Girl I Know

Chapter 24
(mercury)

“Ohh fuck.” I groaned as the light that filtered in from the small window in the lounge triggered my pulsating headache. I could barely walk straight through the blinding pain as I scavenged around for the Tylenol. I found it and popped two with some water and waited for the pain to weaken. I left some with some water next to the guys, who I realized were scattered about the bus. Only Zacky and Johnny had made it safely to their bunks. Brian drank so much last night and was slumped against the wall, Matt was slumped on the couch, and Jimmy was cheek down on the floor.

I went over to Brian and shook his shoulder. He didn’t move until I shook him harder and his lips started to twitch and he began to mumble. His eyelids fluttered open and revealed his beautiful irises to me. He just looked at me forlornly.

“Shh, I know you have a headache so don’t talk. Here.” I whispered as I popped two pills past his soft lips and held the water bottle up to him and he took it from me and downed half of it. I did the same for all of the guys and they began to stir. I sat back down on the couch and reached for my purple Voyager. I had a bunch of new text messages from Frankie, Bryan M and Gee.

Party was bomb. Hope you aren’t too hung over lil sis – Gee String I smiled. I remember I called him that yesterday.

Good morning M! I’m hung the fuck over, and I know you are. Feel better- Monte$$

Guess what? Chicken butt. Good morning the sun shines! I want some skittles but Gerard wont let me have any because he’s mad that he’s hung over and I’m not. So I’m going to kick your new brother’s ass. You feel better honey- xoFrankie

Damn everyone knew I was hung over. I appreciated the texts and I realized I had crazy pictures of me and the guys. I set the one of me and Bryan holding up the rock symbol and sticking out our tongues like idiots.

Out of nowhere I just received a text from a restricted number. It came with an attachment that I opened. How did they get my number? I always get peoples number if I give them mine and I always put some crazy nickname for them. Who the fuck was this? My hand flew over my mouth when I saw the picture that gave it all away and the words that came with it

I saw you two behind the buses and unless you want the world to know that Synyster Gates is fucking a sixteen year old, no less Zacky’s sister…meet me outside of the venue at 12:30 tonight. I’ll be waiting;)
The text read and I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
I scrolled down to see the picture of Brian and I…leaned up against the bus, kissing heatedly…

Oh god… What do I do? Brian won’t even talk to me after the way we both acted…I couldn’t dare tell one of the guys yet…but what if I don’t need to tell one of the guys… I searched through my contacts and found the one I wanted. I held the phone to my ear and hoped she would answer.

“Hello?” Her honey sweet voice cheered through the receiver.

“Oh Val thank god…” I sighed.

“Hey girl! How’s tour?” She asked but I had to skip the formalities. I couldn’t evade this.

“Fine, fine, fine. Val we have a problem. A big fucking problem.” I said my voice wavering as tears threatened. I went into the back room, making sure nobody followed me.

“Sweetie what happened?” She asked her voice becoming serious.

“Well, you know how me and Brian are dating?”

“I NEVER KNEW THAT!! MERCURY BAKER HOW COULD YOU KEEP THIS FROM ME! I knew you two got hot and heavy in the hot tub but I never knew….Oh my god did you fuck him?” She asked and a cheeky smile crept on my face.

“Yeah…” I said giggling and she started freaking out.

“Oh my god! Oh my god! Wait till I tell Matt! Wait what am I doing, I can’t tell Matt! Never mind me, I’m just a retard.” She laughed and I snickered.

“But Val that isn’t the problem…”

“Oh shit you’re pregnant aren’t you…?” She said quietly and I burst out laughing.

“Fuck no!” I laughed and she sighed.

“Oh good. We don’t need a littler Mercury running around.” She said and I snorted.

“Hey Val?”

“Yeah?”

“Can I get to the problem now?” I asked and she composed herself.

“Someone knows about us…” I said and she gasped.

“Are you fucking serious? How?!” She yelled in disbelief.

“I don’t know? I don’t even know who it is, but they told me to meet them tonight outside of the venue before we leave. Should I do it Val? I don’t know I’m so scared, I wish you were here right now.” I rambled, my fear beginning to take over again.

“Shh, shh. Calm down, just take a deep breath and think. When did this happen?”

“Uh, yesterday we all went to a tour party, and this creepy guy Jake was hitting on me and Brian beat his ass, before we got into an argument. Me and Brian are currently on non speaking terms.”

“Maybe its Jake.” She said and I thought about it. Out of all the people I’ve met yesterday he would probably be the asshole to fucking do that! Valary, there is has a picture of us! How do I know what will happen to us? We’re falling apart…” I said tears running down my face.

“If you talk to him about this, he will listen.” She said and I shook my head.

“I want to see what it’s all about first. I don’t want to worry him.”

“Then you should try to reconcile with him. You wouldn’t want all of this shit to go down with I’m mad at you. At least go down together.” She told me and I sighed.

“Why does it have to be this way? Why are people such cocksuckers?!” I asked her and she sighed heavily.

“I don’t know, some people just love to suck cock.” She said and I laughed through my tears.

“Thank you Val Gal.” I said and she sucked her teeth.

“I aint no Val Gal. But you’re welcome Curie.” She snickered.

“WE SHALL NEVER SPEAK OF THAT NAME AGAIN!” I said and she burst out laughing.

“I love you girl, call me if you need anything. I don’t care when. If I’m not here call Leana or anyone else because we are here for you.” She said and I smiled.

“Thanks, I love you too. Bye Val.”

“Okay bye M.” She said before we both hung up. I sat in the back room sniffling and looking around. I looked over to the door and I saw Jimmy standing in the doorway.

“How long have you been there Jim Jam?” I asked sniffing and he pushed himself off of the wall.

“Long enough…what’s going on? Why are you crying?” He asked and I shook my head. He sat next to me on the couch and made me look at him.

“Mercury, I know you are a strong person and you don’t just cry for no reason.”

“Sunshine I wish I could tell you, but I can’t…” I sobbed and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

“Is it because of Brian?” He asked and my eyes widened. Did he already know? How did he know?

“Yeah.” I answered wiping my yes.

“What happened between you two? Both of you are acting different and Brian got so fucking smashed last night it wasn’t even funny. He doesn’t just do that for no reason. The last time I’ve even seen him like that was when he broke up with Michelle. M, you know you can tell me, if its something you don’t want the guys to know then your secret is safe with me. I just want to see you happy okay?”

He said and I felt like I needed to. I knew I could trust Jimmy, I knew he was telling the truth.

“B-brian and I…h-he…w-we….we’re dating.” I said and he sighed laughing. Huh? I was confused. Why was he laughing?! I knew sunshine was crazy but not that crazy!

“Is that what you were so scared to tell me? Honey I knew you loved Brian for the longest while.” My eyes widened as I stared at him.

“W-w-wha…t?” I asked and he laughed.

“I may be stupid but I’m not an idiot.” He said and I cracked a smile.

“Jimmy you are seriously the best. You knew before I even knew, I fucking love you.” I said hugging him.

“So what is going on between you two?”

“Brian and I got into an argument about this guy who I thought was my friend and turned out to be an asshole. We played the age card and I told him that if he feels like he’s talking to a child then I should act like one. We were screaming at each other, oh man it was terrible.” I said burying my head in my hands.

“So why were you on the phone with Val?”

“Because I didn’t know what to do…”

“You could have just talked to him.” He suggested

“You should know more about him than I do. You should know that he wouldn’t even want to see me.” I said and he sighed.

“So what are you going to do?”

“I don’t know…I’m just a kid… the most I can do is apologize and hope that he’ll accept it.”

“Whatever happens, I’ll do my best to help you out baby girl.” He said and I nodded.

“I love you Sunshine.” I murmured as I closed my eyes.

“I love you too Starshine…we’ll get through this.” He said as he held me tighter.

How could I just let him go, when I finally get to hold him in my arms?

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“Brian…could I talk to you?” I asked as he sat in the back room, where I only sat mere hours before. There was a cigarette in between his lips and the TV was on. He casually rolled his eyes over to look at me. He just stared at me blankly.

“Can you put that out?” I asked holding my hands in front of me. He blew out a white toxic cloud before he crushed it out in an ashtray near him.

“What do you want?” He asked solemnly and I walked over to him. I sat down cautiously next to him, nervous of how to begin.

“Bri, I just wanted to apologize.” I said softly and I just stared into his brown eyes that mirrored my gaze with a hard stare. I wanted no more than for him to hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay… but it hurt that he didn’t want to.

“Is that all you came here to say? I wasted a quality cigarette just for that shit?” He said irritated like I was just wasting his precious time.

“No wait I’m not done. I wanted you to know that I’m sorry I let you down. I’m sorry I did everything that everyone specifically told me not to. I’m sorry that I make you feel like you are babysitting a child instead of having a girlfriend. That you always get me out of my messes that I create for myself because I am too headstrong. I’m sorry that I do things that I know you don’t like sometimes, like getting drunk at tour parties, and not to mention going there dressed inappropriately. I’ve been such a dumb whore to you when all you wanted to do was show me that you wanted me to be something great, that you didn’t want me to make the same mistakes you did. I’m sorry that I left with Jake when I knew you didn’t like him because I was too stubborn to listen to you. I’m sorry I can’t be the mature person you want because I’m too immature and stupid, and I’m sorry that you even like me and you have to put up with me when I’m such a bad person.” I said looking down before I looked back up into his eyes

He had the same look in his eyes, like he was just going to hear what I had to say and then dismiss me. But he didn’t, his eyes softened.

“M you aren’t a bad girlfriend, and I don’t feel like I’m babysitting you. And I don’t expect you to be the mature person I want because I love what you love being. Immature and fun. If you were all uptight, I’m pretty sure my life would be so boring.” He said smiling back at me and I felt so happy that we were talking again.

“Are you still mad?” I asked and he smirked.

“After that I can’t be. I’m sorry you feel that way, but even though you piss me off I still love you. And I always will, just the way you are. Even if you do think you are immature and stupid. I’m here to tell you that you aren’t.”

“Brian, I missed you terribly. I felt like such a fuck when I thought about all the things I do to you.”

“I love what you do to me. You drive me insane; you’re like a drug to me.” He said and I got up and jumped into his lap squealing happily. I covered his face in kisses and he got me back.

“Don’t ignore me anymore?” I asked and he nodded and I kissed his soft full lips once more. I missed them so much, I was magnetized by them.

“I missed your lips.”

“I missed your hips.” He laughed grabbing my hips and I laughed.

“They don’t lie Brian.”

“Oh trust me, I know.” He said wiggling his eyebrows and I giggled.

“I missed your eyes.” I said as I gazed into them and he smiled.

“I missed your face.”

“I missed your arms around me.”

“My dick missed you too.” I slapped him as he laughed immaturely.

“See we had it going so cute, and then you had to bring your dick into this.”

“My dick is cute.” He said and I burst out laughing.

“No it isn’t. It’s just big.”

“Well it’s still cute.”

“Brian a dick can’t be cute it just doesn-”

“MERCURY MY DICK IS CUTE AS HELL!” He yelled and I started cracking up with laughter.

“No it’s not Brian. It’s just there.”

“Waiting for you.”

“Waiting for your mom! OH BURN!!” I yelled and he pursed his lips.

“Alright you win.” He said and I laughed bouncing up and down as I clapped. His face twisted.

“Are you okay?” I asked making a confused look.

“Stop bouncing, you’re fucking turning me on.” A sneaky smirk slid onto my face and he gave me a stern glare.

“M…don’t tease me, or I’ll make you finish it.”

“You can’t. My brother is here and you will get in biiiig trouble mister.” I said and he sighed.

“Brian you are acting like you can’t go jerk off somewhere. As long as you let me watch, it’s all okay.”

“Fuck you. You aren’t watching me…do that.”

“Oh but I already have.” I said and he looked at me embarrassed.

“When was this?”

“Before we got together, after we kissed in the hot tub, and you moaned my name.” I said smirking and he blushed. He was so fucking cute.

“So just let me tease you. I like seeing you all worked up, you are sexy.” I said and he rolled his eyes.

“Tease me and I just might let Zacky watch me fuck you.” He said still glaring and I made a scared face and stopped wiggling around on him

“Okay okay…jeez.”

“Good.” He smiled, wrapping his arms around me and pretended to eat my face.

“Ugh don’t! I don’t want your nasty drool all over me!” I said and he stopped, wiping it all off with his sleeve.

“Brian I want to go out, can we get some ice cream? I really want some right now!” I was in the mood for a nice cup of cookie dough ice cream.

“Then we have to go to the store and get some stuff for smores because me and sunshine enjoy them”

“Anything else? Maybe a trip to the toy store? You want a Barbie?” He asked sarcastically.

“Pfsh no you idiot. Everyone knows that Bratz is where it’s at.” I said and he rolled his eyes. I climbed off of his lap before I leaned down and ran my finger down his chest and past his navel.

“What are you do-ahh…” He cut himself off with a gasp when I danced my fingers over his package. He looked so sexy as he closed his eyes so they were half lidded, and his full lips were apart. That face only lasted for a minute before it was replaced with one of revenge.

“I love you!” I cried as I got up and ran out of the back room with him on my heels. We passed the others, who were in the couch area and we ran into the kitchen.

“Whoa, whoa! What happened?!”

“Brian has a boner for you Zacky!” I yelled and he ran around the counter after me and I dove into Matt’s lap and Brian stopped running.

“HAHA! MY MATTY WILL KEEP ME FROM YOUR EVIL CLUTCHES!” I yelled and he cracked a smile.

“I don’t even have a boner; I’m just pretty hard right now.” He said and I started laughing obnoxiously.

“Same difference.”

“Well let’s start out with this, why do you have a boner Syn?” Zacky asked.

“I saw your face baby.” He said winking and he grabbed his crotch, and moaned loudly. Brian was such an idiot, and my brother looked like he was used to his gayness already

“You’re getting some of this later.” He said and Zacky flipped him off.

“Denied.” Matt said and we all started laughing.

“Ha-ha fuck you guys. I’m going to go caress myself.” He said before he walked out of sight. We heard a high pitched.

“DAYUM!” Before we heard a door slam and that’s when I lost it. I fell out of Matt’s lap laughing.

“You guys are so funny! It’s so obvious when you are turned on, but with us girls you can’t tell unless we tell you.

“Ew. I wouldn’t want to know if my little sister was feeling…freaky.”

“Mmm Zacky you know I want you baby.” I said mockingly and he made an icky face.

“Oh come on! I remember I had to listen to you fuck Gena once! It was the most disgusting thing in the world. I’ve never heard your name so many times in one sentence!” I yelled and he turned scarlet and Matt, Jimmy, and Johnny started cracking up.

“And you! You are worse than he is! Valary personally calls me to ‘let me know how it was’! The things I heard about you Matty, mhm. You aren’t innocent at all.” I pointed and Johnny and Jimmy and Zacky laughed even harder.

“I’m like god Val; I don’t need to know how big Matt is. I like to think of you without a dick and not sexually active. Like sometimes I forget you even have one.” I said and Zacky was crying at this point. I was serious!

“Why?!” He asked through his laughter.

“Because I don’t want my little boy engaging in sodomy!” I yelled pointing and Matt started laughing harder, his dimples becoming craters in his cheeks.

“Mercury, Matt is older than you by eight years.”

“He was conceived in the future.”

“That’s the answer to everything.”

“Matthew aren’t you still a virgin?” I asked raising my eyebrows.

“Yes M.” He responded smirking and I giggled and hugged him.

“FUCK!” We heard from the back and I started laughing mad hard. Brian seemed to be finished.

“That guy is an idiot.” I laughed and they all nodded. Brian walked out with a satisfied look on his face, and his belt buckle was undone.

“Brian fix your pants, there is a female in the room.”

“Where?” Zack asked and I swung at him and smacked him upside the head.

“Nah brah, I gotta rock out with mah cock out.” He said with a grin. I rolled my eyes and leaned over to pull the leather belt through the loop and fix it on one of the holes.

“Mercury you are an idiot, now he’s gonna have to undo it again because at this rate he’s enjoying this.”

“Horn dog.” I muttered.

“Or should we say Porn dog...” Jimmy muttered and we all started laughing.

“Now I want a corndog…” Zacky muttered and I slapped him.

“You guys are just jealous of my huge co-” He started and I cut him off.

“Can we change the subject? I don’t feel comfortable talking about male areas.” I said cutely looking around.

“Of course, my little princess.” Matt cooed.

“Yeah I like you Matty. Nice Matty, nice dickless Matty...” I murmured and Brian burst out laughing.

“W-wha-what?!”

“I like to think of Matt without a dick because I just don’t think about him having one whenever I see him. It’s not like oh wow, Matt has a dick! It’s just Matt. And sometimes when you go to use the bathroom I ask myself if you have to sit down then I remember. And I don’t want to think about that at the rate that Val is going on about him. It’s the same with Zacky except I just think he is a girl. I refuse to believe that my brother has a dick, that and because we share underwear right?’” I said calmly and he looked like he had never heard anything funnier.

“Holy crap!” He crowed laughing.

“What?! Then how would I fuck Gena?” Zacky screeched.

“Scissor me timbers.” I said acting like a pirate and Zacky turned pink out of laughter, and Jimmy and Johnny and Matt and Brian were laughing so loudly.

“What you don’t know that I borrow your boxers all the time? You even have leopard print you dirty girl.”

“I know that but when did I ever wear your underwear?”

“Member when the washer broke and we couldn’t do laundry so you took my girly boxer briefs? They were purple with white and black stripes around it. How can you not remember Zacky, your ass looked huge!” I yelled and he turned red and face palmed. All of the guys were cracking up at my brother’s expense.

“M we shall never speak of this again.”

“Fair enough.” Jimmy said and I giggled.

“Fair enough.” I parroted and Jimmy and I highfived.

“Matty can I ask you a question?” Brian asked and I giggled. Whenever he called him Matty he meant something stupid.

“What gates?”

“…Is life in plastic really that fantastic?” he asked and I face palmed and started laughing loudly. Matt just turned a bit red as Brian kept a serious face. I could tell he wanted to think of an answer but he just couldn’t. Brian sat there pretending like he just asked a scholarly question…Jesus Christ my boyfriend is an idiot. -_-