I Thought You Could Never Love a Monster. I Was Wrong.

I arrived at school early on Monday morning with Rosalie and Alice. I was too exhausted to really do much in school, so I just sat in each class, drifting off. There was some sort of buzz about a new girl. It was annoying, actually. I understand how that was when I was the new student.

I started drifting off in History when my teacher walked in with an unfamiliar face. They both turned to face the class, and the teacher's face was an small smile.

"Alright, everyone. We have a new student. This here, is Isabella Swan."

"Bella." She muttered quietly, looking down.

Nodding, the teacher - who I honestly don't remember his name - sent Bella to sit next to, you guessed it. Me. Fucking lovely.

I groaned inwardly as she stumbled a little into her seat. Mr. I don't remember, started to teach the class on Civil War. I jotted down some notes, but still wasn't completely in reality. I turned over to glance at this Bella chick. She was plain, but a pretty kind of plain. Her dark brown hair went down to her chest. Her skin was pale, but not as pale as the Cullen's. Her eyes were a dark brown, so I knew she wasn't a vampire.

Throughout class, I got kind of annoyed as this Bella girl twitched around in her seat, possibly uncomfortable about being in a new school. Some Mike guy that I had hardly ever talked to, started to flirt with her. Shockingly, she politely denied him. Which left his face ponder off.

Smirk.

The bell rang, signaling the end of the period. My stomach growled, but I didn't feel hungry. I'd just grab an apple at lunch. I watched at Bella stumbled out the door quickly. That wasn't awkward at all.

When i got to lunch, apple in hand, I sat next to Alice and Rose who were glaring at a table near by. I turned to see Edward and Bella sitting together alone at a table. I felt my stomach churn, anger building up. Why would my Edward, talk to her?

"Why is he with her?" I growled.

Rosalie growled, apparently she wasn't too fond of her, either. "I swear, if he ruins it, I will personally kill him." She squeezed her hands into hard fists, trying to control her anger.

"I get a vibe I don't like." Alice sighed, looking away from them.

"As do I." I agreed. "Alice...?" I trailed when I looked to see Alice focused in on a vision. She snapped back seconds later, sighing heavely.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing..." She trailed. She shot her head up, "She's going to figure it out."

"What?" The whole table gasped, I, included.

"Oh hell no." Rose shook, about to stand up. Emmett settled her down.

"Babe, who cares? She's nothing. We got Remy, here." He smirked, winking at me. I rolled my eyes, waving him off.

The bell rang alittle after our table became silent. I walked off to my other classes, alone. Without Edward. He was too busy being fascinated with the new girl.

Bella. Yuck, I could vomit at just the thought of her name.

I shrugged it off, though. I just wanted to get through the rest of the day, not giving in to temptation and beating that Bella girl to a fucking bloddy pulp. I'm sure the Cullen's would be ravishing. I winced. Bad idea.

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I got home, plopping myself on the couch I turned on the TV, not paying attention. Rose stormed in and sat next to me, unecessarily breathing hard. She would explode if I pushed her off the edge.

I didn't need to, she blew up all by herself. "That stupid human!" She spat, I flinched. "No offense. I'm talking about Bella." Venom dripped from her tone.

"Why? What happened now?" I asked, anxiously.

"Tyler Crowley swerved today in his car, almost hitting Bella. But Edward was stupid enough to save her. Now she's onto us. This will ruin everything." She growled,digging her hands into the couch.

"Fuck." We muttered together. Then turned to eachother, smirking.

"We'll get rid of her. Not just for us, but for you." Rosalie sincerely smiled, grabbing me in a light hug. I hugged her back, smiling.

"Thank you." I whispered. She nodded before strutting off to the stairs.

I sighed, leaning my head back on the couch, too tired to move.

~*~*~*~*~

All fucking week, Bella has been on Edward's case. And Edward didn't even mind. Didn't care that even after me, he'd still possibly put his family into danger if the Volturi knew that Bella would soon find out.

It made me sick, actually. To have to hear about them in the hallways, and in class. The stupid rumors that would turn out to be true in no time. And Edward was always sitting with her, smiling my crooked smile. I felt sick.

And Edward was never home. He was always with her, I could tell. It was like I didn't exist anymore. Not in his world, atleast. Which hurt. To my fucking core of my insides. I was getting sick and tired of her. I wanted so badly to chop up her small frail body and feed it to the wolves.

Wait. I thought. Bad analogy. I smirked at myself for the stupid, yet funny thought.

And the only way I could get my mind somewhat off of Edward, was when I was with Jacob. He said he knew Bella. That they used to play together when they were kids. But he's sickened that Edward would go after her, leaving me alone. But in someway, I could tell that Jacob was happy to have me at his house almost everyday.

I was getting along with Paul a lot better, now. He was the best big - literally- brother that I could ever have. Though I felt a painful ache in my chest whenever I saw Paul, because it reminded me of my two little brothers. That I sickly killed.

Yes, I had nightmares again. They all came back. The flashback of that painful night. And then the painful hours in the hospital, screaming in pain at the thought of killing my family. And then some nights, it'd be of the flashback of the gas station. The alley. The men who raped me, sliced me open in their own sick little game.

So I'd wake up screaming and sweating hoping Edward would be there to calm me down. But he wasn't. Some of my new family would come to calm me down. They were good at that, but not as good as Edward. So that's when I started staying the night at Jake's, or Paul's, on weekends. I had nothing better to do. Plus my brother, and my best friend, cleared most of the pain away. They were some sort of antidote to fight off the poisoned past of mine. And the poison that Edward had released into my soul, my mind, and my heart.

But then the pack got too busy to hang out with me. And I didn't want to bother the Cullen's with my relentless nagging of boredom, and the pain that would soon come back to peirce through my chest. So I found my own personal way of dealing with things.

I started smoking with a group of people that Nate had introduced me to. They were complete stoners. I wasn't. I just wanted to get away from reality for awhile. So they introduced me to weed. I'd spoke it whenever I got the chance. I'd come home, overly sprayed with perfume to keep the scent of smoke away. It seemed to work too. I'd run to my bed and fall asleep, exhausted. Then I'd do it all again the next day.

I felt free.
~
I sighed, biting into a delicious red apple. I was staying home today, Alice made me. She said something was coming up. I had to groan at the thought of not getting another drag for possibly the whole day.

Alice was playing with my hair. Rose was laying her head down on my lap while we all watched Hockey. Me and Emmett cheered when the Black Hawks got goals. High fiving everytime, and screaming 'go go go!' at the TV, yelling recklessly at the players on the screen to skate faster, to hit the puck into the goal.

The front door opened, and I hear a slight giggle. I groaned at the thought. But I was also afraid of who I'd see. All happy together. Edward and Bella walked into the living room, smiling slightly.

"She figured us out." Rosalie snapped, still laying her head on my lap.

"Rose, calm." Me and Emmett said together. She just sighed, very irritated.

"Guys, I want you to meet Bella. Bella, this is my family." He spoke calmly. My heart sped fast at the sound of his voice ringing in my ears. I closed my eyes, trying to fight off the pain. I needed a fucking smoke.

Emmett muttered a 'yo'. Rosalie hissed. Alice nodded, Esme and Carlisle smiled timidly, not paying much attention to the other human in the house. I ignored that fact that Edward hadn't introduced me to her. I didn't care. Did I?

"You're fucking this up, Edward." Rosalie spat out of nowhere.

"Excuse me?" Edward asked tensly.

"This chick is going to rat us out." She said simply, glaring at Bella.

Bella shook her head quickly. "No, no. I wouldn't tell anyone...." She trailed, then looked over to me. "How come she is here? She doesn't look like a...vampire." She asked quietly.

Edward's eyes flashed to me warily. I spoke up then. "I'm a fucking pet of their's." I snapped, Bella winced slightly. Edward glared at me. I rolled my eyes.

"Well, now that we've that that out of the way...." Alice began. I turned to her, eyeing her questioningly.

"Hmm?" I mumbled.

"Well, there is a storm coming through soon. Who is up for some baseball?" Alice chimed. Everyone jumped up to yell their agreements. Me and Emmett high-fived.

Now I've only seen the Cullen's play baseball once. I actually tried to play. I wasn't all too good, but with me in the game, it was always a blast. Me and Edward would fall over laughing when I swung the bat and twisted around, landing myself on the ground with an 'oof.'

"Let's get going, then!" I cheered, jumping on Rosalie's back as she giggled, running quickly to the cars.

"Is Bella coming?" Rose spat at Edward who led Bella to Emmett's jeep.

"Yes, she knows about us. So why not show her how we play baseball?" He questioned, smirking tightly.

I rolled my eyes. "Let's just go. I'm itching to swing that bat in Bella's face." I muttered, sending Rosalie and Emmett in a fit of laughter.

I got a twitching glare from Edward. My pessimism was getting to him.

Fabulous.