Let My Heart Rest In Pieces

Let My Heart Rest In Pieces 078

Until I Turned Around

“I miss sleeping in late,” Taylor sobbed, her feet seeming heavy as she walked over to us at the beginning of school I chuckled at her over dramatic-ness—all my friends seemed to have that quality—and gave her a good morning hug. I had only seen her a few times over break, so it was nice to see her now. If only we weren’t at school, it would have made our meeting a whole lot sweeter.

“We all miss it Tay. Unfortunately, we don’t have a break for a really long time.”

“Why would you remind me of that?!” she screamed, beating at Quinn, the one who had said the comment, with her palm.

“I was just telling you the truth. Ow, woman, leave me alone! Someone help me!”

It was funny how no one raised a finger to help him. We were either really bad friends, or the typical best friends. I didn’t really know anymore, but it was just something we did.

“How was your trip, Bert?” I asked, trying to hide the smile on my face. The boy was messing with his hair, which didn’t look bad for once, then he glared at me.

“It went horrible! I had to shower and shave every day, and dress up in these dress clothes. I missed my ripped jeans and band tees.”

“Oh, it’s only one week out of the whole year, it could be worse. You could be doing it every day.”

Bert’s eyes widened to the size of dinner plates at Roxy’s words and he started to mess his hair up even more.

“Anyone know where Pansy is?”

I rolled my brown eyes at the question, having some idea where he could be.

“He’s probably fighting with Tamara again. I think he’s trying to sabotage their relationship. I tried to help him, but my advice doesn’t seem to be working for him.”

Speak of the devil and he will come. A moment after I said my statement, he popped up, looking like Frank should—happy. He grinned at us and gave bro hug all around to the boys. I had a feeling we all had not seen each other over this break, and being reunited right now felt good.

“Where’s Tamara?” I asked, my hands on my hips as I gave him a face. He looked down like he was guilty of something, like I knew he had been. I sighed and threw my hands up in exasperation.

“Really, Frank, really? We talked about it!”

The bell that started school sounded then, letting the boy off of the hook. That didn’t stop me from giving him a glare, though.

“We are finishing this talk at lunch, got it?”

“You’re worse than my mother—but fine, at lunch it is.”

“Come on Jeremy, to English!”

I could feel the boy roll his eyes behind me, but he did follow me to our shared class. After a few steps away from our friends, the boy wrapped his hand around mine. I looked up at his brown and blue eyes and couldn’t help but smile.

“You’re being a really good friend by helping those two. I like Tamara; Frankie is being stupid if he doesn’t take your advice and ends up breaking up with her.”

“I really hope they don’t; it will be so awkward if they did. I have to deal with both of them!”

Jeremy laughed and looked down at me with a huge, boyish smile. It was something that I had come to love about him.

“And we don’t want you to feel awkward, now would we?”

“No,” I said, “because it’s all about me.”

Jeremy shook his head with that gorgeous smile still on his face. He leaned down and kissed my lips softly, yet quickly, before he led us into the English classroom. Unfortunately, Mrs. Colt wasn’t going to allow us to switch our seats, even if we weren’t dating, so he was still in the back and across from me while I was in the front.

As I sat down in my seat and started to unpack my things, I thought of the reason I was helping Frank—a boy I was deeply in love with—and Tamara with their relationship. Maybe because it was because I was happy in how my life was going right now. I had all my friends around to keep me happy, Frankie and I had almost completely patched up our friendship, and I was in my own relationship—even if it was a weird one—that kept me smiling and laughing.

Was I no longer in love with Frankie? No, that wasn’t it. I barely finished that thought in my head before I knew it was false. I couldn’t just fall out of love that easily. It was just was easier to forget about when I had someone who cares for me the same way that I cared for them; it wasn’t a one-sided love like I had for the smaller boy.

I had been having a lot of these revelations lately; it was actually quite surprising. Maybe it was a symbol that I was growing up. That, or my mind was just really bored and had nothing else to do.

For a while after that, my mind wandered off to other things as Mrs. Colt talked about what we would be doing. At one point, I was even playing with my pen, pressing down on the push point and making it fly a couple inches into the air. Yes, I was easily amused.

If you couldn’t tell, I wasn’t exactly paying attention to what was going on around me—I really hope it wasn’t that important—so class ended earlier than it would have seemed. I picked up all of my things, packing them neatly into my bag, then walked out with Jeremy.

“You weren’t paying attention in class, were you?”

I gaped up at the tall boy, my mouth more than likely looking strangely like that of a fish.

“How did you know?!”

“I can tell when you go off into you head with one simple glance at you.”

Listening to his explanation, it was my turn to give him a smirk of my own, which confused him. Not like it took much to do that, though.

“So you were watching me, huh?”

That made him instantly blush and look away. His cheeks looked like someone had covered his face in a dramatically red cheek tinting makeup, causing him to look like a tomato. I laughed at his reaction, but found it extremely adorable that he was so embarrassed.

“Hey, aren’t you going to be late for Physics?” he asked, trying to change the topic so he could stop blushing so profusely.

“Probably, but it’s worth it to see you so flustered.”

He rolled those mix matched eyes at me, but the effect was ruined with the red tinges still lingering over his whole face. To get me to shut up—either that or it was just for a goodbye—Jeremy leaned down and kissed me on the lips. Not wasting any time, I kissed him back immediately and was left with a smile on my face when he pulled away.

Knowing that the warning bell was going to ring soon, I hugged him bye and started to race off to class with that smile still on my face.

That was, until I turned around and saw a very familiar and shocked face staring at me.

“Frank,” I breathed, though I didn’t know if he heard me or not. Even so, I saw something in his face that brought a pain to my already racing heart. It kind of felt like my boyfriend had caught me cheating, even if that wasn’t the case at all.

In a very small voice that wasn’t characteristic of Frank, he said “We have something else to talk about at lunch” before he turned and entered the class that was closest to him. The warning bell rang and I cursed before running full speed to where I was supposed to be. The whole time, I was biting away at my lip while my lungs found it hard to breathe. The secret love of my life had just seen me kissing someone who was supposed to just be a friend. Fuck.

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“Envy, quit bouncing, you’re shaking the whole damn table!”

My thigh stopped mid-motion, stopping my foot from pushing at the table once more. I could hear the annoyed tone in Mikey’s voice and gave him an apologetic smile. I pushed my hair back behind my ear and waited until the teacher wasn’t looking at us to talk to my friend.

“Sorry, I’m just having a really hard time paying attention today.”

“It’s only second period, you can’t say that.”

“Everything has to be literal for you, huh? Fine, I haven’t been able to pay attention for the last two periods. Is that better for you?”

“Quite,” the tall, lanky boy said, give me a smirk that made me want to scoff. He turned to me, not caring that the old teacher was staring at us, and gave me a serious look.

“What?” I questioned, ignoring my work now to pay attention to my friend.

“You’re not the one to get distracted too easily, do something must be up. Want to talk about it?”

First period was just me being bored and thinking about anything to keep my small attention span amused. But now, all I could think about was the look on Frankie’s face when he saw me kissing Jeremy. I knew, as best friends, we weren’t going to just brush this off. He was hurt that I hadn’t had the balls to tell him, and I had given him advice on his own relationship. I was nervous as to what we were going to talk about.

Then I looked into Mikey’s eyes and thought about how he too was Frankie’s best friend. Hell, he knew more about Frank than I did. Now that this had come to my mind, I desperately wanted to tell him about everything that was going on. How I was, and always had been, in love with his friend and how devastated I had been when he had gotten together with Tamara. And now, as the icing on the cake, I had a secret “boyfriend” that the small boy had now learned about. What should I do, I wanted to ask him.

“No, I’ll get over it soon. We should probably start paying attention to what is going on.”

“I’m not going to be a scientist, so this stuff doesn’t really matter to me.”

“Then why did you take this class?”

“I thought we were going to blow stuff up,” he answered honestly with a shrug.

“Same here.”