My Version Of Aruba?
My Roots
You hate me but I promised to protect you.
That sentence is impossible to actually follow through, but I'll break it down for ya.
Past Michel
I never knew why you people treated me like an unwanted mistake/monster. Every
single thing I have ever done has been wrong to you all, what I believe in & what
I wanted was joke. At the end of every sentence you people had to squeeze in how
you never wanted me if you had only known that I'd end up to be this.
A rage so great had built inside of me: a mother that wants me out of her sight, a
father that wants nothing to do with me but only his true son, grandparents who
labelled me as nothing more than trash and neighbors who sees nothing more
than a failed abortion.
I was judged by every inch I moved and for every fiber in my being. This hate consumed
me to the point where I couldn't even breathe. I was so lost in this feeling that the tears
finally stopped. I cast away my smile and stopped caring about anything and anyone around
me. "My life is a big waste," is what I have always felt." But instead of causing harm to
myself, like ending my own life, I came to the conclusion that I should hurt everything
around me to vent some of the grudge I held.
(And I small confession: I never expected to live longer my 18th birthday.)
The Me That Wanted To Change
As I've told you, all I did to ventilate this feeling to make myself feel better was to hurt
everyone around me. But that slowly changed the moment that I had found people who
I was able to share my laughs with. I didn't consider them to be friends at first but over
time I became attached to them. This had dolled my anger towards the world and
opened my eyes more to what life has to offer.
Sadly my friends had disappeared over time causing me to feel even more pain than
I've ever felt before. Cause of this I was so confused and I did whatever it is to
replace them but nothing could ever replace them.
Over time came new friends an I've slowly grew roots that helps keeps stable on this
earth. And with time the anger had vanished and time to rebuild a new has come.
Starting from the from the roots then all the way up to the skies and beyond!. (Toys Story)
The Me I Am Today
Thanks to my life experiences I can now smile. I know what I want and I'm working
very hard to get it as well. I want to protect my past self from going through that
pain ever again. I want to have kids of my own and give them things I never had or
experienced growing up:t things like a happy childhood and a father who's there.
But before all of that I have to fix my own life by making myself strong enough
to bear the weight of this world on my shoulders and stand tall on my own two feet
and smiled at the path I've taken to get there.
This is what I want and who I am!
That sentence is impossible to actually follow through, but I'll break it down for ya.
Past Michel
I never knew why you people treated me like an unwanted mistake/monster. Every
single thing I have ever done has been wrong to you all, what I believe in & what
I wanted was joke. At the end of every sentence you people had to squeeze in how
you never wanted me if you had only known that I'd end up to be this.
A rage so great had built inside of me: a mother that wants me out of her sight, a
father that wants nothing to do with me but only his true son, grandparents who
labelled me as nothing more than trash and neighbors who sees nothing more
than a failed abortion.
I was judged by every inch I moved and for every fiber in my being. This hate consumed
me to the point where I couldn't even breathe. I was so lost in this feeling that the tears
finally stopped. I cast away my smile and stopped caring about anything and anyone around
me. "My life is a big waste," is what I have always felt." But instead of causing harm to
myself, like ending my own life, I came to the conclusion that I should hurt everything
around me to vent some of the grudge I held.
(And I small confession: I never expected to live longer my 18th birthday.)
The Me That Wanted To Change
As I've told you, all I did to ventilate this feeling to make myself feel better was to hurt
everyone around me. But that slowly changed the moment that I had found people who
I was able to share my laughs with. I didn't consider them to be friends at first but over
time I became attached to them. This had dolled my anger towards the world and
opened my eyes more to what life has to offer.
Sadly my friends had disappeared over time causing me to feel even more pain than
I've ever felt before. Cause of this I was so confused and I did whatever it is to
replace them but nothing could ever replace them.
Over time came new friends an I've slowly grew roots that helps keeps stable on this
earth. And with time the anger had vanished and time to rebuild a new has come.
Starting from the from the roots then all the way up to the skies and beyond!. (Toys Story)
The Me I Am Today
Thanks to my life experiences I can now smile. I know what I want and I'm working
very hard to get it as well. I want to protect my past self from going through that
pain ever again. I want to have kids of my own and give them things I never had or
experienced growing up:t things like a happy childhood and a father who's there.
But before all of that I have to fix my own life by making myself strong enough
to bear the weight of this world on my shoulders and stand tall on my own two feet
and smiled at the path I've taken to get there.
This is what I want and who I am!