Go away Romeo.

Whenever he looked at me and smiled,
I thought that was enough.
All I needed was this.

When he held me tightly in his arms,
I breathed in deeply,
Concreting this memory in my mind,
And pressed myself closer.
This was more than enough.

When his lips softly grazed my own,
All I could think about,
Was how terrific it felt.
I forgot all about,
The boundaries I had built.

When he closed near,
To my sex,
My cheeks went aflame and my eyes shut,
In ecstasy.

I was closer to him than I had ever imagined.
Completely unaware of this
Forbidden territory.
I whispered
‘I love you’.
He rocked me gently,
With passion, lust and pleasure.

Tiny tear drops escaped my eyes
He became wary.
‘What had he done?’
It was me,
Not him.
I had done, what was
Selfish of me.
I had given him my heart,
When I knew,
It wasn’t mine to give.

‘What do I do?’
He whispered nurturing words in my ear
And held onto me,
Not letting me escape his embrace.
No matter how much I wept,
No matter how much I hit him,
I screamed at him.
Calling him words that would tear him apart.
Tear me apart.
I purposely hurt him, scaring every memory we shared.

I had stolen his love,
And now,
Here I was,
Giving it back.

I stormed out
And shoved him away.
I left him standing,
And forced myself.
‘Don’t look back.’
It would only make things worse.

My body felt weak and heavy.
My thighs throbbed in pain.
Fatigue rid me of any energy.

My body collapsed at a near by bench.
Where I leaked out pools of tears,
Black against the night sky.
My heavy sobs,
Choked me.
Gagging me against my own breath.

My body shook,
My head swayed
And my eyes stung.

How could I,
Selfishly keep him to myself,
When in the end,
I was promised to someone else.
Someone I’d never met,
Never seen.

My heart is chained
And hung
In restrictions and rules.
I had experience a love,
That could never be.
But will always be
Lingering,
Near my heart,
But beyond my reach.

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To my dear beloved.
I cherish our memories,
The good and the bad,
Close to my heart.

Over the years,
Your face has become a blur,
But your voice,
Your figure,
Seem as though I saw you,
Just yesterday.

I lay beside a man,
Who cares little for my past.
He treats himself like a king.
The type you would hate.
He never tries to win my love,
But he becomes easily jealous when,
Seeing me in another mans company.

I don’t despise him,
But I don’t love him.
To this day,
My love is unconditional,
For you.
But, as we can’t escape
The reality is,
I still cannot be there.
Wherever you are.