Letters To The Stars

Frank POV

Today I stumbled cross your picture, I try so hard not to cry but the tears just would not hold back. I keep looking at the picture even though my heart is telling me to put the picture away. You’re smile that I fell in love with your hazel eyes, and your pale skin. It has been one whole year today since you left. I will never forget the knock on my door with the police officer behind it; I knew right then something bad had happen. My heart had stop beating the police officer told me there was a bad accident on the road and that you did not make it. That moment my whole world had stop I could not speak right I could not even walk straight back into the house without falling on my knees crying out in pain.

I stumbled across your picture today I could barely breathe.
The moment stopped me cold and grabbed me like a thief.
I dialed your number but you would not be there

I dial your number today I just wanted to hear you’re voice again, but I knew you would not answer. I knew the whole time it is not fair I just needed to hear your voice to know this was all a bad dream and any minute I would wake up, but the phone just kept ringing.

I write these letters to you,
But they get lost in the blue.
Cause, there's no address in the stars

Everyone keeps telling me all I need is time I will be better soon I will move on, I never listen I could never move on. Every day it seems like it gets harder moving on trying to live my life as if everything okay, there’s moment were I just break down screaming out asking why, why was you taking away from me I need you here with me.

Everybody tells me that all I need is time.
Every morning rolls in, and it hurts me again,
And that ain't nothin but a lie

Every day I wonder how do I live without you; it is as if part of my life is gone. There is so much I want to tell you every day, so today I sit down to write to you hoping you will be reading this letter.

Dear Gerard,
Where do I begin? It seems like yesterday you were here with me, laying on the couch with me. Sometimes I swear I can still hear your laugh but I know it is only my mind. I lost count how many letters I wrote to you it seems to help but the letters mean nothing to me it is not you. I need you here with me I need you to get me through the day. Everyone keeps telling me all I need is time that one day I will move on but that is all lies I could never move on, you are my life. Today I stumble cross your picture I try so hard not to cry but seeing your face, I just could not be strong. I wish I could mail these letters to you but I know there is no address to the stars, I hope wherever you are that you are doing okay. I know that I will never be okay without you here with me, there is nothing I would not to hear your voice once more. I just want you to know I love you so much and that one day we will be together again.

Love,
Frank

I folded the letter and lay it with the rest of the letters. Piles of letters everywhere that will never be sent. I grab a pile of letters and went outside. Once I got outside I look up towards the sky I sat down and the swing and started to read the letters aloud, maybe just maybe you could hear the letters.

All I can do is write these letters to you.
But there is no address in the stars