You Had Me Wishing We Were Something

John had left about a half an hour ago. In that half an hour, I had read about a total of two pages.

I still sat out there attempting to read. But my mind kept wandering back to him. He was confusing the hell out of me lately.

I mean how he just kissed me now was pure bliss. It was a sweet gentle kiss. It felt like he wanted to kiss me. It got me excited.

But then I shot myself down. What if hes trying to play a game with my head? What if hes tricking me and all this is is a simple game to him? A game to see how crazy he can get me.

But I of course didn't want to believe that. I wanted to believe John wanted me and was starting to fall for me, even if I knew that was impossible. He was to stubborn to even get to know me better.

I stared at my book aggravated and plain confused. This all was driving me crazy. But this time I was happy. I mean the way John kissed me had me on cloud 9.

It was just so different then when we had made out before we had sex. Then it was rough and aggressive. Not saying I didn't like that, because I did. But this time was just so much more romantic like.

I just want him to want me. Please god just make it happen I prayed silently as I stared at my book still, not making out any of the words.

Then my cellphone rang.

I put the book down and reached in my pocket and took out my cell phone.

I smiled as I looked at the caller ID.

"Hey Eric"I smiled as I put the phone to my ear.

"Hey Aubs, whats up?"He asked and I could tell he was smiling on the other end also.

"Nothing, just reading a book for English class. You?"

"Pretty bored, just driving around. Want to do something?"

I smiled even bigger "Sure, lets get coffee at that little shop"

He chuckled."Sounds good. Ill be there to pick you up in 5-10 minutes? is that okay?"

"Perfect. I'm just gonna go and put my book in my room and ill be out front. Okay?"

"Great. See you soon"

"Uh huh. Bye"I smiled

"See ya"He said and we hung up.

I got up and started walking into the house through the back door that led into the kitchen. I walked upstairs and into my room.

I just tossed my book onto my bed and then walked out of my room closing the door behind me. I jogged down the stairs and to the front door.

As soon as I opened the front door, Eric was just pulling up at the curb. I smiled and jogged over to his car.

I got in the front seat and he smiled at me "Not even going to lie, you look so cute"

"What?"I asked confused with a little laugh

"Your are definitely a girl that can pull off glasses"He smiled

"Fuck. I forgot I was still wearing these"I said as I put my hand up to my face on my glasses.

"Keep them on, I love them"He smiled.

"Okay"I smiled back lightly and put on my seat belt. For some reason I found it easier to believe Eric when he said he like my glasses then John.
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Me and Eric had been sitting in the coffee shop for the last hour talking about everything. Every little thing that popped into our heads we would discuss.

But the best part of it all was when we heard a girl arguing on the phone with her boyfriend saying stuff like he used her and how she thought they had something.

Lesson one children: You do not argue and yell into your phone about private matters in public. Everyone around you WILL listen.

Me and Eric couldn't help but snicker the whole time. We didn't want to seem rude and laugh at her, especially when she said 'fine, if we're over, I want my bike back' like seriously what the fuck??

Odd people in the world these days.

When the girl took her conversation outside of the coffee shop, me and Eric erupted in laughter.

I liked spending time with him. It was so easy being with him.

When me and Eric were actually silent for the first time for a few minutes, I decided to break it by asking him a question that was bugging me.

"Why did you lie to me when you said you felt nothing when I kissed you?"I asked bluntly. Acting like that question was a normal question you ask everyday.

Eric was taken back. He even spit out some of his coffee. I ignored his reaction though.

"Who told you?"He asked surprised

"Nicks a good friend"I smiled.

"Fuck, I should have said you cant say anything. I guess I cant blame him, I didn't say it was a secret" Eric said looking down for a brief second

"Well...?"I asked

"I don't want to get in the way of you and John, and beside what was I supposed to say when you kissed me? That I loved it?"He laughed lightly

"Well you made me feel stupid when you said you didn't feel anything because well I felt more then nothing"I mumbled

"You did?"He asked amazed but happy at the same time

"Yes, and you would know that too if you didn't go 'see nothing'"I laughed

"Well I told you, then wasn't our time."he smiled.

"Yeah whatever"I laughed

"Can I ask you something?"

"Of course"I said as I put my coffee cup on the table

"Do you like John?" God I hate questions when people ask me if I really like that person

"Yes,No,Maybe, I don't know"I sighed. I didn't even know what to say to Eric. John confused me, and I knew I liked him, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell Eric. Give him a straight answer

"Wow"He laughed "Thats actually basically the same thing he said about you"

"What?"I asked confused

"When I asked him if he liked you, he went ' No I don't, Yes I do, Maybe, I don't even know"

"Really?"I asked surprised.

So John was confused about his feelings for me? Well that explains what I heard in the bathroom. Well I only heard the No I don't part.

"Yeah"He said with a laugh"Which is why I haven't asked you out either. I want John to figure out his feelings for you first. I mean if he likes you, I wont. I don't like to go for the same girl as my best friend"

"You really are a great friend. But what if I'm you're perfect match, what if I'm your soul mate?"I asked with a small giggle.

"Then everything will fall into place"He smiled

"Thats your theory for everything isn't it?"I smiled and picked up my coffee and sipped it

"It is"He smiled.

"Well, what do we do for the rest of the day?"I asked putting my cup down again

"Want to spend the rest of the day with me? You know, spend the night with me? We can watch movies all night"He suggested with a small smile. How could I turn that down?

"Of course! Fun!" I smiled big and he just chuckled."Ill call Cindy and tell her I'm staying with you tonight so she wont worry when I don't go home tonight"

"Good idea"He smiled.

I quickly called Cindy and told her. She was beyond excited I was hanging out with Eric. I think she just approved of him

"After I finish my coffee, we leave"I laughed as I put my phone on the table and picked up my coffee

"Deal"He smiled and then his phone rang.

He looked at the his caller ID and playfully rolled his eyes. "Its Nick"He said as he answered it

"Yo"He said to Nick.

"Just chillin with Aubs"He said and I could obviously only hear his end of the conversation

"Shes gonna spend the night at my place with me, we're gonna make a movie night tonight"He said as he smiled at me.

"Alright"He said to Nick and then held out his phone to me."He wants to talk to you"Eric said simply.

"Oh" I said and put my coffee down and took the phone from Eric's hands

"Hey Nick Nack"I said with a little laugh

"What the fuck?"He laughed " I wont ask"He said and I could just tell he was playfully shaking his head

"Whats up?"I asked popping the 'p'

"I wanna hang out with you too"He whined.

"Well I was invited over to Eric's. So technically I cant invite you"I laughed.

"Pleasee"He begged

"Here talk to Eric"I laughed and handed Eric the phone back

"No man"I heard Eric say and I snickered.

"Its going to be only me and her"Eric said and I just smiled as I only got his side of the conversation and I knew Nick was whining and begging.

"Fine, whatever, be at my place later whenever, bring some movies"Eric said and hung up

"Sorry, but I couldn't stand listening to his stupid begging voice"

"No problem. The more the merrier"I smiled "Now lets go"I said as I stood up and so did Eric

~~~

Me and Eric were sitting on his bed playing go fish.

"Don't lie! I know you have a 3!"I laughed

"Fine"he laughed as he threw the card over to me.

"Cheater"I said still laughing as I put my match together.

"Well you're winning by like five, I can afford to cheat"He laughed.

I just playfully rolled my eyes.

"Do you have any eights?"He asked eying me

"Go fish"I giggled.

He groaned and grabbed a card from the pile in between us.

"I'm here" I heard Nick say and me and Eric both looked to the door "Oh and I brought Pat along"He added and I laughed.

"We can see that" I said jokingly rolling my eyes as the two guys stepped into the room

"Hey Aubs"Pat smiled

"Hey Patty cake"I smiled back

"What the hell?"Pat laughed

"Dude don't ask, she called me Nick Nack earlier" Nick chuckled.

"Alright alright"Pat laughed.

"Yo, its like fucking nine o'clock, what took you two so long?"Eric asked as we both got up off the bed and I collected the cards we were playing with and put them on his night stand

"We wanted to get smoothies"Nick shrugged

"For three fucking hours?"Eric laughed

"The line was long"Pat laughed and I couldn't help but laugh either for some reason.

"Well lets head down to the living room and pick a movie."Eric said.

"I need something to sleep in. I want to change before we watch the movies in case I end up falling asleep"I smiled and laughed lightly.

"Ill hook you up sweet cheeks"Eric chuckled and walked over to his dresser.

I walked over to him as Nick and Pat sat down on his bed and started arguing about the movie we should watch.

"Here ya go"He said as he turned around to face me "Fresh pair of boxers and clean comfy shirt"He smiled as he handed it to me "Is this okay?"

"Absolutely perfect" I smiled

"Bathrooms right across the hall if you want to change in there"

"McKay, Thanks"I said as I turned on my heels and walked right out of Eric's room to the bathroom.

I changed into Eric's clothes and admired myself in the mirror above the sink. I hated my glasses, I think I looked like a dork. I don't understand why guys think I look 'cute' in them.

Personally I think I looked funny wearing Eric's boxers and his shirt. But at the same time I loved it.

I hugged myself and smelled his shirt. Smelled amazing of course. I looked in the mirror one last time and ran my fingers through my straight dark brown waist length hair. Maybe it was time for a haircut? I actually got caught up in debating about cutting my hair or not for a few minutes and then remembered we were going to start watching a movie.

I walked out of the bathroom still occupied about my hair, still brushing it with my fingers. I walked into Eric's room not looking up as I admired my hair.

"Do you think I should cut my hair?"I asked which ever boy was listening

"No"I heard simply. I quickly looked up recognizing the voice immediately.

When did John get here??