Diaries to Denyele
January 13th, 2010
9:32 am
I am so pissed I don't get to go to the Art focus today because of Blaine's gayass rules.
I just feel like shit cos my parents lectured me all last night about Sam. I didn't eat at all yesterday, I couldn't swallow. I'm so frustrated.
My dad said he didn't want me to see Sam and I started sobbing, I literally had an anxiety attack, I couldn't breathe.
I need to see Sam. :( So badly. Because I keep dreaming about him and I've never gone longer than a month without seeing him. And it was a month yesterday I last saw him.
My mom said she's just afraid of me falling in love with him, but what if it's too late? I don't know how to tell her that I'm pretty sure I already have...
He just... yknow... Sam? idk. I love him.
The move Wanted sucks. We should watch it sometime.
Cos that makes a lot of sense.
I've started drawing everyone in my Euro class. I feel like a creep. I mean, I know I'm a creep but now it's pretty obvious to everybody.
I was at Matthew's house last night. (: It was aaaamazing, obviously.
I'm really shaky cos I haven't eaten... I was wondering how I'd managed to eat so much cereal this morning...
MYSTERY SOLVED!
Haha I want a mystery inc van... do they call it a mystery vehicle or am I just making that up?!
hmm... I saw the coolest ring at target and I almost bought it but I didn't. But now I really want it.
11:53 am
I miss him.
Lunch is almost here, but I hate Focus lunch. There's nowhere to sit. Derek has to sit on the ends of tables, so his legs will fit under. xD
I am so pissed I don't get to go to the Art focus today because of Blaine's gayass rules.
I just feel like shit cos my parents lectured me all last night about Sam. I didn't eat at all yesterday, I couldn't swallow. I'm so frustrated.
My dad said he didn't want me to see Sam and I started sobbing, I literally had an anxiety attack, I couldn't breathe.
I need to see Sam. :( So badly. Because I keep dreaming about him and I've never gone longer than a month without seeing him. And it was a month yesterday I last saw him.
My mom said she's just afraid of me falling in love with him, but what if it's too late? I don't know how to tell her that I'm pretty sure I already have...
He just... yknow... Sam? idk. I love him.
The move Wanted sucks. We should watch it sometime.
Cos that makes a lot of sense.
I've started drawing everyone in my Euro class. I feel like a creep. I mean, I know I'm a creep but now it's pretty obvious to everybody.
I was at Matthew's house last night. (: It was aaaamazing, obviously.
I'm really shaky cos I haven't eaten... I was wondering how I'd managed to eat so much cereal this morning...
MYSTERY SOLVED!
Haha I want a mystery inc van... do they call it a mystery vehicle or am I just making that up?!
hmm... I saw the coolest ring at target and I almost bought it but I didn't. But now I really want it.
11:53 am
I miss him.
Lunch is almost here, but I hate Focus lunch. There's nowhere to sit. Derek has to sit on the ends of tables, so his legs will fit under. xD