I Refuse to Close My Eyes.

I bit my lip hard, swallowing the lump in my throat. I could feel tears watering in my eyes again, but I just blinked them back and forced a smile. She grinned at me, perfectly innocently, but something about the way she did it made it somewhat smug. As if she was inside my head and knew how I was feeling.
I hated the looks everyone gave me. Why would no one just tell me how they felt? They just left me trying to decipher their stares. SJ’s bragging glare, Toms sympathetic watch, Oli’s guilty blink. But what did it mean?

I had to leave, I felt like such an idiot being in a room with the two of them. He’d told me we could ‘pick up where we left off’ but I knew it was all just talk now. Now Oli was back with SJ.

It had been 1 month ago. Somehow, when Bring Me The Horizon had headed up to a remote cottage in Scotland, I'd ended up with them/ The singer, Oli, His younger brother Tom is my best friend. As far as I am concerned, they are complete opposites. Good vs Bad.
After humiliating myself, by thinking that Oliver Sykes, might actuallly like me, let alone spare me a second glance, I was left to pick up the pieces and move on, and I knew it wouldn't be easy...