I Want to Hold You, for Now and Forever

Anne Frank:

"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy"

Last night was probably one of the funniest nights I have ever witnessed. We were supposed to have our girlie chat after the game but as soon as Brian and I arrived at the bar we noticed that everybody was mostly tipsy so the plan was out of the window and to top it off the fact I had to take strong painkillers for my knee, I had to stick to drinking diet coke; mmmm tasty, note my sarcasm? Hey, don’t feel bad for me because the most enjoyable thing about it was that I witnessed not only my girlies and the boys making total asses of themselves but the whole football team as well, I don’t think me nor Brian have ever laughed that much. The fun didn’t stop at the bar either, oh no, it carried on all the way home too.... Damn I wish I had a camera! So considering I can’t show you a picture, how about a visual? I was hanging back with Brian and Jimmy, who was trying to be my crutch but that didn’t work considering that he wasn’t that stable then in front of us we had Johnny, Beci, Shads and Zacky, who was trying to get Beci's side fringe to stick like Cameron Diaz's from Something about Mary but what Beci didn’t know was that Zacky was using his spit and Shads looked on laughing so hard he started choking, which ended with Johnny walking into a lamp post. Then in front of those guys, we had the three drunken sailors in the form of Charl, Jen and Dani... Why do I call them that you ask? Because that they were singing 'What do you do with a drunken sailor? What do you do with a drunken sailor?' before tripping over each other and ending up in a heap on the floor. It was a picture perfect moment, an extremely hilarious picture perfect moment!
So that’s how last night ended, nothing more happened or was said between me and Brian about the situation at the pitch or just the situation in general. We've just got to be patient and bide our time.

A loud ringing bell snapped me from my thoughts, signalling that it was the end of my lecture and the beginning of my free period, I love what I study I really do, I really have a passion for American History so much that I want to teach it but there’s only so much comparing and contrasting you can do between Lincoln's pre-election Campaign and what actually happened after he got elected. I did this shit in college. Let’s move on already!
I walked towards the table that my friends Jen, Bec, Charl and Dani were all sat on, looking like they had just been hit with a frying pan. I burst out laughing at the pathetic sight before me.

"Not so loud" Charl whispered as Dani nodded in agreement

"Feeling a little worse for wear, ladies?" I beamed

"Oh Fuck off" Jen piped in

"Touché" I laughed "You ok over there Bec?" she had her head on the table with her arms wrapped around, she just nodded

"Want me to go to Starbucks to help you guys feel better?" and with just saying that sentence they looked little better. Luckily, we had one not to far from campus so I was there and back in more or less 20 minutes. I handed out their coffees and sat down

"I'm in love with Jimmy" Jen confessed... Huh? Where the hell did that come from, I swear I must have looked like an idiot because I was looking around to find the answer causing people to look at me oddly

"Huh?" Dani looked over at her cousin "So soon?"

"Yeah" She beamed "He's.....Just....So....Perfect"

"So is Matt" Beci joined in with the beaming. Why can’t they go back to their pathetic forms? I don’t want to hear about how smoothly things are going. How long have they known them? Get a Damn Grip.

"Johnny's a great fu...” Charl started before Dani piped in

"We get the point! We can hear you moan from campus, you dirtbag" we all laughed

"I'm happy for you girlies but seriously, isn’t this moving a little bit too fast?" yes this is wayyy too fast, that’s my opinion and I’m sticking with it.

"Love at first sight" Beci said sticking her tongue out and I just burst out laughing.

"Sure babe, kid yourself with that one" I said still laughing

"It happens" Jen defended Beci. I couldn't stop laughing at how ridiculous it sounded, I had tears in my eyes and at this point Dani joined in too

"I thought love was supposed to be blind? Yet you two, out of billions in the whole world have it at first sight? Suuure” I said as Dani and I started laughing even harder. Just then Charl started laughing and Beci looked at her strange

"Why are you laughing?"

"I felt left out" Charl pouted and we all laughed

"I think someone’s a little jealous" Dani smirked

"Damn straight I am. I don’t get what we're laughing at" Charl replied

"Not you, you idiot!" Dani laughed "Chloe" Charl nodded and 'Oh’d'

"Why would I be jealous exactly?" I said pulling a face

"Cause you aren’t getting any" Charl laughed

I raised my eyebrows "Not everything is about sex, Nympho"

"Or because you don’t like having to work hard at stuff like this and you have to in order for you and Bri to work" Damn Beci for knowing me so well

"Ooh I know" Jen waved her hand as we looked at her "I think it's because he is the first guy to actually want to get to know you and not to sleep with you" I want to strangle her...

"And what?" I said in a thick British accent. Beci rolled her eyes

"He's taking you out of your comfort zone" She was right. I hate it when Beci's right, it's annoying as hell. Well, anyone being right is annoying really.

"Maybe" I shrugged

"Not maybe, Chlo. She's right and you don’t like it one bit 'cause you think it means you have to compromise at stuff and you don’t like compromising because your so damn stubborn" I think this is the first serious thing Charl has said all day, it's starting to become a trend, i dont like it

"I guess" I shrugged again

"Just talk to us, woman. We're your lovers" Dani glared at me with a smirk

"Fine" I huffed "Maybe it's a little uncomfortable. No one has ever really wanted to get to know the real me apart from you guys. I guess I think that if he finds out what I’m really like and who I really am then he'll run away. I don’t want to be hurt, I don’t think I could handle it, not again yet I always end up getting hurt so it scares the hell out of me when I’m put in situations like this" I could feel the frown deepen on my face as I felt my girlies group hug me

"Babe, if he can’t see how amazingly amazing you are then he sucks" Charl smiled gently. I love my Charlotte to pieces. She's the funniest person you will ever meet in your life and I mean ever; she's the craziest out of all of us and so down to earth but when it comes to her girls, she'll never let you down even when her whole world is falling apart at the seams; we still come first. Without her, We'd be clueless.

"Yeah" I looked at Beci as she spoke "How long have I known you? Since we were little kiddies, I've seen you go through so much shit but you always come out of it. Don't let fear get in the way of your heart 'cause if you do, you'll never learn to love" My sister. That's one way to describe Beci. She's always had my back from day one; ever since I moved to the place where we first met, we went through our bullshit and came out even stronger than before. I admire her because she's always willing to give everything 100% even in situations that could end up with her heartbroken and in some cases it has yet she never let it get to her, she would just dust herself off and get back up.

"You’re always going to have us at the end of it, Bestie, you'll never get rid of us even if you want too" My friendship with Jen was strange. We are completely the same, in everyway. She was the first person me and Beci met when we moved here and she adopted us, welcomed us with open arms. She has the kindest heart with a fiery temper too. She's truly one of a kind; I've never met anyone like her and I don’t think I ever will throughout the rest of my life, I love her so much. My Bestie.

"Like Crabs" Dani laughed and we joined in lightening the mood a bit "Seriously, we'll beat him down if he hurts our circus leader" Dani was the last one to join our 'circus' as she put it. She's sometimes difficult to get to know but when you do, God do you love her. She's so cute and short that you want to put her in your pocket and when you need that extra bit of sunshine, she'll be there. She has an attribute of each of us; she's crazy, kind, tough and full of love. She doesn't deal with bullshit; she'll be straight up honest with you from the beginning whether it’s telling you that she likes you or hates what you’re wearing. We wouldn’t be complete without her; she'd be the piece of the puzzle we'd always be looking for. Our little sailor (cause she curses like one)

I grinned "Your right. Why should I let him do all the running around?" I guess that’s where you say 'It's clicked' ha!

"It's clicked" Charl laughed as she looked at my grin. Guess she read my mind there.

The bell rang as it signalled the next period to begin. I said goodbye to the girls as I had one lecture left whereas they had finished.

As I was walking back to class, a sudden realization hit me in a way that caused to me to stop. With those 4 very different girls walking away from me, I wouldn’t be who I am today, right now in this moment. I wouldn’t have done half the things I have and for that, I thank them. Each of their initials is carved into pieces of my heart forever. My little circus will travel the world one day and everyone will be jealous of what we can do.