I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls

(Alex's POV)
I glared at Jack for making him let her go of my hand. I smacked the back of his head and he gave me a 'sorry' look. I just sighed and we followed the girls around at some other stores. I know I have liked Eliana for a while now but I didn't think my feelings could get this strong. I've never liked a girl this much before and it's scaring me. Is it possible to be in love with someone even if you haven't known them that long? I don't think it's possible. It just could be a crush. A really, really big crush. I absolutely adored everything about her, her smile, laugh, hair, and her voice. It might seem weird but whatever. I just like her a lot. I can't really ignore it. I always get butterflies around her and every time I hold her hand or she kisses me on the cheek I feel this weird electrical surge go throughout my body. I really wanted to know what it would be like to kiss her. I'm not going to push it though. I mean she still hasn't told me about what she's hiding.

"Alex, this shirt would look good on you," said Eliana, holding up a blue flannel shirt. I smiled. She knows I love the color blue and flannel shirts. "I'm gonna buy it for you."

"What? No!" I said. "You don't have to do that. I'll feel bad if you do."

"Are you saying I can't buy gifts for my best friend?" She pouted and man, I really wanted to kiss her. Control your hormones, Gaskarth! I bit my lip. "You can buy me a gift." She smiled.

"Eliana, really, it's okay. You don't have to. I have money to buy my own clothes but thank you." I tried grabbing the shirt from her hand but she pulled away. "What are you doing? I'll buy it."

"I already told you I'm going to buy it for you so chill. You can take me out or something." I smiled at the thought. "No, Alex, not on a date. I saw that smirk."

I frowned. "Why not? You're saying you wouldn't go out with me?" I know she wouldn't but it's worth a try.

"Alex, I love you but only as a friend. If we ever went somewhere, it would only be as friends." I felt as if my heart was just ripped out of my chest but I just nodded. "Now let me go pay for this." I nodded again and she came back a few minutes later and she handed me the bag.

"Thank you," I said, smiling. "You didn't have to but now I guess I'll have to make it up to you somehow."

"That's right, Gaskarth." She smiled and I couldn't help but smile back.

"Come on, love birds," said Jack. "We're leaving." I could feel my cheeks start to burn but Eliana already started walking away. She didn't see that, thankfully. "We're gonna go to the movies. Woo!" He pumped his fists up in the air. Eliana laughed and I smiled. I love her laugh. "Don't laugh at me, Martin!"

She laughed again. "Shut up. You love me, Barakat." She hugged him and he hugged her back. I couldn't help but feel...jealous? I mean El and Jack are so close. It could be the obvious reason he met her first. She grabbed his hand and started pulling him to the car. He turned around to look at me with concern and I just shrugged. I know I was extremely jealous right now. She holds hand with Jack but not me. Although when I did hold her hand back there with that girl, she didn't pull away. It could be the reason that she was just helping me out. I sighed. Ugh, I hate this.

(Eliana's POV)
We got to the movies and of course all the boys wanted to watch a scary movie. Kara and Vanessa went along with it and me, I didn't want to. I know everyone is there with me but I'm still going to get scared.

Alex chuckled at me when he sat down next to me. "You're scared as hell, aren't you?" he asked.

"No... Maybe just a little," I said. I could feel my hands starting to shake in my lap.

Alex just smiled. "Don't worry, babe. I'll protect you." He intertwined his fingers with mine and I didn't pull away. I don't think I will want to. I know if I don't have someone holding my hand I will scream. He brought my hand to his lips and kissed it. I could feel myself blushing so I looked away.

"Thanks, Superman," I said, looking back at him when my face turned back to its normal color.

Alex chuckled. "Any time, Ellie, you're my best friend and I love you."

"Love you, too." The movie started and I could feel myself starting to shake. He put his arm around me and grabbed my hand with his free one. It was just like when we watched that movie at Jack's house. I smiled and I got this weird feeling in my stomach again. What does this mean? I've never had them before... Not even when I was with him. I put my head on his shoulder and he pulled me closer to him. He made me feel so safe throughout the movie. I would only jump some parts. I'm sure someone was looking at us at times. As the credits began to roll, Alex let go of my hand and took his arm off of me. I could feel my heart sink but I smiled. "Thanks, Alex."

He smiled back. "No problem. I'd do anything for you," he mumbled. We all got up and started to get out of the theater. I grabbed Alex's hand without thinking about it. He looked back at me and smiled. I smiled back. "So now you want to hold my hand, huh?" he asked, laughing.

"Shut up," I said, smacking his arm lightly with my free hand. He just chuckled. "I'm only doing it to make you happy."

"Really?" He almost sounded too surprised but he smiled. "It's nice that you care about my happiness." We all got back in the car and went back to our houses. "I'll see you later." He said it slowly.

"Bye," I said. He turned around and started to walk away but ended up turning back around and walked up to me. I raised an eyebrow. "What's up?" Vanessa had already gone inside to shower and change. I was out here talking to Alex for a while after we came back home.

He seemed to be hesitating. "Uh, never mind, forget it." He leaned down and kissed my cheek. I kissed his cheek back. "Bye." He started to walk away and I stood there dumbfounded. I turned around and walked into my house. I opened the door and saw Vanessa standing there, smirking.

"What?" I asked.

"What was that?" she asked, still grinning.

"Nothing, we were just saying bye to each other." I touched the cheek he kissed and Vanessa's grin got bigger.

"You like him. Admit it."

"No, I don't. He's my best friend. Why doesn't anyone understand that?"

"He likes you and you like him. Go out with him, damn it! Why are you being so stubborn about liking him?"

"I don't know... I mean I do think I like him. I just can't go out with him. It could happen again." I sat down on my bed once we entered my bedroom. Vanessa sat down next to me. "I don't know what to do, Nessa."

"You should talk to him." I looked at her. "Tell him everything. I don't think he's like other guys." I sighed. She was right but how do I tell him?