Let My Heart Rest In Pieces

Let My Heart Rest In Pieces 049

Friendly Advice

“Don’t even try to deny what happened, Envy! I was there and I saw it, you’re lucky no one else did.”

I let out a sigh, waiting for Roxy to stop her rant so I could talk. When she paused for a breath, I just jumped in. “Roxy, I wasn’t going to deny it. You just jumped to a conclusion like you usually do.”

“I do not,” the girl huffed on the other side of the phone, “But, you really weren’t going to deny it?”

I shook my head, realized she couldn’t see, and said, “No, I wasn’t. I called you for advice.”

“Advice about what?” I heard her moving around, probably trying to find a comfortable position. Sometimes our girl talks could become pretty long.

“Well, I think it’s pretty obvious that I like Frank,” I didn’t add the other word. Roxy didn’t have to know that just yet.

“It has been forever V, remember, I was the one that was trying to get you to admit it.”

“Anyway, it’s obvious that I like him. Probably obvious to everyone but him.”

“You know Midget; he’s kind of slow when it comes to girls. I think all males are, something they’re born with I guess.”

I snorted, agreeing with her statement. “Very true, but seeing as he doesn’t know, I don’t really know what to do.”

“That’s a question easily answered. Your just go up and ask him out!”

“Rox! There are so many things wrong with what you just said!” I exclaimed, falling onto my bed. “First, I don’t even know if he likes me. I know we’re always kissing and stuff, but that might not mean anything to him.”

“Trust me sweetie,” Roxy cooed, “kissing means something to him. It’s not something that he just throws around.”

“What about when he told me our first kiss meant nothing?” I reminded, biting my lip at the unpleasant memory.

“That was out of character for him, and I think he was lying. Maybe if it had only been one kiss that could have been true, but you two have been smooching way too many times for it to ‘mean nothing’.”

“Okay, let’s just say that was true, all the kisses meant something to him. Frankie might not want a relationship right now, after Alice and all. If I ask him and he says no, it will be so awkward between us.”

Roxy made a noise on her end of the phone, and I think it was something of disbelief. “Are you kidding me? Nothing is ever awkward between you guys. He kisses you, you guys are pretty much normal except for the fact that you’re sad. He fills in as a boyfriend and you act like it’s completely normal. There is nothing else that you can use to keep you from asking him. And don’t even pull that ‘It might ruin our friendship’ bullshit.”

I cursed silently in my head. That was my last back up plan. “I-I just can’t do it right now Roxy. I want to, but I want to make sure, you know? I’ll wait around for a few more days, just to see how everything goes, and then I’ll ask. Is that a good enough plan for you?”

She told me it wasn’t, but she couldn’t really argue, since she wasn’t the one that was putting her feelings on the line. After a little more girl talk, we both hung up the phone. I let out a breath then closed my eyes. I was kind of dreading the next few days of school, but there was nothing I could really do to stop it. I fell asleep that night fitfully, my heart tense.

~~~~~

I walked to school alone the next morning, leaving too early for my friends to have been walking to school. I just needed some time to think about everything that was happening right now.

Most important, I was in love with Frank Iero, who had no idea of my feelings for him. I had to make my move on him if I wanted to be happy, but I was too scared to. I’d never felt like this about someone, mostly because I hadn’t dated that much, and I didn’t want to lose this love.

Second, I had gotten runner up in the contest I had been involved in. Yes, it was sad that I hadn’t won, but runner up was better than not getting anything at all. Tamara was the better singer out of the two of us, and she was the one who had won.

Third, Ms. Den. Our relationship was strange, something secret that only the two of us knew about. Okay, maybe not just the two of us, but no one knew the extent of our friendship. We were really close, and I had called her mom on more than one occasion. We didn’t really mind anymore, but I never said it on purpose. I had never been this content with anyone besides my dad.

I had been thinking too hard, not really paying attention to anything, but luckily, I hadn’t run into anyone. I just hadn’t heard a certain someone yelling out my name. Once I stopped thinking, I heard her. I turned around to see Tamara running up to me, waving an arm in the air.

“Finally, I was calling you for a while,” she got out, breathing a little heavily.

“Sorry,” I said sheepishly, “I was just thinking too hard.”

“Not a problem,” the small girl dismissed a large grin on her face, “I’m still so excited about what happened yesterday. I just can’t believe that we won!”

“I told you that you were good Tamara, you just had to believe in yourself.”

Her smile was bright as she turned to me. “Thanks for that, you had no idea how nervous I was.”

“You’re welcome,” I told her. Right after I said that, I heard someone else call my name and saw Frankie walking over quickly to me. My heart sped up and my stomach filled with butterflies. Gah, I loved love, but I hated this feeling.

“What are you doing here so early Frank?” I asked when he reached us.

“I had to give something to my teacher before school started or I wouldn’t get credit for it.”

I saw Tamara just standing there, so I decided to introduce the two. “Oh, Frank, this is Tamara.”

“Yeah, you were the one that won the contest right?”

The red head nodded her head shyly, meeting Frank’s hazel stare. “Yeah, you were there?”

Frankie smiled at her, a grin that was breath taking to anyone who saw it. “Yeah, I was there rooting for Envy. It’s awesome that she got runner up though. I knew my girl could do it!”

I rolled my eyes, even though I liked the term, and said, “I’m not your girl, but thanks.”

Tamara giggled at our interaction. “You two seem to get along greatly.”

“Well, of course. This girl right here is my best friend, and she’s only been here for a couple months. I don’t know how, but she’s wiggled her way into my heart.”

‘Probably the same way that you took my heart as yours’ I thought. On the outside, I slapped his arm lightly. “You make me sound like some kind of internal parasite.”

The two teenagers laughed. “I guess that’s one way to put it. But, hey, I have to head out. It was nice meeting you Tamara. See you later V!”

“Frank is really funny,” Tamara voiced as we continued to walk.

I couldn’t help but smile. “Yeah, he is. I love that kid to death.” Oh, wasn’t that just true. God, I was turning into some love obsessed teenager!

“I’d love to hang out with you guys more.”

“Well, why don’t you come sit with us at lunch? I’m sure everyone would love you.”

“I’d love to. See you at lunch then?”

“Yeah, see you then.”