Wild Night

I woke up. I was in a bunk. My eyes looked over. Zacky is such a cute boy. Especially sleeping. I crawled over him holding a sheet half ass to my body. I stretched a bit waking my body up. Time to find clothes. I picked at the clothing on the floor. Various pants and shirts laid around. My underwear was the only thing of mine I could actually find. I slipped those on and grabbed one of the many shirts on the floor. It smelled of booze and shit or something. I walked up front and went to the fridge. Beer, beer, more beer. Ahh just what I wanted. A beer. I popped it open and took a good swig. Now I need a cigarette. After not being able to find one I went outside. The cool morning air woke me up. I sat in the grass and leaned against the bus. There is nothing like a cold beer in the morning.

Matt: you're up early.

Melly: where are you coming from?

Matt: I went for a walk.

I sipped my beer and nodded.

Matt: no pants again.

Melly: story of my life. Might you have a smoke on you love?

He shook his head.

Melly: damn. Did you get laid last night?

Matt: yes.

He sighed out. He sounded guilty.

Melly: get over it Matt. You fucked it up for yourself. I told you many times, you don't give that bitch enough credit.

I took a long drink. I've no idea why I'm trying to make her in the right. I didn't like the bitch and she didn't like me. And she had the thing I wanted most. Finally when she leaves I'm fucking defending her. What kind of twisted bullshit is that.

Matt: you don't care.

Melly: no I don't.

He shook his head.

Melly: I get it. You love her blah.

I waved my hand at him.

Melly: like you said. I don't care. Go cry to someone else. I'm here for you...in other ways love.

He ran a over the back of his head.

Matt: you make it hard.

Melly: it hard?

I asked with a smirk. He looked at me with a smile.

Matt: that's not what I meant.

Melly: you got me excited.

I sipped my beer shrugging it off.

Matt: you make it hard for me to feel bad.

Melly: you shouldn't feel bad. More like relieved.

Matt: I know I should feel bad. I cheated on my girlfriend.

Melly: with someone worth the time. You forget that part. People don't risk all they have on just anyone...or for no reason.

I messed with my hair.

Matt: mistakes are possible.

Melly: and its possible to not make them as well.

I stood up and wiped my butt. I walked up to him.

Melly: and I was no mistake for you, mistakes only happen once.

I smiled.

Brian: Melly pants.

Melly: I couldn't find any Brian.

I pouted at him. He rolled his eyes.

Brian: I just think you prefer not wearing them.

Melly: what's so bad about that?

Brian: I don't need to see your ass cheek hanging out of your underwear.

Melly: don't look then. Do you have a smoke?

Brian: for you of course.

He handed me one.

Melly: and if we're going to talk about being clothed, you don't have a shirt on.

Brian: that's different.

Melly: I'm just trying to break the double standard.

He grinned and shook his head. I linked an arm with him.

Brian: where did you go man?

Matt: a walk. I needed some air.

Brian gave a nod.

Brian: what time did you get in?

Matt: I'm not sure.

He shrugged. I leaned my head on Brians shoulder. Closing my eyes.

Matt: if you're tired you should go back on the bus.

Melly: I'm not tired.

Matt: you look it.

Brian: I keep telling her to slow down but she won't listen.

Melly: slowing down means less drink time.

Matt: or more in the long run.

Melly: live fast die young. What smells?

I sniffed Brian.

Melly: dude you fuckin' stink.

Brian: me! You do.

I smelled myself.

Melly: you smell worse than I do.

He smelled himself then me.

Brian: do not.

Melly: yes you do. I smell like booze and sex. You smell like ash tray asshole brewery hot hoagie sex fart.

Brian: you smell like Zack's ball sweat.

Matt cringed.

Melly: maybe I do smell worse. Ball sweat is no joke.

Brian: no its not give me a drink of that.

He grabbed my beer and took a drink.

Matt: what's on the agenda today?

Melly: you play a show, we sell merch, sign some fucking autographs. Then we go on our merry little way to the next fucking venue. Fuck yeah.

We sat in a comfortable silence. The smoke rose from mine and Brians' cigarettes.

Melly: you know...

They both acknowledged me but didn't look at me. My smoke close to my mouth. I stared at nothing in particular.

Melly: I would have never asked you to choose between me and Michelle, Brian. Even if we are family and I don't like her. I'm better than that at least.

I felt their eyes on me now. My cig slowly met my lips.

Brian: I know...

Melly: I had to tell you that.

Still my eyes stared at nothing. I knew Brian knew I meant every word.

Matt: I'm not sure I bel-

Melly: you don't do that to the people you love.

I looked at him. He just gave a nod and kept quiet. Brian kissed my head. His way of letting me know his thanks.

Brian: I'm going back on the bus its actually a bit chilly out here.

Melly: alright babe.

He walked on to the bus.

Matt: would you really not do that?

Melly: why would I lie to my cousin?

He shrugged.

Matt: just to make him happy.

Melly: I only ever did that with you. I've done many shitty mean things but I will never put my family, the people I love, in a situation like that.

I shook my head.

Matt: I can see I didn't matter then. If you lied to me all the time.

Melly: I lied to keep you around love.

Matt: why lie. You never have a problem speaking your mind otherwise.

Melly: that sweetheart is not true. There are somethings I don't say because I know I'd lose a friend or two. And I just can't afford that.

Matt: you just contradicted yourself.

Melly: no I didn't. If I don't say anything, I'm not lieing. I do hold back most the time Matthew.

He crossed his arms.

Melly: its best to just not even question it, it makes sense up here.

I tapped my temple.

Melly: and I don't have to explain myself.

Matt: you never had to lie to me about whatever it is you lied to me for.

Melly: yes I did. You saw how pissy you got when I said I don't like Val.

He made a face.

Melly: I didn't want to lose you any more than I had to. If that meant pretending to get along with her so be it. She did the same.

Matt: Melly...

Melly: there was a time when we would party a lot together. The first time you and Val "broke up".

I rolled my eyes.

Melly: first of a string of those anyways. Who would show up at my house to get their mind off things.

My hands were on my hips.

Matt: Brian was there.

Melly: Matthew I got to know you then. I know things she doesn't and you know it.

Matt: I never expected you to remember all that.

Melly: just like fucking me wasted right?

I smirked. He flinched.

Melly: you know I don't mind it.

Matt: you are my muse.

Melly: I know love.

He shook his head. I put out my cigarette and walked up to him. He looked down at me.

Melly: let's get a drink.

Matt: its only morning.

Melly: its five o'clock happy hour somewhere.

He smiled. I grabbed his hand and led him on the bus. Some of the guys were up.

J.B: no pants never gets old.

I smiled.