I Thought You Could Never Love a Monster. I Was Wrong.

Listen to This!

I stumbled my way across the beach, the cold sand seeping between my toes. I giggled as I walked further. I fell a few times, just laugh at myself afterwards. My goal was to fly, and catch one of those things in the sky, for my Edward.

I climbed the cliff with not so much ease. I scraped my hands when I slipped in the dirt. I didn't complain, I was too intriguide in my new escape. I was practally giddy with excitement as I peered towards the water.

I wasn't sure how this was going to work, but I'd still do it. Maybe I'd fly off to the sky, or maybe not. Either way, I wanted to try to grab a shiney thing. I giggled at myself at the name that I had given the white lights in the sky.

"Hmm..." I thought, looking down at the water. I giggled as I took off my flats. I kept my dress on, not like I cared about my clothes at the moment.

I felt sudden shift in my chest. And in my head. They both were screaming in my head, they wanted me to jump. They wanted me to fly just as much as I did. I smiled at myself at just the thought of flying.

I needed to jump, no matter the outcome. I took a step and my foot was over the edge. I took one big leap and was sent over the edge. I let out a scream of happiness, I was finally flying. But I wasn't going upward, I was going down. I grumbled, but still let myself fall.

The water swam around me as I entered the ocean. It was very very cold. I was already shivering, underwater. The rush that went through me exciteded me powerfully. I stayed under water for a few seconds before submerging above the water. I hadn't noticed how big the waves were at night.

Until one took control, shoving me backwards. My whol body went flying into the rocks behind me. Pain was sent right through me, but some how; I laughed it off. Soon a stronger wave came, pulled my under. I tried to swim up, but the current was too strong.

Looking around under water hurt my eyes intensly, but I just wanted to swim back up. Another wave pushed me from underwater, sending my body back, where my head had slammed against an underwater rock. I soon became unconscious.

I felt the pushes and pulls that the water surged at me. I could somehow feel the ragged sounds of the waves. I didn't know how long I was underwater, but I was saved. Warm hands wrapped around my waiste, pulling me up. Soon I was out of the water, but now fully unconcious.

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Jacob's POV~

I heard a high pitched scream all the way from Jacob's house. We were all sitting around, eating like the pigs we are. Somehow, the voice was familiar. Well, the scream, I didn't know. I darted out of the house, ignoring the yells that I was getting from my pack. I ran towards the beach, and I didn't see anything. No one was on the cliffs, no one was in the water.

Then I saw a lifeless body being thrown against the rocks. It was a girl, I was sure of that. She was wearing a now soaked dress, and her hair was long and dark from being so wet. Then I realized who it was.

Remy.

I ran, fast. As fast as I could. There was no sense into phasing, it'd do no good to drag her out with my teeth. I made my way to the water and lunged in. I didn't have to swim so long to see Remy's body being pulled down the trench.

Forcing my way down, I frantically swam farth and deeper into the ocean. I grabbed her, pulling her by the waiste and swam for the surface. I carried her out, running her to my house. She was pale, horribly pale. Her lips were blue, and her skin showed different shades of purples and blues.

I set her on the couch, everyone freaking out over what was happening. Paul ran over kneeling down beside me.

"Fuck! What happened?!" He yelled, worrying frantically.

"She was the one that jumped off the fucking cliff." I growled, ripping her dress off.

"She's not breathing." Paul yelled, flipping chicken shit.

"Anyone know CPR?!" I yelled."

"I do." A familiar voice said. I looked up to see Leah walk over shoving me to the side. "Blow air into her mouth, I'll pump her chest." She ordered, already starting to pump.

I pressed my lips against hers, blowing air forcefully into her mouth. Leah kepts pumping, trying to get Remy to breathe again. After a few minutes Remy coughed up the ocean water, her eyes shut tight.

I placed my warm hands around her face, "Remy, what were you thinking?!"

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Remy's POV.~

Warm hands were placed on my face, "Remy, what were you thinking?!" The voice whispered in a harsh tone. I opened my eyes to see Jacob kneeling over me.

"Jake...?" I trailed, totally exhausted.

"Yes, Remy it's me." He assured me. I looked around to see the guys staring at me. With confusion, I looked down at my body.

My dress had been torn, leaving me in my underwear and bra. I let out a small squeal and clung onto Jacob, hiding my fragile form. The guys started laughing, but Paul and Jacob glared.

"Leave." Jake spat, ordering for his friends to leave.

"I think I will too. You're my sister, so I can't see you like this." Paul smiled, kissing my forehead before leaving.

I took a deep breath, still holding onto Jake. "I'm sorry." I whispered.

He pulled away to look into my eyes. "Come on, let's get you changed, then you can explain why the fuck you jumped off a damn cliff in a storm." He pulled my up, leading me to his room.

I still felt the highness in me, and I let a giggle burst through my lips. Jake looked at me, one of his eyebrows raised skeptically. I giggled again, standing up on his bed.

"What is wrong with you?" He asked as I jumped on his bed, half naked.

"I dunno." I giggled. "Catch me!" I yelled, jumping off the bed and into Jacob's arms. Jacob caught me, then placed my on the ground. I pouted, then turned it into a smirk.

"What the hell is wrong?" He asked again, giving me a pair of huge shorts and a T-shirt. Instead of answering, I turned him around, pushing him onto the bed.

"I dunno." I said again. I crawled onto his lap, straddeling him. "Just a little booored." I wondered, smiling at him.

"Why'd you jump off a cliff?" He asked, trying to change the subject. He looked pretty nervous to me, I giggled.

I placed my hands on his warm bare chest. "I wanted to fly." I whispered into his ear before grasping him into a firm kiss.

Jacob moaned into the kiss, placing his hands on my hips. Our lips melted together, and I opened my mouth, letting Jacob's tongue make his way into it. His hands stayed in place, and I felt a bulge between my legs. I giggled, wanting to have some more fun.

I put my hands behind my back, unclasping my bra and letting it fall. Jacob opened his eyes, which nontheless wondered down to my chest. His eyes were wide, full of need, and lust.

"Found something you like?" I teased. He pulled me back into another kiss, but much rougher. I felt horrible inside. I really did, but the highness had taken over, shoving away any guitly thoughts.

Then Jake shook his head. "Stop, Remy. What the hell is wrong with you?" He grabbed my bra and gave it to me. Pouting, I put it back on and got off his lap.

"Nothing, God damn." I grumbled. I guess I wasn't getting my way.

Jacob put my face in his hands. "Your eyes are....bloodshot." He gasped, closing his eyes.

"Yeah? I took a few...." I trailed off.

His eyes opened up suddenly. "You're fucking high!" It wasn't a question, he basically stated it loud enough for fucking China to hear.

"Yeah." I said simply, pulling on his overly-large clothes. I layed on Jake's bed, staring at his shaking figure.

"Why?" He asked.

"Wanted to." I answered smugly. Jake turned to me, then sat down on his bed.

"You need to stop this, Remy. You can't do this to yourself!" He glared, and the next thing he said, I knew was breaking his heart. "This will kill Edward if you keep this up." Then he walked out of the room, slamming the door.

I flinched from the loud noise, "Whatever." I grumbled, turning over on my side.

While drifting off to sleep, I couldn't help but think about what I was doing. I asked myself if this was right, and the little voice in my head didn't answer. I was completely lost, no one was there to help me through this. I guess I have to keep reaching for that shiney thing in the sky. That'd be the only way Edward would forgive me for what I had just done.