When I Turned the Television On

When I Turned The Television On.

| Seth Paver |

I regret it.

I regret having kissed Alice, and that just made us drift apart even more.
I rest my head in my hands.

Shit, shit, shit!

I slam my fist on the table.

Goddammit!
It's all my fault!
I'll never forgive myself for this.

I wearily grab my cellphone and dial Nathaniel's number.

"Seth?"
"Van Allen. Pick me up. Right now."
"Understood, Sir Seth."

I shove my phone into the back pocket of my jeans.
I grab my wallet on the desk and head out of the house.

Good.
Alice is in her room.

A few minutes later, Nathan comes driving into the yard.
I open the car door and enter the passenger's seat.

"Seth?"
"Please. Take me to Deep Ecstasy. You know where it is."
"But--"
"Please."

Nathan hesitantly nods and drives me there anyway.
As we reach Deep Ecstasy, I quickly go out of the car.
Nathan steps out and starts following me but I stop him with a wave of my hand.

"Stay in the car. I'll come back to you later."

He nods with uncertainty and sighs heavily.
He enters the car and watches me, watchful of any threats and dangers that lurked around me.
I give him a reassuring smile then proceed to the bar.
The smell of wine hits my face, causing me to inhale the sweet fragrance of liquor.
There are a few people inside and they are staring at me admiringly.
They then start whispering quietly to each other though I could still hear what they were saying.

"Isn't that Seth Paver?"
"Oh my God!It is him!"
"But isn't he still young to drink?"
"I think so, but he's an actor, so let him be!"

I roll my eyes and walk towards the bartender.

"The strongest wine available, please."
"As you wish."

The man grabs a bottle from a shelf and pours me a glass of red wine.

"Thank you."

He nods and leaves me alone in peace.
I draw in a deep breath and drink the wine in one gulp.

I know I shouldn't be drinking.
Not at this age.
But I can't stop thinking about Alice.

I hurt her.
Again.