Dear Diary, Love Chelsea
3-27-11
Dear Poseidon,
I talk to Johnny a lot now. I miss him. A lot. I wish he could come see me. He likes me too. Can you believe it?! He likes me. I like him too. A lot. I dont know what to do though, he's 20 and Damon I like him too. He's 16 though so more of the type I should go for. But he's a bad boy. Deff bad boy. Bad news 100%. I guess thats why I like him?
And Nick likes me. My ex? Yeahh, him. I hung out with him a little today at K-mart. His mom kissed my cheek and his grandpa hugged Meme it was hilarious.
But I like Johnny because he's so child like and carefree.
I like Damon because he is more my age, and really sweet and cool.
I like Nick...well I dunno if I like him.. He's so sweet and careing and the ideal boyfriend but I dont really like him much anymore..
Right now I'm a little upset/depressed. But I dont kno why. I feel like your the only thing I can trust. I'd trust you with my life. For now I'll just trust you with my secrets.. Life Royaly sucks in my opinion. I wish I had accoished my previous attempt. No, I wish I was pregnant so I'd have a reason to kill myself, but if I was pregnant I wouldnt kill myself because I wouldnt dare hurt that poor defenseless little creature growing inside of me.
Ever feel like just laying in bed and stareing off into space day dreaming? I want to now. No actually I want to go stare at the stars but imagining them will have to do for now. Right? Yeahh... I feel broken and unwanted inside. I feel like I dont belong here anymore. I wish my chains were gone and I could be set free. I know I am free through God but not in life itself.
Im going to go now...
Goodnight, sweet dreams, so on...
-Chelsea-
P.S. I'm back. Wanted to update you on my ankle real fast. Turns out it was broken and I ws in a cast for 4 weeks. I got it off Thursday now I use Barbie's (Zacks friends - cole- step mom) Barbie's walking boot. 2 weeks of that then back to P.E. And I dont like Matthew anymore. He's a jerk, Well night!!
-Chelsea-
I talk to Johnny a lot now. I miss him. A lot. I wish he could come see me. He likes me too. Can you believe it?! He likes me. I like him too. A lot. I dont know what to do though, he's 20 and Damon I like him too. He's 16 though so more of the type I should go for. But he's a bad boy. Deff bad boy. Bad news 100%. I guess thats why I like him?
And Nick likes me. My ex? Yeahh, him. I hung out with him a little today at K-mart. His mom kissed my cheek and his grandpa hugged Meme it was hilarious.
But I like Johnny because he's so child like and carefree.
I like Damon because he is more my age, and really sweet and cool.
I like Nick...well I dunno if I like him.. He's so sweet and careing and the ideal boyfriend but I dont really like him much anymore..
Right now I'm a little upset/depressed. But I dont kno why. I feel like your the only thing I can trust. I'd trust you with my life. For now I'll just trust you with my secrets.. Life Royaly sucks in my opinion. I wish I had accoished my previous attempt. No, I wish I was pregnant so I'd have a reason to kill myself, but if I was pregnant I wouldnt kill myself because I wouldnt dare hurt that poor defenseless little creature growing inside of me.
Ever feel like just laying in bed and stareing off into space day dreaming? I want to now. No actually I want to go stare at the stars but imagining them will have to do for now. Right? Yeahh... I feel broken and unwanted inside. I feel like I dont belong here anymore. I wish my chains were gone and I could be set free. I know I am free through God but not in life itself.
Im going to go now...
Goodnight, sweet dreams, so on...
-Chelsea-
P.S. I'm back. Wanted to update you on my ankle real fast. Turns out it was broken and I ws in a cast for 4 weeks. I got it off Thursday now I use Barbie's (Zacks friends - cole- step mom) Barbie's walking boot. 2 weeks of that then back to P.E. And I dont like Matthew anymore. He's a jerk, Well night!!
-Chelsea-