Who am I?To be or not to be what ?

Sonya ,sonya ,,,,,,wake up dear it is time?

Oh go away let me sleep …...go away !!(me in a muffled tone burring my head under the pillows

Sonya wake up !get ready you leaving in 1 hour !said my father in a harsh voice

What dad ??? let me sleep it is morning go away.

Sonya get up now !said dad pulling the covers of me

Dad what happened to your head it is 7 am I don't have school today let me sleep ,go!i was pretty nervous what the heck dose he wants on Saturday morning ,at 7 heee if he thinks I'm doing something he is so very wrong..when I turned my head grandma what

What it is dad tell me now so I can go to sleep ?

Sonya it is no time for joking you goto england today get ready ,mom come let her prepare !

I was frozen there like a statue slowly remembering and not even knowing tears started to fall down my cheek ,

and I started like a robot to pack things in two bags ,taking my phone ,and trowing everything in ,i took my I,pod and

than I slowly got downstairs with an blank expression on my face ,not even rally comprehending what is happening to me ,i saw my grandmother putting a full plate in front of me I eat automatically not even realizing what they told me

I was ,on automatic control my father gestured me to the door my grandmother pulled me by the hand and kissed me crying ,and than i started to walk to the car ,and the car pureed and I some how became a little aware in what is around ,I've comed in my automatic sense to a conclusion ,if they want me away I shall go,at the airport my father pulled me in hi arms and I read on his lips that I have to go and I slowly turned away and I was still in my automatic,when I sited in the plane chair ,than it took of.

I felt broken ,bated ,like everything is nothing ,like the void was me ,cold and still breakable by the pulsars and the galaxy's in my soul .

I think someone seated next to me ,not sure..i turned my head hoping that something could save me ,but I just saw some lips moving and that it is all.

And than a warm hand with an handkerchief sweeping my face ,and than I heard a voice like something I have never heard,

hey girl wake up ,don't cry were are you going ,going to a trip in england ?

No!i barely whispered

neither do I ,I go to school ,your reason hope is better?said the person smiling

I have to be myself again maybe ,just maybe they will change their mind ,and if this is what they wish ,i shall fulfill their wish and than I answered

Sadly it is the same reason !

maybe we are in the same school to me is the second year I have to go ,what school it is ?she said in enthusiastic voice

I sincerely have no idea!

What ??thats weird let me see that letter in your hand pleas/?she said in a surprised voice

Here !and I handed the blue covered letter that my father had given me along with the ticket

she took he letter slowly and looked at the cover and saw what it wrote and than I saw a broad smile across her face ,and she started gesticulating ,i think if she hadn't the seat belt she would have jumped up and down ,and than she hugged me yelling

Cool we are in the same school,in the same year ,super cool yeah,at least someone with sense in that school !

By the time she finished each and everyone in that plane looked at us !

Hey could you keep it a little quiet!!!i said in a low tone,a little frustrated

Yes of course I was just enthusiastic !she said smiling

Ok I understand !

It seems I forgot my good manners my name is Valéry Johnson,glad to meet you.?and she raised her hand for a I think hand shake

My name is Sonya Wellington La Sage ,glad to meet you to!i said shaking her hand and smiling slightly welll she is pretty enthusiastic isn't she makes me feel somehow afraid if I could say so.

And so Sonya why did you cry earlier ?

I feel the curiosity in her voice like I'm some kind of new toy ,and again as I remember I feel my eyes stinking and tears ready to fall ,but not this time ,no way I've decided something

Sorry Sonya if I'm bugging you ,i taught oh ,sorry!

she seems really sorry her voice is so clear weird

No problem Valéry ,no problem at all ,it is somehow a family problem1

and than I get suddenly interrupted by a air perturbation

Oh pleas Sonya if it makes you uncomfortable to speak about it we will have a lot of time at school!she said with the same soothing but secure voice

Yes ,if you don't bother I would like to hear more about the school what it is like/?

Well it is not much just an old stone mansion ,and lots ,and I mean lots of books,gosh who reads books these days !

I might at least see she is not that in to books ,now we have a point not to understand each other ,la vie en rose

I kinda interest in books !i said in somehow ashamed voice like the books are forbidden or trivial

Oops ,I've screw it didn't I !she said amused ,man she has a nice complexion white and smooth

No you didn't not a problem I get that a lot trust me !

Fasten you seat belts we are landing !said a mans voice

I started trembling a little ,and my head spins slowly ,and than I feel a cold hand on mine ,and I get a grip of myself ,than look and see that the mysterious hand was Valéry ,i look at her face she was saying something to me but I couldn't hear what she was saying than she pulled my hand I mechanically get of the seat she took my i-pod and I was fallowing her like a dog ,not realizing till I tripped out the airplane hall,i started hearing her ..slowly

Sonya sonya are you ok lets go to the car ,maybe you'll be ok there!

My luggage ,and what car !from my bas barely just an whisper

It is already there the limo is waiting for us come Sonya!she said in a fast voice pulling hardly on my hand ,i followed her till outside ,next to the car,and I felt a drop of rain on my cheek

sonya get in the car now!yet again that commanding voice oh how I hate commands arghh

Ok ok just wait ! I quite raised my tone

the outside of the car was totally black the windows everything ,on the inside was blue interior ,blue letter blue interior ,i think it Is an obsession of some sort not that I don't like blue or anything but still this is to much

Ouch blue rush !i said on a low sarcastically voice

wait till you see the school suit !she said making an ear to ear grin

You are kidding about the ''school suit'' , right?? school suit oh no ,i hate dresses hope there are pants included

Nope 1a problem ?i can see the amusement in her tone

Well I ..

She started laughing I think the city had no problem hearing her

oh Valéry cut it of what is to laugh I really hate skirts ,or dresses ,I'm getting pretty angry I think I gonna kick her butt if she laughs some more

oh oh,my belly hurts make it stop

oh you...and I pushed her on the limo floor ,i think I'm getting hysterical now ,not joking why the heck dose she laughs

o gosh it hurts ,stop it pleas

Valéry cut it off

and than the car stopped,and than silence

and than

oooooo,,pleas Sonya stop me ,it hurts so much !

stop your self I have no idea why the heck are you laughing your ass off

I just don't like dresses and skirts that all what do you laugh off

and to think of them makes me puke

and than a cough

I rapidly turned around just to..swear a little

Young ladies get a grip of your selves ,you are ladies not peasants

o now she stopped laughing ahh I'm gonna so kill her ,and who was this exquisite dame in front of me she had dark hair and sort of green ,brown eyes undefinable ,still dangerously beautifully ,and she imposes respect

Welcome to Northstar Maison ,private school for young ladies!she said on a silky voice and than turned her head graciously towards Valéry who now was straight on her feet with her head bowed

Valéry Johnson you are late you were supposed to be here las week ,we will discuss this later !

And you young lady (ok now I'm scared ,i feel I think just like Valéry,i'm slowly lowing my head,just a little bit ,although it hurts my pride,but dam this lady is the mastodon of power ),Must be Sonya Wellington La Sage!

Yes !god it feels like army

Sonya ,may I call you so ?

Yes !yep this is girl army ,i couldn't say her otherwise

Sonya you must revise your idea about skirts and dresses ,cause they are the symbol of femininity and grace understood ?harsh tone even for a powerful lady but I wont change my idea ,pants rules ,oh no it dosen't stubborn side here

I'll try my best madame!and I slowly raised my head and saw that Valéry bas behind the lady ,slowly rising her mouth corners ,she is soooo dead

You will have to cause in this school there are only skirts and dress allowed ,your clothes will be provided by the school !

And now dear Sonya my name is KRISTA VAUGHN ,your literature professor and vice director to this school ,i shall now briefly introduce you to the school and school rules the rest Is for you to discover!

to discover hah ,what is to discover to a old school

Yes mam !

Sonya ,call me miss Vaughn !

Yes miss Vaughn!

And so let's proceed:

the rules of the school are

never get out of the school after 12pm

never get 10m closer to the forest

never disobey a direct order from a professor

you are not allowed to swear

you will get out of the mansion grounds only rarely on Saturdays

food is served at ,7am;12am and 5pm if you miss one you don't get food

you will only wear school clothes during the hours and off ,besides at night and on rarely occasions you get out

never go the lake during cloudy days or after sunset

always do your after homework

school starts at 8am finishes at 4pm

hours are according to what teacher accepts you on his or hers hour,after some testes

And so dear Sonya if you obey this rules ,you will be safe and sound and we will get along just well

we were now at the base of white stairs ,preparing to go to a large wooden door ,witch seems to be most certainly the entrance

Yes miss Vaughn ,but sure are a lot of interesting rules ?i said slightly smiling ,but when I turned my head I saw mis Vaughn and Valéry faces on me full of surprise and worry ,it raises goose bumps on my skin ,but I acted like I'm unknowing of their look and changed the subject

And do we have a garden and computers ,Internet here?miss Vaughn raised a corner of her mouth and than took my subject ,like showing me that she is perfectly aware of what I did

Dear Sonya we have computers and ,personal laptops that we give to the lady's here but no Internet is allowed!

No Internet they are crazy ,oh this is my life ..at least Valéry told me they have a pretty big library

Ohhh,!

Don't be sad dear Sonya we have a library a pretty good one !

It will have to suffice !from my came just a very low whisper

Meanwhile we were at the not large but huge wood door that was opening with a screeching noise I think it has a opening device or so .

Here Is our proud school !and she indeed had a grave gracious voice

inside was a white marble floor like a continuum to the outside and the inside stairs were the same ,the walls were just the same gray rock the same as outside but on the walls were hanging blazons and shields and swords the things that by my idea were more appropriate to be in a castle but in a Maison ,but still the inside seemed bigger than the outside

there were 1 big stair and at the base of the stairs were 2 statues one was a knight or king ,beautiful and an lady with a long dress to the floor she held a leg out of one long cut in dress ,what was interesting was that on her leg was tied a silver dagger ,and this wasn't the most interesting thing ,the lady looked much alike with miss Krista

Sonya come here !

Yes miss Krista !i was quite surprised ,and awaken from my analysis mood

Sonya up the stairs is the ball room ,down here on the left you will find the dining area,under the stair are the stairs down to a tunnel witch takes you to the class rooms,and on the right are the garden entrance ,the library and at the end of the hall are the stairs that takes you to the sleeping area

any questions?

Well miss Vaughn how do I get the clothes and my luggage ?

It will be already in your room!

Vice director you are needed in the conference room !a harsh a man voice called

Sonya here the this box this will give you your exams appointments and the number for your room,and some other things ,see you at class!

Yes miss Vaughn Looking forward to it!and than I turned my look to the base statue it looked so alike and the dagger just called me to it ,

Hey Sonya need help ?called Valéry

You don't even imagine how much !grinning towards Valéry and handing her my box seeing the curiosity in her eyes ,she took the box opening it and than jumping up and down,and yelling

We are in the same apartment it's so super cool come !and she pulled me by the hand ,we both runned down the corridor and I so rapidly saw glass doors an than up the same white stairs ,up were 3 corridors one leading to many doors arranged like soldiers ,on the second corridor were fewer door and on the third were just 5 door and the this corridor on his end was a balcony but she pulled me in to the last door on the right

Say something c' mon ?she asked me ,but the room was so so marvelous ,a chandelier on the middle and a plasma ,oa super large balcony ,and 2 doors

well it is cool I love the balcony

me too !she was so ...happy I have no idea why

Sonya you are the first colleague in this apartment there is your room !

I shall go check it !

Yes go but don't forget it is almost dinner time get ready!

O and don't forget a dress !and she grinned evilly

you ,you !but till I turned she fast closed her room door ha she is afraid and I laugh slightly and than I got trow my room it was just like ,me tastes a bed so big with forged metal on the head post and Balanchine cool and on the left corner was and big wooden desk and at the right was 2 doors ,what 2 doors for what ?? ,i slowly moved and saw why first was a closet oh noooooooooo only dresses and a suits whit skirts all dark blue and a white blouse ,oh good what have I done to deserve this I wonder and in one shelve were my things already unpacked ,i certainly have to get a sower to calm my self and the other door was the bathroom ,a large tube and a shower ,indeed a large bathroom anyway I need the shower now ,i put everything that I was wearing in the washing basket and turned on th e hot water and my vanilla scented shampoo ,and under the hot water I start analyzing the situation ,it was at least funny whit Valéry here ,but why was acting so friendly even thought we had almost no thin in commune ,what motivated her ,and were some strange facts about the school but maybe I'm just tired and I'm imagining stuffs ,i quickly got out and got into the closet put a pair of underwear and I just sat there in the middle of the closet on the floor not knowing what to do I didn't even realized I was again staring blankly at the door hopping that someone told me this is not real an i'm just dreaming but didn't happened on the door entered Valéry in a gorgeous blue dress

blue ha ha ha !it was freaking funny

don't laugh it is not funny !she said in a rather anoyed voice and I started laughing louder

and sonya dear you will wear a dress !she said in amoking voice

ah yes but I don't know what to pick !i didn't even finished her face just lit out smiling an started to wander to the closet and came up with an on the neck light blue with black swirls and high heels

Your joking right ?

Nope try it on now !yet again commanding voice

Ok ok mam !i said mocking her ,getting the dress and trying to figure out how to get it on me,when finally I got it ,i put on the high heals ,and don't think if I don't wear high heals I don't knw how to wear them .i know but I just don't find it comfortable

It looks good on you let's go !she said again pulling my hand I think I will develop a bruise till tomorrow

hey slowly !

No slow I'm hungry Sonya !to serious tone for my sake ,i runned but at the base of the stairs she slowed down!

Thanks good I don't think I could keep it much longer !gaping for air

I realized we will walk much slower now!

Thats the first good idea I've heard in weeks !

Really ?

I think so !

Well let's go I'm really hungry and it looks you need some rest !

Rest I really need and about food I'm not that sure !

Pleas Sonya come I don't have someone to piss off in there !

Ok let's go !

As I slowly passed by the glass door I saw the sky in the garden already darken and we got to the the statue I almost forgotten the resemblance between it and miss Vaughn

Hey Valéry I think this statue looks a lot like miss Vaughn don't you think ?she just turned her head and than ….