Silent Screams

I sat in the my bathroom all night, staring at the wall.
The door was locked, no way for anyone to get in.
I sat there and stared.

This wasn't me.
I never felt that way before.

I felt so.. broken.

I didn't move and I didn't speak. I did nothing.
I let the thoughts over take me. Make me a boat
out at sea, as it slowly sank to the bottom of the ocean.

I let the tears fall from my eyes all night, I didn't care that
my hair was a mess, that my make up was smeared.
I didn't care if I looked like a complete mess.

I didn't care about anything anymore.
Love.
Him.
Lake.
School.
Life.

I just simply did not care.

I mean, why should i care if he doesn't what so ever?

Lake flipped complete shit on him. She pushed him to
the ground and was cussing up a storm. She slapped him,
hell she even started crying herself.

As for that girl, she just ran away. She must've thought Lake
was his angry girlfriend and she didn't want anything to do
with it. When she ran by Lake's car, she looked in the window.

I was crying my eyes out, and she must've then realized what
was going on.. maybe.

Lake didn't care what she did to Justin. She just wanted him
to hurt, physically. People had to pull her off of him.

The scene replied through my head. I watched the wall as
if i was watching what happened all over again.
I screamed, I punched the floor, and I cried more tears then
ever. I didn't want to move.

Thoughts spun around my head, like a mad twister. Unable
to stop, they just kept spinning and spinning.

Justin didn't love me.

Not at all