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It was short and sweet but I quickly pulled away. What was I doing? I had Gerard! Fuck Frank, I'm such a whore! Hayden just watched me begin to breathe heavily.
"I'm so sorry." I choked out. Tears began to well in my my eyes. "What was I thinking?" I sniffed but then broke down. Hayden just stood there sadly and stared as I fell to my knees.
"Its okay Frank." he said after a bit.
"Its not okay! I just kissed you. I just cheated on Gerard!" I sobbed.
"Cheating is technically when you have sex with someone else, a kiss means nothing." he mewed softly and knelt down beside me. I looked up at him but he was blurry from the tears.
"It means I can't control myself." I cried. Hayden just shook his head.
"I wouldn't let it happen. You belong together... not with me."
"But why not? Why are you so against us being together? If you love me then why aren't we together?" I felt my cheeks get hot with frustration. Hayden just looked up at the dark sky and sighed.
"A storm is coming, lets just go inside." I looked up at the sky and sniffed. It was perfectly clear without a cloud. What the hell was he talking about, a storm?
"What the fuck are you talking about?" I cried. "Answer me!" we looked at each other for a moment before Hayden broke the eye contact.
"I just know, okay Frank? You don't have a future with me. I'm just a heartless killer who lives on the streets. You on the other hand are gifted, you can play guitar like a pro and Gerard is a pretty fucking good artist. You guys are meant to be. I'm just here, nothing more." by this time the tears had stopped. I just sniffled as I listened to him.
"I'm not that good..." I stated.
"Oh yes you are. I heard you playing in the music room once and it was beautiful. Frankie babe... listen to me, forget about me okay. I'm nothing special, just another boy." he pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him. We just sat on the sidewalk in from of my house hugging and in my case still crying. He was my safety net and just an amazing person in general... even if he was pretty scary and creepy. Even though he killed his parents and lived in an abandoned leather factory alone, he was still my friend... my best friend.
"I'm so sorry." I choked out. Tears began to well in my my eyes. "What was I thinking?" I sniffed but then broke down. Hayden just stood there sadly and stared as I fell to my knees.
"Its okay Frank." he said after a bit.
"Its not okay! I just kissed you. I just cheated on Gerard!" I sobbed.
"Cheating is technically when you have sex with someone else, a kiss means nothing." he mewed softly and knelt down beside me. I looked up at him but he was blurry from the tears.
"It means I can't control myself." I cried. Hayden just shook his head.
"I wouldn't let it happen. You belong together... not with me."
"But why not? Why are you so against us being together? If you love me then why aren't we together?" I felt my cheeks get hot with frustration. Hayden just looked up at the dark sky and sighed.
"A storm is coming, lets just go inside." I looked up at the sky and sniffed. It was perfectly clear without a cloud. What the hell was he talking about, a storm?
"What the fuck are you talking about?" I cried. "Answer me!" we looked at each other for a moment before Hayden broke the eye contact.
"I just know, okay Frank? You don't have a future with me. I'm just a heartless killer who lives on the streets. You on the other hand are gifted, you can play guitar like a pro and Gerard is a pretty fucking good artist. You guys are meant to be. I'm just here, nothing more." by this time the tears had stopped. I just sniffled as I listened to him.
"I'm not that good..." I stated.
"Oh yes you are. I heard you playing in the music room once and it was beautiful. Frankie babe... listen to me, forget about me okay. I'm nothing special, just another boy." he pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him. We just sat on the sidewalk in from of my house hugging and in my case still crying. He was my safety net and just an amazing person in general... even if he was pretty scary and creepy. Even though he killed his parents and lived in an abandoned leather factory alone, he was still my friend... my best friend.
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