Not an Angel Yet

I couldn't move.
All i could feel was pain throughout my body.
I knew i was dying.

I could hear sobbing all around me, and fresh warm tears falling on my arm.
Everyone was crying for me.
'Don't cry.' I wanted to tell them.
'I'll be okay.' I wanted to say.

My mouth wouldnt move to form the words.

"I love you so much." Jasper's husky voice whispered into my hair as he pulled my head onto his lap. "So, so much."
If i could, i would have kissed him,
told him how much he meant to me,
and that i would never forget him.

Funny how things work out, isnt it?

All i could do was lie there and die while my family suffered around me.
This is not what i wanted.
Why should they suffer more than me?
Why must they suffer at all?

I felt my heart break,
though it could hardly beat.

My family was alive,
yet they still suffered because of me.

I was happy that they lived.
They were the reason i had gone on for so many years.
I just hoped they knew that i loved them.

I felt myself being moved,
and i was being held by someone different.
"You'll come back won't you?" It was Edward.
There was an unreadable sadness in his voice.
"I know you will... just don't forget us." He said softly and kissed my forehead.

"Edward she-"
That was the last thing i heard before my heart stopped,
and i was dead.