I Want You

“Gerard so you gunna tell me what he told you?”
“Nope” I grinned at him, I was walking to school, it was raining “Mikey make the rain stop”
“Not until you tell me what he told you” Our school came into view, I grabbed Mikey by his shoulder and bought his ear next to his mouth
“He’s gay”
“No! No way! Hah! Get in there brother!” He grinned at me and I grinned back
“Thanks Mikey” I hugged him tightly “Thanks for always supporting me”
“Hey, no problem, I’ll always be here for you Gerard” We hear the bells go and walked through the gates “So what do you have first?”
“Maths unfortunately”
“Ah shame, but aren’t you in the accelerated learning, or rather Frankie is in it?”
“Oh! You’re right, ah man, suddenly I’m looking forward to maths” I smiled at him
“Haha yeah, see you at break?” I nodded an watched as he went the opposite way to me. I walked to my math block and lined up outside, waiting for the teacher to let us in, they opened the door
“Students please keep the noise down and come inside, slowly!” I went in and sat down, everyone walked in behind me, I sat down and watched the door to see if Frankie was here.
Then there he was, he walked in with his friends, he looked different today, he was wearing, eyeliner? He looked and saw me, I smiled at him, he blushed and smile briefly then looked down. He couldn’t have been joking about what he said last night, could he? Was it just a lie? A joke, or a dare? I looked up at him and saw him looking straight back at me, his eyes went wide then quickly turned around. It was the truth, I know it.
I flicked to the back of my math book and doodled hearts all over the page, with vines intertwined and roses dangling off, then at the bigger heart right in the middle of the page I wrote Frankie.
By the time I had finished shading in everything there was only five minutes left of the lesson, I looked up at the board and
“Mr Iero, please turn around, that’s the fifth time this lesson you’ve turned around, is there something you see that you’re interested in?” I quickly looked around me, I was the only one on the back row, so must have been looking, but at me?
“Oh um, well yeah kinda” I blushed and hid behind my hair
“Right, so you can stay behind school and catch up on the work you’ve missed”
“No sorry I can’t I’ve got artwork to do” I smiled, how many times have I used that excuse to get out of math detention, or any detention really.
“Well, then, you’ll pay more attention next lesson” The bells went and everyone quickly got up and walked out, I was in no hurry. Because I hadn’t picked that many subjects, and I dropped some subject, and some of my subjects I had already done the exam for so I didn’t need to do it again, my timetable was boring. I had at least one free period each day, some days I had two, and I had art mainly every day. And today I had a free period right after maths, fun. I walked out of the class and felt something lightly tap my shoulders, I turned around and Frankie stood there looking down
“Hi, um, um, hi, I have art next? Yeah and cause like you have a free? Could you? Could you? Um, help?” Even though he was looking down I could so tell he was blushing
“yeah sure thing Frankie” I heard him gasp lightly then he began to walk to his art class. We walked in silence, I was slightly behind him and he kept turning round quickly every now and then, I just kept smiling at him. But inside I was beyond smiling, I was grinning and laughing and smirking.
We got to his room and walked to the back where I usually sat. I sat down and he went to the side to get his books and drawings.
“Yeah, I did some research on gas masks last night, and I came up with another idea” I nodded
“Yeah but don’t forget you gotta show how you got to that idea, this is what the prep is all about, you’re showing people your journey to the final piece”
“Ahh, right I get you, can I see your book? I mean you don’t have to show me or anything, I just want some ideas on how to get started?” I laughed at his shyness and walked into the cupboard at the back, the teachers told me the pass code for the lock so I could go in there anytime I wanted. I got my favourite art project out, my most recent one then handed it to Frankie.
“Thanks” He opened it and started to look through. He handled it as if was ancient, the way he held the book and how he turned each page. He stroked some of my paintings, tracing the outline with his fingers “Gee, these are amazing, how the hell do you do them?” I grinned at him
“I duno, I just see the image in my head, then it’s like I copy my thoughts onto the paper, but they never turn out right”
“Oh, why not?”
“They don’t look like what I saw in my mind, but in some cases I like that you know, I love how art can be unpredictable, that the drawing decides for itself where it wants to go, it decides when it is finished”
“Wow, you should be an art preacher” I wrinkled up my nose
“Nah, no thanks sounds boring, I want to be an illustrator”
“Oh that’s cool, I have no idea what I wanna be, I’ll see where life takes me hah” I nodded in agreement
“yeah, so you know what you gotta do in your book?”
“Well, yeah but, it’s weird, I know what I want to do, but I have no idea how to put it in my book”
“Well, you’ve got to find an artist to base your work on, you know any?” He thought for a moment then shot his hand up, making me jump
“Miss miss miss!” He waved his hand
“Yes, Mr Iero?” He waved her over, as she was walking our eyes met, I smiled and looked toward Frankie, she go the drift and smiled back “Yes?”
“You know I gotta find an artist?” She nodded “Well” He looked at me “I want him” Oh god, he wants me, he wants me on my knees, my tongue on his-
“You want him?”
“Oh god! That sounded wrong! Ah oh shit!”
“Mr Iero!”
“Fuck, ah shit bullocks!” He whacked his head with both his hands, I started to laugh at him, then I remembered something he said on MSN
“Hey Frankie, you want me to show you my piece again?” He peeked through his fingers at me
“Gee! Shut up!” I looked up at my teacher
“Inside joke, don’t worry”
“Uhuh, right, but you were saying?”
“Nothing, it doesn’t matter” He mumbled from behind his hands
“I think, you were trying to say, that you wanted Gerard to be the artist you work from”
“Yeah, can I do that?”
“Well, really I don’t see why not, but you would have to do some research on him” I giggled, then thought about it
“Hey yeah Frankie, you can come over mine tonight if you want, cause it’s Friday today, and I’ll work on your project with you” My cheeks were burning and my palms were sweating again, I imagined Frankie sitting on my bed, looking at me, calling me over, licking his lips, Oh god.
“Oh, um, um, oh, yeah? That sounds awesome! You sure that’s okay Gee?”
“Wicking” His hand dropped to his sides, I smiled at him and he blushed, I just smiled even more, he frowned at me.
“Um, right guys so you’re sorted?” Shit I totally forgot my teacher was standing there, I looked up at her then smiled
“yeah, thanks”
“Thanks teacher!” She smiled and walked away

The bells went signalling the end of this lesson and that we had break next, I started to pack my things up, and Frankie packed his stuff up
“Gee are you sure it’s okay for me to come round? I mean on such short notice and all”
“Really, it’s fine Frankie” We walked out of the class together then stood my some lockers, everyone else was outside now, it was just me and him
“Okay, thanks, um, um, about, yesterday, on MSN” He looked up then quickly away again
“What about it?”
“what I said, then signed off, I just kinda you know, um, oh jeeze um” He was stuttering and blushing, I smiled then I did something I’ve always wanted to do. I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around his shoulders, he went stiff then wrapped his arms around my waist
“You don’t have to be scared, what you told me, you should be proud of yourself, it took me a lot of courage to tell my brother that I was gay”
“You’re gay?!” He squeaked and gawped up at me I laughed at him
“Yeah, isn’t it obvious? No not really I guess” He blushed and smiled
“Aw, that’s so cool Gee”
“Can I have your number?” He looked up at me shocked
"What?" I blushed
"Can, can i have your um number? I mean if that's alright with you I mean, you don't have to give it to me if you don't want"
"Gee!" He giggled, i was still holding onto him, he was so soft, so nice to hold. He was my Frankie, i never want to let him go "Give me your phone" I handed to him, he typed in his number then gave it back to me "Now i want yours" He gave me his, i typed in my number then saved my name as Gerard The Great. He looked at it then giggled
"Thanks, I'll see you at lunch?" He nodded "Then you're coming back to mine" Shit, i'm, so excited
"Yeah, see you then Gee" I let go of him then watched him walk away toward his friends. He just made me the happiest man alive.