Let My Heart Rest In Pieces

Let My Heart Rest In Pieces 053

Palpitating To Flat Line

"You're going to fry your brain if you keep sitting like that."

My brown eyes flicked towards Taylor's figure, which was upside down in my eyes. I made a noise of disbelief. "It will not."

"Then you'll at least get a head ache. Now sit up right," Roxy commanded, scribbling something down in her notebook.

With a sigh, I flipped over onto my stomach and tried to focus as the room moved around me.

"Ouch," I groaned, rubbing my temple as a slight head ache started to wrack my brain.

"I told you."

"I told you," I mocked in a higher voice, crossing my arms over my chest as I pouted. Yes, pouted and no, I wasn't too mature for that.

The sound of a horn beeping in the drive way reached my room, making all three of us jump in surprise. I looked out the window to see Taylor's mom in her car, waiting for her daughter to come out of the house.

"No!" she screamed, "don't make me go! I hate that old man, he's a horrible doctor!"

Roxy and I rolled our eyes and pushed her out my bedroom door. "Go on, the sooner you get it over with the better."

We could hear her grumbles continue as she descended the stairs then left my house. I laughed softly and went to go sit back on my bed.

"So, now that she's gone-"

"No, we're not talking about it again," I cut her off, picking up a book and pretending to read it. It was upside down, but I was hoping that she wouldn't notice. Turned out she did, though.

Her small hands clutched the book and put it on the bedside table before looking me directly in the eye. "I will continue to talk about it as long as you continue to put it off. You were the one that got me into admitting it to Gerard, now I have to do the same for you."

"Negative," I corrected, pointing a finger at her, "Ger was the one that told you first. I just put you guys in potentially awkward places."

"And I would do the same for you, but as I explained for you, there aren't really any awkward places for you and Frank."

I grabbed a pillow from behind me and buried my face in it, trying to just hide from the conversation we were trying to have; one that we've had more than once already.

"Can't we just wait for Frankie to do it? It’s supposed to be the man's job anyway," I mumbled into the pillow, not really caring if my friend heard me or not.

"No, we cannot. First, it always takes him forever to ask out a girl he likes unless it's going to be a short term thing. Second, you're the one that liked him first, you have to ask."

"I just…"

"What?" Roxy encouraged, suddenly lowering her voice and staring at me in a curious manner.

"It's been a rough time lately, ever since the funeral, plus the dreams I had not too long ago."

"Envy," Rox cooed, scooting closer to me and holding my hands in hers, "Then this really is the perfect time to say something to him. I'm not stupid; I've noticed how much you've relied on him. You two are emotionally attached; wouldn't it make sense to just ask the boy out already?"

"Is it normal to feel this scared of rejection?"

The smaller girl smiled widely at me, coming closer and giving me a big hug. "Yes, yes it is Envy. Tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay," I whispered out.

~~~~~

"No, you can't make me. I've changed my mind; I think I'll just go home now."

"I'm not taking that for an answer missy. We talked about this yesterday and you said you were going to do it."

I bit my lip nervously, desperately wishing that I could take back what I had said yesterday. Who had I been kidding? I was far beyond not ready to tell Frank anything. I wanted to be sure of his feelings, but now, I was just as confused as I had been before. Did he like me more than a friend, or was I just his best friend?

I lightly caressed the imprint of my love's lips that were on my wrist and couldn't help but smile when I looked down at it. Could just a best friend do something to permanently mark their body like that?

"You are so in love with him."

"A-am not!" I defended weakly with a blush.

"Alright," Roxy said, dropping the subject with a smirk, "It doesn't matter anyway. Frankie is right over there!"

I turned to where my friend was pointing and felt my heart leap in my chest. He was slowly wandering into school, looking like he was searching for someone in particular. Kind of like how I was looking for him at this moment.

"Hey, Frankie!" I called over with enthusiasm that I didn't even know I had the will to produce. His attention redirected to me and he gave me a small smile. I returned it and tried to calm my erratically palpitating heart.

"Hey V, Rox."

"Oh, I have to run to my locker real quick, see ya!"

Frank gave our friend a quick curious look before returning his attention to me. I smiled weakly then started, "Frank, I have something to tell you."

"Hmm?"

"Well, I, um, I-"

"Frankie! There you are, I was looking all over for you."

Why did people love interrupting me when I was trying to do something important? I turned around to see Tamara for a few seconds before she jumped into my friend's arms and kissed him.

Yes, on the lips. It seemed like no surprise to him and he kissed back for a moment before he remembered I was there and pulled her next to his side.

"You guys…?"

"We got together this weekend. Frank and I were hanging out and bam, we were boyfriend and girlfriend."

Have you ever heard a heart break before? It sounds just like shattering glass, and feels as if you've just been stabbed with each shard. How would I know?

It had just happened to me. Again.