I Thought You Could Never Love a Monster. I Was Wrong.

It was finally Friday; the Big Day. I would perform in front of the school, for the talent show with some 'sort of' friends. I know how it sounds, to call them that; but they are. They're are really sweet, and funny too. But they don't hold that trait that I want in a friend.

But any who; we had practiced the last two days at Kelly's house and at Nate's. I would either drive myself there, or get picked up by Becka and the gang. But we had practiced a lot, and I didn't think I'd make it through. My voice was sore from all of the singing and the high pitches that i had to master in less than two days. But I knew I could be ready for something like this.

When I had gotten to school, I didn't see Edward's or any of his family's cars. Si I assumed they were off on their hunting trip. And I knew that I was still not fully clear of what they were. I wasn't scared, though. I was more awed than anything. I didn't think these kinds of things would exist. But they do.

And that mde me more attracted to Edward. I was beginning to get caught so much in him, it's like I was a drug addict, addicted to the strongest, most luring drug there was out in the world.

I shook my head, needing to forget about that. I was in school, and I should be worrying about that. Not about Edward and the Cullen's slurping down animals.

I cringed, I shouldn't think of that. It's disrespectful, I know.

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The rest of the school day could have bore me to tears. I thought I was going to lose my mind. I kept thinking of Edward, and then my mind switched to the performance that was later tonight. Somehow I had managed to evoke something to clear my head.

Lunch, as usual, was entertaining. Kelly and Becka goofed off; they were pretty excited for tonight. And Nate wasn't sitting with us. He was home, getting rest before tonight. I didn't give much thought to getting rest for tonight, which made me feel stupid.

"So, Remy." Becka cheered in, "We will come get you at five so we can set up and stuff. The show starts at six. Got it?" she smiled.

I smiled up at her, "Got it." I said back to her.

"Oh, and," she handed me something in a box, "this is what you have to wear. We have to match in some array of fashion." She giggled. I smiled.

It wasn't that funny. But I guessed I'd get to see it when I was home. . .

When I had gotten home, I ran up stairs and opened up the box that Becka had given me today at lunch. I looked inside and saw a really cute outfit. Becka did ahve good taste. I shuddered out of my closed fast enough to send me flying on my butt. I guess I was really nervous, and excited for tonight.

I pulled on my tight black skinny jeans which gave me a nice set of curves. Then pulled on the blue tiger striped top along with the short-cut leather jacket. With slight success, I put on a pair of white stilettos. I was never good with heels. Atleast, putting them on correctly. I have snapped the heels off of my mother's when we were going to my aunt's wedding two years ago.

I sighed, shaking the thought away. I re-straightened my hair, placing a cute blue bow on the right side. I slipped on some jewelry and stared at the girl in the mirror.

She was beautiful; which shocked the hell out of me. Her long brown hair shaped her face perfectly. Her dazed blue eyes peircing through the mirror. Then I realized something that was more shocking.

That girl was me.

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I waited, restlessly for Becka to arrive. I was nervous as hell. I was happy to sing in front of everyone, but I was afraid that I'd make myself look like such a stupid fool.

Finally I heard a honk and ran out to Becka's car. We made our grettings nice and clear and drove off to the show. We had made it just in time. We were the last band to go, which helped give me some time to catch my breath and practice the song we were going to sing.

Sooner than later, it was our turn to go. I felt a rumple in my stomach. I followed through with the group, ignoring the butterflies that were dying to come out.

"And now, last but not least; The Bloodsuckers!" the principal announced.

I could hear the students cheering mostly Nate's name. Some of them screamed Becka's and Kelly's. Never mine. When we walked out, I did get a few dirty looks from the whores in the school, but I didn't my best to ignore it.

I took my deep breath and grasped onto the microphone. I looked back at Kelly, giving her the OK to start. And soon I was flipping my hair around, getting ready for my part.

"Unified diversity, no! Functioning as one body. Every part encouraged by the other; no one independent of another. You're irreplaceable, indespensable, you're incredible, incredible."

The first part caught me on quickly. I walked a little across the stage, getting everyone's eyes on me as they sang along when the chorus blared through.

"Beautiful bride, body of Christ. One flesh abiding strong and unifying. Fighting ends in forgiveness," The slight scream then came, "unite and fight all division, Beautiful bride."

I walked over to Nate as the next verse came up, showing off some small moves. I wasn't me, which made me feel good. I was someone completely different, and they had decided to take over.

"Strengthen your arms now," I threw my arms up, " train your fingers for battle; urgency's here now; train your fingers for battle. Fighting this violence, with your feet wrapped in peace. Sad tears and silence, now screams of joy; Victory."

I leaped my way over to Becka and sang along with her, moving along with her, in the chorus.

"Beautiful bride, body of Christ. One flesh abiding strong and unifying. Fighting ends in forgiveness," The slight scream then came, "unite and fight all division, Beautiful bride."

I smiled and strutted my way back to the microphone to finish up the last of the song we had to sing.

"Beautiful bride, body of Christ. One flesh abiding, strong and unifying!

We're not gonna fall and forget, how far you went to pick us up. If one parts hurt the whole body's sick. If one part mourns we all mourn with Him. Rejoice, we'll sing with you:" My voice had smoothed out then for, " Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah."

The guitar solo and broken out by Nate and I shook myself on stage, giving it my all. Smiling at the thought of maybe this wouldn't be too bad.

When the song ended we all stopped suddenly, freezing so show how capible we really were at this song, and performing. The crowd of students cheered and jumped up, screaming.

I felt a lot better about myself, now. I finally let the thing inside me open up and show itself to the world. Well, some of it atleast.

We all walked back stage, hugging and cheering about our performance. We listened for the winners, and we ended up in 2nd place. Which wasn't bad at all. I was so happy with the place we had gotten. Nate, on the other hand, was alittle dissapointed that we hadn't won the big trophy.

Becka and Kelly hugged me- well, rather tackle-hugged me and danced around at what we had all just done.

"Remy, again you were freaking amazing!" Kelly exclaimed, her smile was wide; sweat was rolling down her forehead. Matter of fact, we were all sweating and it was pretty disgusting.

"Come on, Remy, let's all go out to eat and celebrate!" Becka called, walking towards the back door.

I shook my head, "Nah, you guys go on without me. I need to head home." I frowned as they did. We said our goodbyes and went seperate ways.

Shit! I forgot that Becka had driven me here. But she was already long gone. I sighed and started on my way to walk home.

I had walked a few blocks and my legs were already tired. I turned left and found a gas station. I could just use the pay phone there and call Edward.

Wait, I thought. He's off hunting, and I don't want to disturb him. I'm not sure if he'd get upset with me for ruining his meal. I cringed.

I had thought of something better. Well, actually it was quite stupid. I'd wait for Edward to finish his buisness. And Alice would see me and definatly tell Edward where I was. Then he's come a find me, and take me home.

I sighed at I walked to the pay phone. Even if I couldn't use it to call someone, I could use it to lean against. I needed to catch my breath. I had run across two streets, avoiding cars at all costs. When I leaned against the phone, I closed my eyes and took deep breathes.

Before long I was grabbed and a man's giant hand had found his way to my mouth; muffling my screams and pleas. He dragged me to the back, where no lights were. I felt a deep sharp pain in the pit of my stomach.

It's happening all over again. I'm fucking screwed. I was going to die this time.

I couldn't fight him much longer as he slammed my body against the cool brick wall. I couldn't catch a glimpse of who he was, but he reeked of alcohol and filth.

He kept his right hand on my mouth as his left hand grazed over my chest, down my stomach to the zipper of my pants. I was now crying and he tried like hell to pulled it down.

I know that it may sound funny that he couldn't get it, but I was still scared as hell.

He glared at me before uncovering my mouth for a split second, giving me just enough time to scream for help.

My peircing scream was loud. I had already known that. Which was a good defense machanism, I think. Before I could glance at anything else, his fist came right into my face, knocking my down on the cold floor.

I could taste the blood in my mouth. That salty copper taste made me gag. I tried to get up, only to trip over my feet in the process. The man jumped on me and I let out another painful scream as he slapped me twice. Before he could send another slap in, he was thrown off of me, into the brick wall on the other side of the alley-like place.

I heard a growl, the man had lept to his feet and ran. I moaned in pain as the one who saved me picked me up and cradled me in his arms.

"Remy? Oh, you're bleeding. I need to get you to Carlisle." Edward's voice stung in a way that made me feel extraordinarily great.

I mumbled, "Edward." right as he ran me out of the dark and into the streets of Forks, Washington.