When Somebody Loved Me

“I can’t believe this….” I whispered to Jake, who was sitting across from me on my bed. We were having our last night together before I left for tour tomorrow.

He smiled slightly. “I don’t think anyone will.”

I laughed lightly. “I know. No one is going to be expecting this.”

“Do the boys even know you’re coming?”

I nodded, taking a shaky breath. “They found out tonight, I think.”

“Why so late?”

“No one wanted them to find out. Or they probably would’ve cancelled tour.” I smirked slightly.

“What happens when you see Nick-”

“Don’t say his name.” I whispered.

He sighed. “Carter…you’re going to have to accept it. You’ll be seeing him tomorrow and for the next six months.”

“I don’t want to accept it!”

“You’re going to have to! I’m sorry…but that’s the way it is. You’re going to see him, it’s going to be hell…and you’re going to have to find a way to get him to forgive you. It’ll be hard…but it’ll be so worth it.”

I looked up at him, tears threatening to fall. “Thanks, Dad.”



I walked on the bus that I was to be living in for the next six months. It was silent, because the boys were sleeping on their bunks, but I just sat on the couch, watching the cars go by, thinking about life.

He’s going to stop this tour.
He’s going to just say ‘No, I’m not working with her’ and leave.
He’s going to leave everything.
He’s going to take one look at me and turn back around.
He’s going to hate me.
Forever.

“You really have changed, Mar.” I heard someone say as they sat next to me.

“How so, Drake?” I asked, still looking out the window.

“Well, one: You look totally different.”

I smiled slightly. Yeah, I do. Dying your hair really gets people’s attention, I guess.

“Two: The old you would be dead asleep right now.” I heard the smirk in his voice.

I laughed lightly, looking at my hands. “I’ve just been thinking lately.”

“And three…the old you would be trying to get Nick back….” He whispered, causing my to whip my head around to look at him.

“He hates me.” I whispered back.

“No…he doesn’t. No one could ever hate you.”

“Then what? What does he think of me? ‘Cause I’m sure as hell he doesn’t love me.”

He sighed. “It may seem that way only to you, but to everyone else, you’re both madly in love with each other.” He said and went back to his bunk.

I just sighed deeply and looked back out the window.

“I look up to the sky
And now the world is mine
I’ve known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that there’s no doubt.
I made it, I made it!”

I sang to a song I just made up in my head.

“When’d you make that up?” Derek chuckled.

I shrugged. “Just now.”

We were about to walk into the restaurant we stopped at, until I ran into someone.

“Oh, shit, I’m sorry, girl.” I heard someone say in a scratchy voice, grabbing my hands to help me up.

“No, it’s my fault.” I said, brushing myself. I looked up at blinked a few times. “Lil Wayne?”

He gave me a smile, complete with grill and everything. “Carter Marley Scott?”

I grave him a grin. “You know who I am?”

He laughed. “Girl, everyone knows you.”

I laughed, rubbing my neck. “Yeah, I guess they do.”

“Well, I couldn’t help but overhearing your little song you were just singing.”

I laughed lightly. “Ah, that was nothing. Just making up stuff.”

“Hell, that was good!” He took out his phone. “You could go far with that song.”

I smiled. “Really?”

“How’s ‘bout doin a song wit me?”

[a week later]

“No, Andy, stop yelling and listen for one second!” I yelled.

He groaned. “Fine, what?”

“I’m at the venue.” I said angrily.

“You are?”

“YES! What, you think I wasn’t gonna go to the venue? Jesus Christ! If you would actually listen to me for one second you would realize I already said that!”

He sighed. “I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, me too. Now, as I was saying, I’m recording a song with Lil Wayne, Birdman, and Jay Sean.” I said slowly. “We’re using the Jonas’s recording bus to record it. It’s just a little side song.” I said, starting to tap a beat on the drum. Andy was on speaker phone.

Bryan (Birdman) and Jay were starting to rap a part in the song, just goofing around.

“Do the boys know you’re using their bus?” Andy sighed.

“Yes, sir.” I rolled my eyes, smirking.

“Okay, you’re off the hook. Have fun.” He said, then hung up.

“Alright, let’s get down to business.”

[Birdman]
Yeah
Cash Money Heroes
Private Jets
Polish, fly

[Chorus - Marley]
I look up to the sky
And now the World is mine
Ive known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that theres no doubt.
I made it, I made it!

[Marley - Verse 1]
Known from the city where no one believed in me
But I never give up the fight.
Ya, but now on top.
I told you to let it rock
The moneys fallin from the sky-y-y-y-y
I made it.

[Chorus - Marley]
I look up to the sky
And now the World is mine
Ive known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that theres no doubt.
I made it, I made it!

[Birdman]
Yeah
YM
CMB baby
Birdman
Swagged out
100
Rooftop, hella choppa burning smoke
Louie bag stay strapped wit a priceless globe
High life, flippin and get some more.
Paradise, the luxury marble floor
When I hit, hit me full of that cash
More money than I seen in a garbage can
Stunna island, money and the power
Thats how we do it, make it rain make it shower
Top floor, big timer doing big things
Over city views bought shawty new range
Flip another 100, poppin throwing hundreds
In a new Bently, uptown stunna!

[Chorus - Marley]
I look up to the sky(TO THE SKY)
And now the world is mine(THE WORLD IS MINE)
Ive known it all my life(all my lifeeeeee)
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life im living now(ooooo)
I know that theres no doubt.
I made it!

[Jay Sean]
Ooo I made it
I made it...
I made It...
I made it...
Yo ay Ay ay listen
See I dont live for glamour,and I dont care for fame
Im in this for the love of the game
Funny how things can change
They didnt believe in me
Then they calling my name
Now look who cashed in
They didnt wanna know me back then
But ever since I don gon platinum
Everything turned around
And now the sky is falling downnnnnn

[Chorus - Marley]
I look up to the sky
And now the World is mine
Ive known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that there's no doubt.
I made it, I made it!

[Lil Wayne]
Came from the gutter, lookin like my motha
Made it to the goal line, straight out the huddle
Cash money goldmine, weezy stay loyal
Boy we getting money like we just found oil
Uh and thats word to my red flag
I live first and leave the bullsh-t dead last
I lay it down so hard I got a bedrash
And I just tell em to loaf it when the bread pass
Staring at you from the top of the game man
I might drop the World if I change hands
Uh it feel good to be here, Weezy in the building got this b-tch rebuilt
Young Money

[Chorus - Marley]
I look up to the sky
And now the World is mine
Ive known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that theres no doubt.
I made it, I made it!

[Jay Sean]
I look to the skyyy!!
I made it!
Ooo!
Made it, I made it
Yes I did
(x5)
I made it

I grinned, cheering along with everyone else. “That was amazing!”

Everyone nodded, agreeing with me.

My stomach grumbled, causing everyone to laugh and me to blush. “Whatever. I’m always hungry.”



“Marley, come on, it’s time to go inside.” Aiden said to me.

I looked up at him, shaking my head. “No, I can’t face him.” I started to turn around and walk away but four pairs of hands held me back and carried my squirming body into the room.

They set me down and started walking into the room where the meeting was.

I took a deep breath.

You can do this.
Just face him.
You can do it.
Just walk into the room and look him in the eyes.
He doesn’t hate you.
You love him.
You can do this.

I slowly walked into the room, ‘causing everyone to look at me.

I looked at my band first, and they were giving me smiles. I then skimmed over to Mr. and Mrs. Jonas whom I haven’t see in a year. Next was Kevin and Joe.

They were staring at me like I had two heads. I expected that.

I started to look over to Nick, but stopped and looked back at Mr. and Mrs. Jonas. “Can we please…just start this meeting?” I asked quietly.

Mr. Jonas sighed, nodding.



“Just do it, Marley.” Drake said as he passed me.

I nodded slightly and looked over at Nick for the first time since a year.

I would say he looked absolutely amazing, but that wouldn’t give him any justice. He looked even better. His eyes were still the deep chocolate brown I get lost in, and his hair was as curly as ever.

He looked at me, a fleck of shock shown in his eyes. And nodded. We went into my room and sat on my bed.

I took a deep breath. Here goes nothing. “S-So…how have you been?”

“Fine….” He whispered.

I bit my lip, feeling the tears coming. “Nick…I’m so-”

“I don’t wanna hear it.”

I sighed. “Nick, please. You have to hear me out!”

He stood up, running his hand through his hair. “Why? Why should I?”

“Because you have to know what happened!”

“I know what happened! I watched the whole thing!”

I groaned, standing up also. “God! You’re just as stubborn as before!”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?!” He yelled.

“It means, you stubborn ass! That you never let people explain things! You just cover your ears and don’t listen!”

“FINE! Then tell me what the hell happened! It’s not going to change my mind about you!”

I groaned. “Fine! It went just how you saw it! I admit it! Yes, he kissed me, but I didn’t feel anything!”

“And what is that supposed to mean?”

“It means that when he kissed me…” I yelled, then sighed. “…I didn’t feel anything like I kissed you….” I whispered, looking at my feet. “Look…when I kissed him…there was no…spark. I mean, sure, it was good and all…but I didn’t feel anything. It didn’t feel like I was going to spend the rest of my life with him.”

He stared at me, an expressionless face, so I opened my mouth to continue, but he left the room before I even made a sound.

I closed my eyes, biting my lip as a few tears fell from my eyes.

I hate this.