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Dead Lover's Lane

This isn't right.

Bammie, I love you.
I pushed the thought out of my mind. This definantly is not the time or the place...
Bammie, I love you.

But, it just wouldn't go away. His voice...it was always there. But, no not here, not now.

I stood in the front of the room, sweating like a fucking dog. Not because I was nervous. For the first time in my life, I was admitting to myself, I was wrong. But everyone else, I couldn't admitt I was wrong. No, not now. Now, it was too late.
The room was pretty great. Everything was going acording to plan. Ape and Phil had just walked down the aisle.

Bammie, I love you.
I tightened my eyes shut. I couldn't smile. I could hardly watch this anyway. Her family and friend locking arms with my family and my friends. Showing unity between us. I couldn't handle it.

Why did I let it go this far? What, to prove a point? Bad choice Margera. All your doing is hurting people. You've got to stop this. Before it goes any further.

No way. You can't. How many dreams and hearts can you crush in one night?

It's better then ruining your whole life and having them find out later.

Ryan Dunn gave me this look. It just made it a million times worse. He knows more then anyone that I'm wrong here.
Novak gave me the same look, being wheeled down the aisle.

I have to stop this...I'm not in love with Missy...

The music changed. Then, through the doors came Missy in arm with her grandfather. She was smiling. I couldn't look at her. Tears were filling up in my eyes. I don't need to cry.
Her grandfather let go of her arm and held out his hand. I took it, felt his flesh gripping mine. I couldn't look him in the eyes.
He let go. So, Missy was up to me, smiling.

My heart was about to crash. I can't do this.

"Everything stop!" I exclaimed. "Stop!"
The look on everyone's face...
"I can't do this..." I said.

"What?" April said, "What are you talking about?"

I sighed. "I'm not in love with Missy."

Missy's smile had definantly faded. I couldn't even look at her, but I knew it. "Bam..." she muttered.

I was still looking down. "I'm sorry."

"How could you?" she exclaimed. "How could you let it go this far!?"

I looked up. "I didn't mean to..."

"Why?" she cried. "You had to make me fall in love with you, didn't you?"

"I didn't think--"

"You lied to me!" she screamed. "You said you loved me! You said you were done with him!"

"I thought--"

"No obviously you haven't thought." she said. She threw down her boque and ran back down the aisle. Her family and friends went after her.

I felt a hot tear go down my cheek. I sank to the ground.

"Aw, god Bam..." Dunn said coming over to me. Jess following.

All I could do was cry...