Gaunt

May 4, 2009

In the past week or so
I’ve gained
one hundred twelve grams
or
sixty-four ounces
or
four pounds.
And guess what i did--
I ate. And I ate. And I ate.
And then I ate
some more.
And guess what I did next--
I fell asleep.
Fell asleep
before I could even swallow that last bite.

when I woke up
I thought to myself:
isn’t it funny
how the more you gain
the more you wanna eat
and
the more you lose
the more you wanna

starve.



May 15, 2009

Feel good.
Feel inspired.
Feel ready
to get rid of all this
extra flesh.

Wish bones didn’t weigh so much.



May 22, 2009

I get better
every day.

Alone
I sat down in front of a bowl of cereal
and cried.
then I picked up the spoon
and cried.
Then I poured it all away in the sink
and I cried, cried, cried.