Seize The Day

Brian's POV

I rolled over in bed this morning with a huge smile on my face.
I haven't felt this good in ages.
I'm so glad I decided to come here last night.
Not cause I thought I was gonna get laid, but because I was able to show Cynthia the feelings I wasn't able to express to her with words.
I smiled again as I thought about last night.
How sweet her lips tasted.
How good it felt when she held me tightly or ran her hands down my body.
How butterflies fluttered through my stomach each time she moaned my name.
I rolled over to her side so I could cuddle with her but I came up empty.
My eyes flew open and I didn't see anyone.
I sat up and looked around the room.
All of Cynthia's clothes were gone.
I put my face in my hands and leaned against the head board.
Did last night mean nothing to her?
I asked myself.
"Why are you holding your head? Do you have a hangover?" I heard a soft voice ask.
I looked up and there she stood, tooth brush in hand.
I smiled and leaned back, looking at her with relief all over my face.
"What's wrong?" She asked again.
"You mean besides the face that you're dressed and I'm alone in bed?" I asked with a smirk.
She smiled slightly and rolled her eyes.
She went back in the bathroom and I heard her running the sink and then she came back in the room.
She stood awkwardly by the foot of the bed, looking at me.
I smiled and opened my arms.
She smiled slightly and walked slowly to me.
I held her tightly.
She just felt so right being there in my arms.
I rested my head on top of hers and rubbed my hand up and down her arm that was now covered in goose bumps.
"So what now?" Cynthia asked softly.
"Hmm, well eventually I have to get dressed even though I really don't want to. Then we should get back to the bus and we can all go out to eat." I said with a smiled even though I knew she couldn't see me.
She pulled away from me and my eyes narrowed in confusion and hurt.
"No, I meant about us. What now?" She asked softly.
I looked at her blankly.
Did she really not know?
"Well, what do you want?" I asked, looking down at my hands.
"For you to answer me." She said.
"I thought it was pretty obvious. I want to be with you. I've wanted to be with you for a while now." I said, looking up at her expression.
Her eyes were wide.
With surprise or dismay, I don'tknow.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" She asked, getting a little louder.
That was the Cynthia I know.
"I had just gotten back from being a man whore because I couldn't handle my last break up. I didn't want ot go through that again. I didn't know how to tell you either. I didn't know how you'd reafct. Now I wish I would've said it a lot earlier." I told her looking down.
She pulled my chin up.
"Yeah, I wish you would've told me sooner too." She said with a smile.
"You're not mad?" I asked.
"Of course not. You were just being cautios. I can relate to that." She said.
I smiled widely and pulled her into my arms, her lips meeting mine.
Bliss in a kiss.
I don't know what it was.
Her lips were just intoxicating.
It had me coming back for more again and again.
She pulled away and I growled slightly.
I saw her smirk.

Cynthia's POV

"How is this going to work?" I asked, looking at him seriously.
"The way any other relationship works. Working through the problems with each other and spending time together." Brian said, pulling the sheet a little higher up on his waist.
I looked down and was momentarily distracted.
When I looked back up, Brian was smirking.
"So cocky." I said, shaking my head.
"You know it." He said.
I laughed and then cut it short.
"I'm trying to be serious. You're going to be away on tour all the time. I work and go to school full time. We live in different cities." I said.
I've never been good at long distance relationships.
I didn't want to have one now.
"We can figure it out as we go. We don't need to have every answer this second." Brian said.
I stayed quiet and looked down.
I felt Brian take my hands into his.
They fit perfectly, like they were meant to be with his.
"I'm not saying it's going to be easy. We're going to really have to work on it. But I want to be with you. So I'm willing to do it. I know you're scared, but I am too. I'm not asking you to marry me. I just want you to give us a chance. Just take this risk with me." Brian said, looking deeply into my eyes.
I looked at him, weighing the options.
I do want to be with him.
I really do.
But I've seen long distance relationships.
They never work out.
And they never end pretty.
"Brian." I said, with a deep sigh.
I saw his eyes dull a little bit and I could've cried for being the one to take the light from his eyes.
I sat there looking at him and his face started to change.
It grew frustrated and angry, hurt.
He stood up abruptly, not even worrying about taking the sheet with him.
My eyes widened as I scanned over his hard body.
He went around the room, muttering and picking up his clothes.
He shoved on his boxers and pants, then he wrestled with his shirt.
"I fucking put myself out there for you. And this is what I get?!" Brian muttered angrily.
I looked down again, ashamed.
My own fear was holding me back from happiness.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, not knowing what else to say.
"Yeah, me too." Brian whispered.
My phone went off and we both turned at the sound.
"Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost...." It sang.
I stared at my phone and the lyrics went through my ears.
I turned back to Brian.
He was staring at me too.
The look in his eyes had more passion then I've seen in my entire life.
Could I do this?