love.”

Thank God my voice didn’t slip! Those are some really high notes!

“What have you done now?!” Zack sang directly after I stopped.

There was a guitar, drums, and keyboard pause. Well, more than a pause. Then Zack sang. I would come in on ‘on’ in the third line of the verse.

“I know I'd better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know I should stop believing
I know that there's no retrieving
It's over now
What have you done?”

(“What have you done now?!”) Zack would sing all of these.

We both sang.

“I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you”

I dropped out to let Zack sing.

“What have you done? (x4)
What have you done now?
What have you done? (x4)
What have you done now?”

I sang this part louder than Zack.

“Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to cause you have
Turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?”

(What have you done now?!)

“I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you”

(What have you done? (x4)
What have you done now?
What have you done? (x4)
What have you done now?)

Zack sang harmony at this point and Delaney was singing my harmony.

“I will not fall
Won't let it go
We will be free when it ends

“I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

“I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you.”

We both took deep breaths after we finished. I could so hug Zack right now! That was awesome! The crowd thought so too. I gave Zack a huge grin, and he grinned back. Okay, now I’d be okay. I was always okay after the first song. I was so glad Zack sang with me on that, though. He wouldn’t sing any of the next one, though. Damn. You’ll be okay, I told myself.

We let there be a pause for applause before starting ‘I Hate Everything About You’. I had a good guitar intro before I sang.

“Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you.”

I had almost forgotten the reason I picked this song in the first place. It was so much more meaning now. God I knew I was an idiot for still being mad at him, after he stayed with me that night. But I had to just get my mind off that day. Because what also happened that day was the realization that he was never going to want anything from me but sex and that he’d be done with me afterward. I didn’t need that emotional disaster to happen.

Zack was already singing ‘Lips of an Angel’ with Delaney while I was in thought. It was really awkward when Zack was singing and I wasn’t. I was just standing there awkwardly. At some point I smiled at myself. I could just picture myself in the audiences view—pretty good looking girl with a pretty good all left out.

Might as well do something useful while the song was going on. I began thinking of the next song’s—I Won’t Tell You—lyrics and where I came in. It was pretty easy, Zack would sing the beginning and I’d sing the verses and be backup for the chorus.

The crowd was cheering when Zack finished and Delaney was vain enough to think it was because of her.

Zack gave the nod to Delaney, who hit a note on her keyboard to start him off. As soon as he came in, he played the guitar.

“I cannot tell you you're falling apart
Open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
But I won't tell you, I won't tell you “

Guitar solo with a bit of bass, then I’d go in.

“I can't leave this, I am fine inside it
I don't feel bliss and I just keep hiding
I've been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
Sometimes naked truth is what I don't believe in”

Zack sang lead for this, I was backup.

“I cannot tell you you're falling apart
Open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
But I won't tell you, I won't tell you
I cannot get so deep into this now
I can't admit that I know what I know
And I want to tell you your love is a lie
I won't tell you, I won't tell you”

Me again after a short guitar solo.

“It's hard to hear through the static again
It's never clear until the rush of pain
I'll never tell you I'm living a lie
In this confusion I feel alive

I've been burnt so bad but I still play with fire
Sometimes naked truth is what I don't believe in”

“I cannot tell you you're falling apart
Open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
But I won't tell you, I won't tell you
I cannot get so deep into this now
I can't admit that I know what I know
And I want to tell you your love is a lie
I won't tell you, I won't tell you”

I sang this part.

“Don't ever tell me I'm falling apart
Don't ever tell me I will not survive
Don't ever tell me this love is a lie
'Cause I'm the lie, I'm the liar”

Guitar solo, with a little bass and drums, then Zack would go lead and I’d go backup.

“I cannot tell you you're falling apart
Open your eyes if you wanna survive
I want to tell you your love is a lie
But I won't tell you, I won't tell you
I cannot get so deep into this now
I can't admit that I know what I know
And I want to tell you your love is a lie
I won't tell you, I won't tell you
I won't tell you.”

Okay, not be vain, but that really was our best one. I would be standing awkwardly for the next one, too.

There was Delaney’s keyboard solo, then Zack started up on his guitar. Paul took in on bass, then Lane jammed on the drums.

“If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.”

I do not have any sexual attractions toward Zack, but damn, he sings that song fantastic! He has a very hot voice when he wants to. Delaney should not even think about dumping him. I could only guess some girls in the audience felt the same. He was also really good in the screamo parts. That’s where I sucked.

Alright, Zack, my turn. Although, since he was playing guitar, he didn’t have to stand there awkwardly. Damnit. Zack had a little guitar intro. Alright, time to try my hand at screamo. Haha. It went great in practice, but how would it go under pressure? Well, the adrenaline was already kicking in, so it should go well. Should that is.

“I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break.”

OH MY GOD, I DID IT AND IT WAS AWESOME!!

“I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

“If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up(Delaney did an echoe of ‘shut up’)
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

“I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

“Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

“Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

“You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

“I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

“I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick.”

Oh, yeah! Zack gave me a wide grin, so did Paul. I was a little nervous of Paul right then, though. Oh, God, what’d happen he got drunk? I’d have to call Jewels in. The crowd really liked that one, I could hear guy voices above the rest, which made me sort of frown. Oh well, guys would be guys.

I had a good intro for this one with Delaney’s acoustic.

“Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me.”

I think the audience was really surprised my voice sounded nothing like Hilary Duff’s. But having that quiet song right after ‘So Sick’ was a drastic change for them, I guess. They still cheered, but I was sure they’d like the next one better. (Oh, yeah, we so changed the order)

I was singing backup for this—though not necessarily harmony.

There was a good guitar solo before Zack sang. I didn’t come in until the chorus.

“Fall! “

Another guitar solo, though longer.

“Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover
I don't want to change the world
I just want to leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in”

Great, now I come in, going a little higher than Zack.

“I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away”

“Fall! “

“Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to heaven
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in”

“I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away”

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away”

“I will not! “

“I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

“And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away”

“Fall!.”

Future notice; audience really likes Breaking Benjamin and Zack can really sing like them, too.

“Now for our final song, you all should know,” Zack said. He sounded a little breathless. Poor guy. “We’ve sorta changed it a little, little heavier than the original. Give a big shout as soon as you know the song.”

Oh, brother, Zack. I had decided to sing this with him, though. It was more fun this way. Paul went away with the bass and Delaney with the keyboard. Some of the crowd started screaming.

Most of the screaming started when Zack sang, though. That’s usually when people know the song.

“Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night”

This is where I came in.
“Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on”

Zack, Delaney, and I sang this.
“Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night”
Zack and I sang this, and I could hear Paul singing it, too, though the audience couldn’t hear him. Zack made an awesome guitar solo.
“Don’t stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people
Don’t stop believin
Ohohhhhh….
Streetlight people
Ohhhh..
Don’t stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people
Ohohohoh….
Don’t stop.”

Oh, great choice in song, Liv, I could so pat myself on the back for that one! We did good tonight. And we’d party hard.
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