Freely

I get scared sometimes
When the thunder roars in
and my window rattles
Maybe it's the one of the only
things that scares me
because not a lot of things do

I told my therapist about you
I never talk to her
But I did

It only one time
It was the first time I talked
in months of complete absence

She told me a lot of things
To open myself up to you
But then she changed my
doses into a higher number

In case you break me

I think about you when I listen to sad songs
When the sweet melodies collide with broken words
My heart feels heavy and I feel so weak
That I want to rip out my ribs and take out my heart
So I can live without feelings forever