The One That Got Away

When winter falls next year,
I’ll be holding on to anything nailed down.
As for being patient,
With fate and all it's getting old.
And my mind is slowly changing.

I’m calling all my oldest friends,
Saying sorry for this mess we’re in.
And I’m waiting, waiting,
For the sun to come and melt this snow,
Wash away the pain and give me back control, control.

An angel got his wings and we'll hold our heads up,
Knowing that he’s fine.
We’d all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.

Should we still set his plate?
Should we still save his chair?
Should we still buy him gifts?
And if we don’t did we not care?

It makes you think about the life you've led,
The shit you’ve done, the things you've said,
And its grounding, grounding.
I’ve been feeling 3 feet tall this month, hardly indestructible,
But the snow melts and the rhythm still goes on.

An angel got his wings and we'll hold our heads up,
Knowing that he’s fine.
We’d all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.

Friends stay side by side.
In life and death you’ve always stole my heart.
You’ll always mean so much to me it’s hard to believe this.

These nights in vans,
These nights in bars,
Don’t mean a thing with empty hearts.
With empty hearts.

An angel got his wings and we'll hold our heads up,
Knowing that he’s fine.
We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.

Friends stay side by side.
In life and death you always stole my heart.
You’ve always meant so much to me it’s hard to believe.
So much to me it’s hard to believe.
So much to me it’s hard to believe this.

She was getting better by the second. Her skin was pinker, her cheeks were fuller, her eyes were brighter. Danny didn't leave her side except for the toilet, and only slept and ate when she slept and ate. They had long conversations over pizza or Chinese; anything greasy so her weight would go back up.

She was off dialysis within days. The doctors wanted to keep her in to monitor her hemorrhaging and her kidneys, and the bruise on her abdomen, but she wasn't confined to the bed.

Danny took her everywhere in the hospital. She visited the dinner hall, she talked to other patients, and spent hours playing with the toys in the children's ward. It made him laugh how intrigued and entertained she was by the crummy toys and activities they had up there. Long hours were spent there, and she made friends with loads of the kids. Seeing them made her happy, whilst she was there.

*

A week later, the doctors gave the all clear. Lauren spent the entire day saying goodbye to any patients she'd met that were still there, and spent a good hour talking and playing games with the children.

She dressed, and Danny drove her home.

"Where did we leave off, before I interrupted with my silly bleeding?" she asked him suddenly.

"Huh?" he asked.

"I wanna have dinner again... with you..." She trailed off.

"Sure," Danny replied quickly, not bothering to hide his eagerness.

"Cool," she whispered, going red and staring out of her window.