Status: I'm taking a break, ya'll! I have another story rolling and...a novel to fix....and.... The end of the semester is coming up! Also, that plot bunny keeps escaping me! Grrrrrr.....bunnies.....
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“Let me move on,” I whispered to nobody. I collapsed into the grass and let my head fall back against the side of the house. “I’m tired. I’m tired of waiting. I want to forget. I want to breathe again.”
I was tired of seeing her. I was sick of her.
God, I wanted to throw myself off of a really high building for even thinking it. She was my friend. I would always love her. More than she could…ever possibly know.
But I didn’t want her with me anymore.
She was like the sour air that puffed out of a trunk that had been closed for three hundred years. Old, dusty, musty…stale. She was stuck, unmoving.
It was old, so fucking old.
“Go away. Please. I love you, but, please, leave me alone.”
I don’t want to hurt you.
But I don’t want to remember you, either.
There’s…life…waiting for me. But you’re…death…hanging all around. Death is always around me. Like a thick, heavy curtain of old, dirty water, it’s always around me.
Suffocating. I can’t breathe.
Carrie, I love you.
Carrie, leave me the hell alone.
I was tired of seeing her. I was sick of her.
God, I wanted to throw myself off of a really high building for even thinking it. She was my friend. I would always love her. More than she could…ever possibly know.
But I didn’t want her with me anymore.
She was like the sour air that puffed out of a trunk that had been closed for three hundred years. Old, dusty, musty…stale. She was stuck, unmoving.
It was old, so fucking old.
“Go away. Please. I love you, but, please, leave me alone.”
I don’t want to hurt you.
But I don’t want to remember you, either.
There’s…life…waiting for me. But you’re…death…hanging all around. Death is always around me. Like a thick, heavy curtain of old, dirty water, it’s always around me.
Suffocating. I can’t breathe.
Carrie, I love you.
Carrie, leave me the hell alone.