Pandora

I'd never be enough if I tried. I'm sorry for all I've ever done. I wanted to be good enough. I wanted to be someone worthwhile. I won't cry one more tear, these voices only tell me what I don't want to hear. I'm tired of living in fear, I can't go on knowing I caused the end of something so innocent. If I disappeard tonight, I wouldn't wish you'd miss me. I wouldn't wish you'd kiss my bleeding lip all better.

I just want to be gone knowing I left behind no one caring, no one calling me back to the living. Broken dreams only leave behind shattered glass sharp enough to pierce the flesh. Death is so inviting, but I already promised no bloodshed on these battlefields.

Can you forgive me for not wanting to feel anymore? Could you blame me if I wanted to inject heroin into my veins so I could just forget about it for awhile? One moment of happiness is better than a life of black and grey nothings. Even this medication can't save me long enough to get a grip on reality.

Loose lips sink ships, and this vessel's already trapped on her back, all the men inside her SCREAMING and DROWNING

*NOTES ON THE PAGE*
SATAN! SATAN IS MY GOD!
I can't cry, I'm not weak
Worship the DARK LORD
SIXSIXSIX
Cocktails and cocaine lines
I left you with one promise
If I fall asleep, I do not want to wake up
BLEED IT OUT
I've got a hole inside, and it's 10 MILES WIDE
You murdered my notes! MURDERED!
I bit my lip!
Baka!
Ow!