3 Cheers For Sweet Revenge

For what you did to me Black.
(And What I'll do to you.)
You get what everyone gets.
(But you'll get a lifetime of it.)

I was shufling down the road, half walking and limping. I had no idea where I was going, who I was meeting. Black did though, I let his consciousness fade in and out to keep on track.
As much as I hated him, I needed him in order to survive. The only things keeping me alive were Black, the twisted desire for revenge, and something more that I couldn't explain.

(Let's go! Move it along now!)
I'm trying! Can you do any better with a shot up leg and a hole in your back?!
(Been there, done that.)

My life wasn't flashing before my eyes, as people say. Rather, I had flashbacks of him, of Black.

Do you remember that day when we met?
(Hmm..how could I forget!)
After you fucked up that kid, and beat down his friends, you remember what you told me?
(Enlighten me.)
You told me it only gets harder.
(Well it did didn't it?!)
Yeah, no shit.
I felt light headed, as if I was wading through a thick blanket of snow, getting colder and deeper by the minute.
(Don't stop!)

Black, can you promise me something?
(Shoot.)
Promise me that when I'm gone, you'll kill my enemies.
(What are you talking about?!)
If I die, as much as I hate and despise you, you're my only chance to get even.
(Is hatred the only thing you are living for?)
Yes.
(Good, you have learned well over the years.)

I stumbled, fell, but caught myself before I landed face first into the pavement.
(Easy! Sucks really, the shape that we're in.)
You're just as fucked as I am.
(The damage, temporary wounds really.)

It felt like I was a zombie, coming back from the dead, to take this revenge home with me.

I'm going to take back the life you stole, one day.
(So is this revenge for me too?)
Possibly.
(You'll never get that far.)

Bright lights ahead. Heaven? Hell? They won't kill me now, not now. Nor will they tell me how to make things right again. To bring back Helena, restart my heart.

(What are you rambling about?)
Nothing.
(Liar.)
Just you and I, your starless eyes remain.
(You mean eye.)
What?!
(Long story, a story for later perhaps.)
It's not like we're going anywhere anytime soon...
(Shut up and drive! I mean..walk!)

We were actually holding a decent conversation. Hip hip hooray for me, for us.

(So you've noticed we are talking much more than usual eh?)
Yeah, but just because of that, it doesn't mean I like you any better.
(Have it your way.)
I will! You'd kill me in my sleep if you could!

I looked back, a scattered trail of blood snaked behind me, I was bleeding to death.
I didn't know how much further I could go.

(You see that dirt path to our right?!)

I looked, and saw what he was talking about.

(Go there, and follow that for about 2 miles.)
I can't keep this up you know.
(Bullshit! You can!)
No..can't.
(Do it for Helena!)
Fuck you!

Suddenly, the sound of police sirens were heard, coming up the highway behind us.

(Shit, hide!)
Where?!
(Jump over the guard rail and hide in the brush and weeds! Lay still like the dead!)
Great..from the razor to the rosary..
(What?!)
Nothing, just something Helena used to tell me, from pain to salvation..
(She was an odd one.)
Stop talking about her.

I threw myself over the guardrail, collapsing heavily onto the dry hard packed ground.
(Now be still!)

I laid there, scarecly breathing, as the sirens and lights got closer. They passed by quickly, their approach and passing making the ground shake.

(We could lose ourselves if you don't get up.)
I'm getting up..slowly...

Black had come so suddenly that day, the day in school, the fight. I felt a sudden wave of anger, frustration, violence, and murder.
A voice telling me to "Paint these walls in pitchfork red".
I obeyed, making the kid swallow three of his teeth with my shoe.

(Ahh..you are remembering our first meeting are you?)
Yeah...hooray.
(You never thanked me for it.)
You ruined my life from that point forward!
(You're welcome!)
If I die, because of you, I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take...
(Talk talk is all it is.)
I'm coming back from the dead and I'll take you home with me
(You already said that.)
I'm taking back the life you stole
(Stop repeating yourself! I know you're running on empty but...)

I collapsed suddenly, too weak to go on.

(Get up.)
Fuck you. This hole that you put me in..
(Ha, not nearly deep enough if I do say so...get up.)
Trying...climbing out right now...fuck this hurts.
(Life hurts.)
Will you shut up?! Maybe I can do better if you go away.
(Running and hiding as always. You're running out of places to hide from me.)

Fleeting thoughts of Helena came back, how she looked alive. How she looked dead and broken.
Oh Helena, just know that I will remember you..always.
If living was the hardest part, we'll then one day be together.

(What are you rambling about?! You know, I can hear your thoughts!)

And in the end we'll fall apart, just as the leaves changing colors
And then I will be with you, I will be there one last time now.

(Fine, talk to yourself instead of me! Just keep walking, we'll be there shortly.)

I lost my fear of falling.
I will be with you.