Status: revising and reposting. new chapters out every few days.
Dying to be Thin
Hello.
My name is Adison Susannah Reeves.
And my name is Anorexia Nervosa,
Ana for short.
Eighty percent,
Of girls under 16,
Starve themselves for me.
Look around you.
Your daughter,
Your sister,
Your girlfriend
Your best friend.
I could be talking to any one of them,
Right now.
Reciting rhymes about her thighs,
Her hips,
Her stomach,
Herfat.
She’ll do whatever I tell her to do,
If it means she’ll drop a pound.
Or two.
Or ten.
She won’t tell you,
No,
She’ll lose in silence.
Skipping meals when no one’s around,
Regurgitating,
What she’s forced to swallow.
And you will never even know.
I’m secretive that way.
I hide and lie,
Deceive and manipulate,
Festering inside her brain,
Until I’m all she can think about,
All she can listen to.
You think you can win.
You think you can beat me,
With therapy and rehab.
Talk me out,
Fatten her up,
Teach her its okay,
For her body to jiggle,
Every time she takes a step.
But it isn’t okay,
And I’ll make sure she knows it,
Every hour,
Of every day,
Of every week,
Of every month,
Of every year.
And then finally,
One day,
She’ll give in completely,
And I’ll take over,
Transforming her into someone beautiful,
Someone who deserves me,
Someoneperfect.
And by then,
She’ll never live again.
You think you can win?
Trust me,
Adison is justone of my creations.
Warning: This novel is very graphic and is based off of real events. It can be triggering, please don't read if you might relapse. If you recognize any symptoms of anorexia from this story, please,please, go get help. Or just talk to me, I'll help any way I can.
UPDATE: I've been in the process of recovering for two years now. I haven't been able to look at this since I started recovery. Because I am in a different mind set, I am taking the chance to work on revisions. There will be an updated chapter posted every few days or so. Feel free to unsubscribe if you don't want to re-read the 'chapters', Thank you all for sticking through this with me. Your support helped save my life.
My name is Adison Susannah Reeves.
And my name is Anorexia Nervosa,
Ana for short.
Eighty percent,
Of girls under 16,
Starve themselves for me.
Look around you.
Your daughter,
Your sister,
Your girlfriend
Your best friend.
I could be talking to any one of them,
Right now.
Reciting rhymes about her thighs,
Her hips,
Her stomach,
Herfat.
She’ll do whatever I tell her to do,
If it means she’ll drop a pound.
Or two.
Or ten.
She won’t tell you,
No,
She’ll lose in silence.
Skipping meals when no one’s around,
Regurgitating,
What she’s forced to swallow.
And you will never even know.
I’m secretive that way.
I hide and lie,
Deceive and manipulate,
Festering inside her brain,
Until I’m all she can think about,
All she can listen to.
You think you can win.
You think you can beat me,
With therapy and rehab.
Talk me out,
Fatten her up,
Teach her its okay,
For her body to jiggle,
Every time she takes a step.
But it isn’t okay,
And I’ll make sure she knows it,
Every hour,
Of every day,
Of every week,
Of every month,
Of every year.
And then finally,
One day,
She’ll give in completely,
And I’ll take over,
Transforming her into someone beautiful,
Someone who deserves me,
Someoneperfect.
And by then,
She’ll never live again.
You think you can win?
Trust me,
Adison is justone of my creations.
Warning: This novel is very graphic and is based off of real events. It can be triggering, please don't read if you might relapse. If you recognize any symptoms of anorexia from this story, please,please, go get help. Or just talk to me, I'll help any way I can.
UPDATE: I've been in the process of recovering for two years now. I haven't been able to look at this since I started recovery. Because I am in a different mind set, I am taking the chance to work on revisions. There will be an updated chapter posted every few days or so. Feel free to unsubscribe if you don't want to re-read the 'chapters', Thank you all for sticking through this with me. Your support helped save my life.