Well I Know I'm Not Alright

Me and Maegan walked to the car in silence. The night wasn't good at all. The people sucked. The tip money sucked, and worst of all, my boss wasn't there tonight to give us our paycheck.

I sat in the passenger seat in silence as I heard the car go on. Maegan looked behind her as she pulled out. It wasn't fair how she could throw the worst times behind her and just be mad about a situation for an hour and be over it. I have a problem of holding onto things for a long time. My boss may hear it from me when I see him again.

I tapped on my window as Maegan put the radio on. I wasn't too sure if Maegan was happy. She was singing along with the music. I knew that if I told Maegan about Tre and Elaina she would probably be happy. "Um . . . Maegan?" I said. She gestured me to keep talking as she stopped at a red light.

"Elaina and Tre might have hooked up." I said. She then looked at me really quick before she drove away.

"What the fuck? Are you sure?" She asked.

I told her what happened after she left for work. Her eyes were wide open as she heard everything I told her. Maegan started to laugh as I finished. She pulled in the drive way and looked at me as she turned the engine off.

"I knew they were going to hook up!" She said. I nodded knowing that they did before.

"Yep. So did I. I was more shocked about the situation then you are right now." I said.

"I'm sure."

We went inside and looked at Elaina as she was all snuggled up against Tre's chest. She was sleeping. I smiled at Tre put his index finger to his lips meaning us to keep our voices down. I nodded and went to my room. Mike was with Billie at the Lookout records talking to the guys, They wouldn't be back for a while.

I changed my clothes into shorts and a tank top.

I started to read my homework and write down some notes too. I couldn't help but feel bored after an hour of homework. I lost concentration and started to draw hearts on my paper with my name and Mike's name inside the heart. I smiled and started to laugh at myself for being so silly.

Mike has been on mind a lot lately. I've been having trouble keeping him out of my thoughts. Why was it so hard to not think about him? Maybe Billie was right. Maybe I was head over heels for this guy. Maybe I liked him more then I thought I did. Maybe even love him.

I sighed as I had enough with history and my thoughts. I put my homework on my desk and walked back over to my bed where it warm and inviting.

I woke up to my door opening. I didn't move or open my eyes. I just knew my door opened. I laid in my bed and I could hear foot steps coming closer to my bed. I then felt some weight as my bed started to sink on the other side. I felt butterflies in my stomach when he kissed my neck.

I turned around to Mike's blue eyes staring back at me. I smiled. "Hey." I said. He hovered on top of me and pulled the blankets off of me. "Hi." He said and kissed my lips. I felt his cold hand go under my shirt as he touched my breast. I sighed in relief as he started to kiss my neck again.

I looked at his soft face as his fingers traced over my skin. I started to breathe a little hard as he started to remove my pants. I then pulled his shirt off wanting more. His fingers traced down my body and I could feel his fingers go inside of me. I moaned in pleasure. Mike smiled at me. I smiled back turning red as I felt embarrassment growing inside my stomach. "Hey, your okay. Your with me." He said and kissed my lips.

He then took his fingers out of me and unzipped his pants and threw them on the floor. By now we were both undressed.

As he entered inside my body, I was into the moment so much that I couldn't help but moan every five minutes. I knew that I was about to lose control. Mike's eyes were closed and sweat was starting to form on his face. I then started to feel a feeling that I've never felt before in my life. The feeling was so powerful that I didn't realize how loud I was. I moaned Mike's name as I came. He started to go faster and faster in me. I never wanted this moment to end.

He then let out a scream or two, and said my name. Soon the feeling faded and Mike was done. He laid down next to me with his arm around my waist. I looked at him as he watched me breathe. I smiled as he started to laugh. "Holy shit." Mike said. I nodded and closed my eyes as I felt more tired then ever.

I could feel Mike playing with my hair as it turned me on a little. I opened my eyes and looked at him. He looked so quiet, and peaceful. "I finally had an orgasm." I said. He smiled showing his white teeth.

"That was your first orgasm?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I've only slept with three guys." I said.

"Oh. Well, I guess I'm just that good." He said with a laugh.

It got a little quiet, and I couldn't help but look at Mike's eyes as he looked back at me. I wanted to say something, but I wasn't too sure how to say it. I sighed.

"Lizzie?"

"Yes, Mike?"

"Can I tell you something, but you have to promise me your not going to freak out." He said.

"Yeah."

"Um . . . how do I say this?" He asked. I sat up.

"What is it Mike?" I asked.

"I love you." He said looking at me. I looked at him.

"Mike . . . I don't know what to say." I said. He sat up.

"Hey, you promised to not freak out." He said as he wiped the tears away from my face.

"No, I'm not really freaking out. It's just that . . . I love you too."

He put his forehead against mine, and I felt his soft lips with mine.