Dead in the Water
It's Me Or Him
(Nonnie's POV)
I went up to the room I shared with Joe. Amanda was right I should have let Frank go and never looked back. I mean I had a living breathing boyfriend who seemed to have been really worried while I was missing last night. I just couldn’t let Frank go.
Frank and I we’ve been through too much together. When he died I never completely let go, all of my old friends knew this. That’s one of the reasons I came here. I was coming to get a new life. I mean I had new friends, basically a new family. I hadn’t heard or seen Mikey, Bob, or Ray since I guess a few days after the funeral. That’s when I moved out, that’s when I got my new job at the diner. It was at that very diner I met Joe.
I opened the door to see Joe already in bed. I could tell he wasn’t asleep and I knew he probably didn’t want to hear what I had to say. He had this subtle way of telling me how he felt without saying a word I could always tell just by looking at his body language or looking at his eyes.
“Joe?” I said softly. He gave a sigh and turned away from me. “Joe, what’s wrong?” I knew what was wrong, I just wondered if he did.
“Is it me or him?” he asked without turning around.
“What?”
“Is it me or him? I won’t go through this. I’ve done it before and I love you, but I don’t have the energy to go through it again.” he turned over looked me straight in the eyes.
“I…I don’t know.” I wish I could have said that it was him without a doubt it was him, but I did have doubts and as long as Frank was around I would.
“I don’t want to be the back up boyfriend Nonnie, I can tell you still love him. I can tell you want him, I mean you were going to marry him, but I don’t want to see you get hurt.”
“Joe I know this is hard to believe but Frank would never hurt me.” I said.
“He’s a vampire. He may have a little control, but he still drinks human blood just like the rest of them.”
“Pete has never hurt any of you and nor has Elissa. Frank…”
“You don’t know him any more,” he burst. “You don’t know what he’s been doing all this time, you don’t know what he’s capable of.” he closed his eyes and swallowed hard. “I can see by the way you are defending him. You just gave me my answer. Its him, its him without a doubt.”
“Joe, I’m so sorry. I thought I was over him, I thought he was…”
“He is dead Nonnie. If he hurts you I will kill him, I mean it.”
“Frank wouldn’t ever hurt me.” I concluded as I walked across the hall to the guest room. I thought it would be best for me not to share a bed with him since we were no longer “we”. I crawled into the bed alone. “He would never hurt me. I know it.” I thought as I drifted off to sleep.
I went up to the room I shared with Joe. Amanda was right I should have let Frank go and never looked back. I mean I had a living breathing boyfriend who seemed to have been really worried while I was missing last night. I just couldn’t let Frank go.
Frank and I we’ve been through too much together. When he died I never completely let go, all of my old friends knew this. That’s one of the reasons I came here. I was coming to get a new life. I mean I had new friends, basically a new family. I hadn’t heard or seen Mikey, Bob, or Ray since I guess a few days after the funeral. That’s when I moved out, that’s when I got my new job at the diner. It was at that very diner I met Joe.
I opened the door to see Joe already in bed. I could tell he wasn’t asleep and I knew he probably didn’t want to hear what I had to say. He had this subtle way of telling me how he felt without saying a word I could always tell just by looking at his body language or looking at his eyes.
“Joe?” I said softly. He gave a sigh and turned away from me. “Joe, what’s wrong?” I knew what was wrong, I just wondered if he did.
“Is it me or him?” he asked without turning around.
“What?”
“Is it me or him? I won’t go through this. I’ve done it before and I love you, but I don’t have the energy to go through it again.” he turned over looked me straight in the eyes.
“I…I don’t know.” I wish I could have said that it was him without a doubt it was him, but I did have doubts and as long as Frank was around I would.
“I don’t want to be the back up boyfriend Nonnie, I can tell you still love him. I can tell you want him, I mean you were going to marry him, but I don’t want to see you get hurt.”
“Joe I know this is hard to believe but Frank would never hurt me.” I said.
“He’s a vampire. He may have a little control, but he still drinks human blood just like the rest of them.”
“Pete has never hurt any of you and nor has Elissa. Frank…”
“You don’t know him any more,” he burst. “You don’t know what he’s been doing all this time, you don’t know what he’s capable of.” he closed his eyes and swallowed hard. “I can see by the way you are defending him. You just gave me my answer. Its him, its him without a doubt.”
“Joe, I’m so sorry. I thought I was over him, I thought he was…”
“He is dead Nonnie. If he hurts you I will kill him, I mean it.”
“Frank wouldn’t ever hurt me.” I concluded as I walked across the hall to the guest room. I thought it would be best for me not to share a bed with him since we were no longer “we”. I crawled into the bed alone. “He would never hurt me. I know it.” I thought as I drifted off to sleep.
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aww poor Joe.