Force Our Smiles, Baby, Half Dead

Frank's POV

Everything was okay.
My life was good, I had awesome friends, awesome parents, nice grades, I wasn't homeless and I loved playing guitar.
It all seemed peaceful and good.
But there was one thing slowly destroying my life.
I met love.
You think being in love is fun, right?
The answer is NO.
I was in love with my best friend, and he was a BOY.
Love was sick and twisted.
It would destroy our friendship, oh, our great friendship.
And it was all because of me.
It was MY fault, I was the one to blame.
I hated myself so much.

I silently sobbed into my wet pillow.
Tomorrow was going to be another boring school day.
I hated school.
I hated the teachers, the boring lessons, getting up early and I hated being with Gerard.
'Cause I stared at his ass, and sometimes he noticed me drooling and staring.
But Gerard was also the only reason for me to go to school.
I'm a weirdo.

{The next morning}

I yawned.
I was waiting for the school bus to arrive when I saw Gerard walking towards me.
He looked so HOT

'HI FRANKIEEE!' He screamed and grinned at me.
I smiled.itwasfake

'Hey, Gee.' I said.

'So how are you today, Iero?' He asked.

'I'm fine,' I lied.

'How 'bout you?'

'I'm tired, it's too fucking early!' He whined.
I giggled.

'Get over it, tomorrow is weekend.' I said.

'Oh yeah, can I stay with you this weekend? My parents are going somewhere and they don't want me to be alone. Fuckers, I'm seventeen!' He said.

'Hehe, sure. I'm alone too this weekend, so we can destroy our house.'

'Hahaa, sounds good to me.' He laughed.
YAAY! GEE SLEEPING OVER!
The school bus arrived and we quickly stepped inside.
We sat down at the seat in the back of the bus.

'Another killing school day.' I mumbled.
Gerard grabbed my hand and squeezed it for a second.
Oh. My. God.

'We'll survive it.' He said with a soft voice and he released my hand.
I blushed and nodded quickly.

Gerard's POV

Hooray! I'm going to stay at Frank's this weekend!
I packed the shit I needed for the weekend and I was humming a happy song.
I was in love with Frank, my secret.
I didn't tell anyone, not even Mikey.
And believe me, me and Mikey always shared e-ve-ry-thing.
Well, not the toilet or the shower, but you know what I mean.
I closed my backpack and walked over to Frank's house.
It was only a few streets away, so I was walking down the street still humming the same song.
This weekend was going to be perfect.

I smiled when the cosy front garden of the Iero house came in view.
The car wasn't outside, so Frank's parents weren't home, like he told me.
I reached the house and knocked on the door.
After a minute or two I started to get impatient and I looked through the window.
I saw someone slandering over to the door and smiled. Lazy Frank.
He opened the door and smiled.
It looked like he... cried?

'I'm sorry, I was upstairs.' He said.

'It's okay.'

'Come in.' He said and I stepped in.
I hugged Frank tight.
Because he is my best friend and I can do that.
I pulled away and looked at him.
He looked still sad, but also a little bit 'in love'.
Hehe, of course, Gerard...

'Frank, you have been crying.' I stated.
'What? N-No I haven't.' He lied.

'You have, I know you too well to believe your lies.' I said softly.
He sighed defeated.

'I can't tell you why, Gerard. Not now.' He almost whispered.

'Okay, sweetie. Let's watch a movie.'
He nodded and smiled again.
He looked so cute, yet so sad.

Frank's POV

Shit, he noticed.
I didn't want to tell Gerard that I cried when I was alone because I loved him.
He wasn't going to leave me alone until he knew why I had been crying.
I sighed.
We were watching Dawn Of The Dead and I must confess, I was scared.
Yeah, I'm such a fag.
But it was dark outside, and it was a horror movie.
When a zombie made a weird and loud noise I jumped a little.
Gerard noticed and giggled.
I glared at him.

'It isn't funny, this shit is scary as hell.' I muttered.
Then a loud thunderclap made me jump again and I squealed.
Gerard knew that I hated thunder.

'Awww, come here, Frankie.' He said and I scooted over to him.
He put his arms around me as I snuggled up to him.
I smiled contently and he stroked my hair.

The movie was over but I wanted to stay close to Gerard.
He took the remote control and turned the tv off.

'Let's go to bed, Frankie.' He whispered.
I nodded and stood up.
He smiled at me and walked over to the stairs.
Upstairs were two mattresses next to each other on the ground.

'Err, shit.' Gerard said grabbling in his backpack.

'What's wrong?' I asked confused.

'I forgot my pyjamas.' He said awkwardly.
I couldn't help but giggle.

'Well, my PJ's are too small for you.' I said.
He nodded and blushed.

'I have to sleep in my boxers then.' He shrugged
I gasped silently.
Wow.

'Uhh, okay.' I said.
We started to undress ourselves and I put my PJ's on, Gerard obviously didn't.
I stared wide-eyed at his perfect bare chest.

'Do you like what you see?' He giggled and winked at me.
He flirted with me!
I nodded.WHY DID I DO THAT!?

He laughed and laid down on the mattress.
I laid down on the other one and yawned.

'Tired?'

'Yeah...'
Then there was another loud thunderclap and I hid myself under the blankets.

'Oh Frankie, Come here.'

'O-Okay.' I stuttered.
I laid down next to him on HIS mattress, under HIS blanket.
I felt his bare legs intertwine with my own and I almost forgot to breathe.

'Don't be scared, baby.' He whispered into my ear.
His sexy voice made me shiver, I nodded.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and cuddled me.
This was so perfect.
After a few silent minutes Gerard asked me something.

'Why were you crying, Frankie?'
I had to tell him. He wouldn't hate me, I guess.

'I... I'm... kind of in love.' I said.

'Oh, who's the lucky person?' He asked, sounding... sad?

'You.' I whispered.

'I'm so sorry, Gerard I...'
I was cut off by his lips on mine.
WHAT!?
I quickly answered the kiss and our mouths worked slowly together.
He pulled away and smiled sweetly at me.

'I love you.' He said.
My heart exploded.

'I love you too.' I said.

'Do you want to be my boyfriend?' He asked me.
I kissed him again, that was my answer.
I cried again, like every night.
This time 'cause I was so unbelieveably happy.