Whatever Happened To Needing No One?

I stood there staring back at Jonathan in complete disbelief. Welcome home? What the hell did he mean by that? Welcome home, baby. He exclaimed excitedly as he leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. When he pulled back he was glancing around the impressive foyer. I didn’t want to bring you here yet. He told me as he stepped from my side and flicked the light switch turning on the chandelier overhead. I didn’t want you here until it was finished. I wanted it to be that house you always wanted. The one you always talk about having one day. That’s how I wanted you to see it when you came here for the first time. Jonathan let out a sigh and faced me, smiling. But that doesn’t matter. You’re here now.

His arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer against his body. I felt his body relax around me as he exhaled loudly; a sigh of relief. I missed you so much, Ry. He mumbled into my ear, but I quickly pulled away staring blankly at him still filled with so many important questions left unanswered. Who the fuck was Carrie? Why was she in that apartment when Jon wasn’t? How did this have anything to do with her? Ryah.. Jon pleaded as I stepped backwards from him.

I can’t do this, Jonathan. I’m sorry. I muttered before turning on heel and making a beeline for the front door down the driveway.

RYAH! Jon called through the front door as I was making my escape. I don’t know where I was going; all I knew was that I had to get away. This was all too much for me to handle. In such a short time I had left my home, my boyfriend and my life, wound up further broken hearted when I found another woman in our apartment, and now he was acting like nothing ever happened. My heart was racing, my mind was a mess and there was still so much that I didn’t understand. Rather than trying to understand it I just wanted to get away. Hey! Jon’s voice murmured as he grasped my elbow. Where are you going?

I don’t know!

What’s wrong?!

What’s wrong?! I laughed venomously. Where do I even begin with tackling that one? Seriously, Jon?! Seriously?!! You can’t just spring a house on me like this and expect to make everything better. Did you think that shoving this house at me would make me forget about everything?

No! No. Baby I’m sorry! We had a fight. Jesus! Yes I did things that I regret, but I’m sorry! I’m not above that, I can say sorry. I can admit when I’m wrong. I was wrong and I’m sorry. He told me again, slower this time. I looked down biting my lip to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall. Baby…we’re just starting our lives together and let’s face it…I’m a dumbass. I’m gonna fuck up and we’re going to have lots more fights! But I love you. You are the only woman I want to be with. You’re so much more than I deserve and let’s be real here…I’d be an idiot to let you walk away from me. As if I didn’t come to that conclusion on my own I’ve had a locker room of guys kicking my ass for not fixing this. He said with a little chuckle. I bought this land a few months ago. My head shot up to meet his. A few months ago?!

The house has been finished for about 2 weeks now, and..

If you had been planning this for so long why would you go and cheat on me?! If I’m the only woman you want then..

Woah, woah, woah! He said in a raised, harsh tone. Ryah I didn’t cheat on you. There is absolutely nothing between Carrie and I. I have never ever cheated on you and I never will! Upon hearing these words tears began falling down my cheeks. I felt relieved, but at the same time a part of me didn’t believe it.

Then who is she?!

She’s a friend from college! I’ve known her for years! She’s an Interior Designer. I know you would probably want to decorate yourself, but I wanted it to have a little bit of a homey feel when you got here so I asked her to help me out. She flew in from New York for a couple days to give me some ideas. That’s it!

So...you and her didn’t..

NO! He cut me off quickly. We didn’t. We never have and we never will. I let my head fall into my hands as began to sob into them.

Hey! Hey, hey, hey. Jonathan said as he raised my chin forcing my eyes to lock on his. He wiped my fallen tears with the pads of his thumbs and grinned at me. I love you. he told me. Can we just put everything behind us? Move forward? I bit my bottom lip and nodded. Good. Because you living with Seabs again...it’s not only driving my insane with jealousy, it’s giving me black eyes. He told me. I couldn’t help but laugh I had a feeling he had gotten that from Brent. As I pictured Brent’s fist coming in contact with Jon’s face I had a flashback of myself slapping him when I found Carrie in the apartment. I threw my arms around him and clung tightly.

I’m so sorry I slapped you.

Babe, He said through his laughter. I’ve been hit harder. I deserved it too after the shit that went down. I’m sorry about the way I acted.

It’s okay. I told him. Let’s just forget it. A smile spread across his face instantly.

That’s the best thing I’ve heard in a long time. He swiftly picked me up off my feet and pressed his lips against mine. Jonathan always had this crazy way of making my thoughts vacate my mind when he was kissing me. I was unable to think of anything but the things he was making me feel when his lips were on mine and this time was certainly no different. He pulled back slightly and looked into my eyes.

What do you say we take a tour of our house? Before I had the chance to agree or disagree he was pulling me back towards the oversized wooden door. Before leading me through it he stopped and scooped me into his arms.

Jonathan! I squealed as my feet left the solid stone steps.

I’m carrying you over the threshold. I need to get some practice in so I don’t smash your head into the wall on our wedding night. I grinned at my boyfriend as he carried me through the entranceway of our new home and I couldn’t help but smile. I was overwhelmed with relief and happiness. This is the way Jonathan and I are supposed to be.