Returning to You

Brian’s POV

I sighed in content as I leaned back in the chair and glanced at Jess out of the corner of my eye.
I had been living here for a while now, Jess being eight months pregnant now and looking quite big, well her tummy anyway because she was still rather small which always made me smile at the sight.
The only downer though, was that in the time I had spent here Jess and I hadn’t gotten together yet even though I felt like I was making progress everyday but something was stopping us from making that move and I didn’t know what it was, what that final thing I could do was and it was frustrating me to no end.
Jess headed up to bed while I stayed downstairs and watched TV a bit more thinking about what I could.
I sighed as I gave up thinking for a while, I was tired. I got up and headed into the kitchen where I grabbed a bottle of water to take to my room and headed up the stairs.
As I walked past Jess’ room I heard something and froze in place listening closer. The sound came again so I walked over to her door and opened it softly so I could see what was going on and frowned at the sight before me; Jess was curled up in the bed sobbing.
I frowned as I made my way into the room and placed the bottle on the night stand before climbing onto the bed next to her and rubbing her back I asked quietly
“Jess? What’s the matter honey?” Jess let out a little sob before turning to look at me with sad, tear filled eyes as she confessed
“I can’t do this anymore Brian”
“do what?” I asked confused and she sighed before speaking again
“I can’t carry on just living with you, I want you to hug me at night and I want to be closer to you again, I can’t carry on like I don’t have feelings like that for you, it’s killing me” she looked up at me with helpless eyes and I sighed again before nudging her
“move over” Jess did so and I climbed onto the bed fully and under the covers with her.
I hugged her to me as she lay in front of me so I was spooning her which was easier for her with the bump. I placed a hand over the Baby and rubbed a little as I spoke softly
“honey you only have to ask, I miss you too and even though you told me not to I’m going to apologise again. I didn’t mean to do it but I did and I am eternally sorry for what I did, I will make up for it for the rest of my life, I know you say you forgive me but I haven’t forgiven myself and never will, I missed you and I want to be together again too” Jess sobbed a couple more times before she snuggled back into me
“I know you’re sorry, I understand that you are and I am so sorry for holding out, I just didn’t, couldn’t deal with these feelings any longer” I nodded and nuzzled the top of her head
“it’s fine honey, go to sleep now, everything is ok” Jess nodded and soon I felt her breathing regulate.
I grinned into the darkness as I pulled her a little tighter to me, Jess was taking me back, she missed me and wanted me back. I couldn’t quite wrap my head around it but I knew I was swimming in happiness right now. I shook all thoughts from my head but the feeling of having her in my arms again as I drifted off to sleep.