Status: Complete
Pick Up The Phone Baby, You're Not Alone Anymore.
Help Has Come In Stranger Forms..Hasn't it?
Fast forward a year and a half I’m right smack dab in the middle of 7th grade. I was still the same melancholy, still dark but now? I’d added a black hoodie with blue and white skulls all over it; not because I was making a fashion statement, I needed something to hide the pale white lines littering my arms with. In 7th grade, news travels fast; rumors though? They travel way faster. One of my so called friends had told the world that I had been cutting; that started it all. Kids on my bus would throw scissors at me and tell me to go cry in a corner or they’d hit me across the face with something and ask me if I was gonna cry about it. I guess I just took what they threw at me because I figured eventually they’d stop. They did, though they each threw one last thing at me. One was a Gatorade bottle; still filled with all its contents but the lid was cracked open just enough to spill all over me. Another girl threw a pair of kitchen shears at me; I had a rather large gash across my cheek for a week. I’ve still got a faint scar that I cover now a day. Lastly it was one of my journals that had gone missing weeks ago. I thought I’d lost it in my room I didn’t.
Inside the recounts of my life had been scribbled over with so many things like “Shut up emo kid” or “Go do us all a favor, kill yourself.” But lastly? There was one that said no one cared about me. That one I could believe. So once again I started to cut and drink so much worse than I had been lately by the end of the week there was 4 bottles of vodka missing from my dad’s stash and I was resorting to just cutting over old scars. I was fucked up and I knew that. But over the summer, I had meant a foreign exchange student at a concert his name was Nicolai; he had the funniest accent, I soon learned it was because he was Danish. I never really thought much about him after he left; we still talked over the internet but never saw each other again. Little did I know he might be the reason I’m still alive to tell this story.
Inside the recounts of my life had been scribbled over with so many things like “Shut up emo kid” or “Go do us all a favor, kill yourself.” But lastly? There was one that said no one cared about me. That one I could believe. So once again I started to cut and drink so much worse than I had been lately by the end of the week there was 4 bottles of vodka missing from my dad’s stash and I was resorting to just cutting over old scars. I was fucked up and I knew that. But over the summer, I had meant a foreign exchange student at a concert his name was Nicolai; he had the funniest accent, I soon learned it was because he was Danish. I never really thought much about him after he left; we still talked over the internet but never saw each other again. Little did I know he might be the reason I’m still alive to tell this story.
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Sorry about not indenting my paragraphs my computer is messing up and won' let me :\