The Wrong You Like

Sadie was leaning in closer to Alex with every word he said telling a story about how he learned that girls don't appreciate touchy guys, when he was drunk of course. I rolled my eyes as everyone laughed at his punch line, Sadie laughed obnoxiously and awkwardly making all of us laugh. I was introduced to the rest of All Time Low and I was amazed by Alex and Jack's chemistry and Sadie was on cloud nine.

"Huh, girls don't like it when guys randomly come up and play jello with their boobs, who knew?" I said sarcastically, Sadie shot me a look and Alex gave me a smirk.

"Thanks for that input, you could've you know- laughed," Alex said, Sadie laughed loudly with a fake ha-ha-ha. He was leaning back, straightening up from his usual slouch. Jack was looking awkwardly around like his mind was observing ten million things at once.

"You know, I would've it it was funny," I said raising my eyebrow slightly and the circle of guys started mocking us both, mostly Alex, who looked like he didn't really know what to say and Sadie, glaring threatening stares at me.

"Well, you should loosen up," He said back, looking a little offended. Moose came out, and it was weird just seeing him now, but apparently he was on All Time Low's bus last night, I hugged him after not seeing him since high school. He told everyone it was time for sound check and I looked over my shoulder to see Alex looking awkwardly at me.

"Nice come back, I'm totally going to work on it right now!" I said with a sarcastic over-enthusiasm. He scoffed and Jack made another loud ownage noise. Jared came up and bumped into me. "Hey gingy!" I smiled over my shoulder.

"Hey girl, hey!" He said like a very convincingly gay guy, I couldn't hold in a laugh and I realized that I had a lanky arm wrapped around me and a skinny ribcage bouncing with laughter on me.

"Hello stranger," I smiled and saw Jack from All Time Low, jumping around a lot being a ball of energy and he smirked back with his eyes really wide.

"Hey, just so you know you're like my official hero!" Jack said I slipped out from under his grip surreptitiously and smirked. He raised to fingers as an example and bent down to get closer to my eyes, "First of all no one really talks to Alex like that and second, who gives a shit! The first reason is fucking good enough! It was like a penguin who one day realized he had special powers and could fly!" He said his eyes looking up towards the ceiling in a reverie.

"Well thanks, I guess, that was a really good simile," I smiled awkwardly shifting around and untangling wires Kennedy was handing to me and passing them on to Moose, the rest of the Maine was off going crazy. Jack was doing some weird attempt to dance with John, two very long, awkward, skinny boys to some rap song playing in the venue.

"Hey ding dong," Kennedy said awakening from my observation and he was jumping on stage offering me a hand up, I rolled my eyes and grabbed his hand smiling, I heard Sadie's loud laugh and she came in trailing behind Alex-of course. Someone had a new hobby, I saw John smiling a little bit coming off from a bout of laughter and I couldn't help but smile.

"Don't worry its not heavy or anything," Kennedy grunted snapping back into reality, he was holding an amp and trying to move it closer towards the edge of the I ran over to help him. "Secret lovers," Kennedy began singing bobbing his head as we put the amp down, I punched him lightly as he wiggled his eyebrows.

"Shut up Kenny!" I smiled blushing and tucking my hair behind my ear looking desperately for something to keep myself busy. There was a lull of silence for a while and then it happened. Patrick Kirch came running in squealing around with no shirt on yelling 'ratboy'.

"SMACK DADDY CADDY PARTY!" Pat yelled his voice cracking every-so-often. Soon he was running out and jumping on Garrett's back and they exited, then another lull of silence as we all looked around at each other, the sad thing was that the Maine seemed fairly used to it.

"What. The. Fuck?" I asked, breaking out into laughter, soon we were all crippled by laughter, tears lined our eyes as our muscles tensed beyond believe I was literally leaning on Kennedy as we were sinking to the ground.

"And that is why everyone thinks Pat is retarded," John smirked confidently looking around, we were all laughing already, but it came in another like a second wave. Once we were done with sound check, yes John's voice was still amazing, it was time for the other bands to soundcheck and I went scouting out for some diet coke because the bar wasn't opened yet. Dicks.

"Oh, I'm sorry!" I said bumping into someone when I walked into a corner store. I looked up and saw John's hazel green eyes piercing down at mine with a goofy smile spread across his face.

"This is just an overall awkward day for us isn't it?" He said in a little laugh, his slight rasp making his voice warm and welcoming. I patted his chest and moved away from him a little.

"Just a little," I smiled I took a step backwards and he towered over me awkwardly and ruffled his hair nervously. "So come here often?" I asked, being jokingly awkward. He nodded with laughter.

"Oh yeah! All the time, so what are you getting?" He asked nodding towards my wallet held between my arm and my body, I laughed slightly embarrassed, now it was weird being alone with John without mounting him.

"Diet coke, care to adventure the Corner store with me?" I asked switching my wallet to my other arm and nodding towards the refrigerated section of the Corner Store. I looked at the dingy store, the dirty edges of the grey tiles on the floor as we made our way.

"Why not?" He smiled and we talked about where we've been in past few years. He asked me about modeling and I asked him about everything he and the Maine had been doing, which made me feel like a lazy ass. We avoided relationships and me being in love with him, still.

"So you owe me an explanation," I smiled lighting a cigarette and I was surprised to see that John lit up as well. Weird since he was a singer and everything, but I didn't say anything about it, he mouthed 'anything' and I blushed a little. "What did we talk about when I was wasted off my ass?" I laughed breaking out serious eye-contact.

"Nothing, just rambling about being in love with some shit head and how much you missed me," John blushed, he was biting his lip slightly, like when he was holding something in. I laughed taking a drag and letting the chilly wind blow through my hair.

"Mmm, shit heads are the best," I chirped opening my diet coke and smiling at John who was laughing shaking his head condescendingly. He looked so much older than the last time we saw each other and it was weird I wondered how different things really were. We sat on the curb, listening to the sounds of the highway swish by us, the sun sinking into the horizon creating a dark dusk.

"Then I'm totally your type," He joked and I playfully pushed him a little he put out his cigarette and stole my diet coke, squishing his nose disgusted at how I was drinking diet. He stretched his longs legs out into the street and I remembered how skinny and long he was.

"Aw, all the self-depricating humor, warms my heart. John, I just want you to know that, shit," I stumbled on my words, I looked at my boots before looking up at him again, he was waiting patiently. "I don't blame you for doing what you did," I laughed feeling tears brimming my eyes. These were the words I had been keeping in for the longest fucking time and I felt like I didn't even get them right. Someone cleared their throat and I turned to see Alex Gaskarth looking nervously around him.

"Is she here?" He whispered before coming between John and I. John laughed I didn't because I knew that he was referring to Sadie, and despite her stalker tendencies she was still my friend. John stood up before offering me and hand I laughed and took it wiping off any dirt that might be on my pants.

"Nope, but maybe we can talk later I think kids are starting to show," John said running back in the venue leaving me with Alex Gaskarth, awkwardly sitting in silence. I could hear him breathing, which I thought was weird, maybe he had like allergies or something.

"So, where are you from?" He asked as if it was the best pick-up line ever. I laughed and told him Tempe, AZ, then it was quiet again. He looked at me as if he expected me to tell him my life story once prompted to talk. "So, wanna fuck?" He said dragging it out casually. I shot up and made my way to the venue, a couple of girls screaming through the chain-link fence for Alex.

"Fuck no," I said, this was without a doubt the weirdest kid I had ever met in my life. Barney the security guard to the backstage area let me past him and Alex followed relentlessly.

"You know you have these legs that come up to, like, here," He said putting his hand flat on his chest as if he was measuring. I rolled my eyes and groaned finally stopping and turning around which temporarily muted him.

"Look, I know you expect me to swoon and give it up like that because you're all 'sexy rockstar' but unfortunately I'm not stupid or drunk enough to even think about touching you, so how about you run along and find someone else to play hide the wiener with!" I smiled confidently thinking he got the picture but Alex just smiled and cocked his head,

"You think I'm sexy?" He asked it was reaffirming his ego, I had officially given up on trying to reason with this boy and I turned around and joining Kennedy's and Jared's conversation, they were laughing but Kennedy was also giving the death stare.

"Did you just turn down Alex Gaskarth?" Sadie popped out of no where scaring me half to death, then she smacked me on the back of the head, "What the fuck is wrong with you?" I mouthed an 'ow' getting sympathetic looks from both the guys.

"Dude, calm down, he's like a horn dog and I'd like to avoid herpes," I said smiling as we went backstage to watch the Maine open. The other band who usually opens before the Maine had the night off so I wasn't going to meet them until southern California. I watched John melt the crowd of girls and I couldn't help but melt a little with them. Sadie rested her head on my shoulder looking the same way at Alex, I laughed we were suckers for these boys. Some of us more than others, but still.