Just that girl.

I've been sleeping a long time.
I can't bring myself to get up and face the emptiness.
The loneliness.

And I think about that boy, who was he?
What did he want with me?
It made me angry that suddenly someone notices me,
once its too late.
In my mind at least....
in my heart.

I'm sure if I go to school I'll see him..
I don't know if I can handle that.

What do I have to lose?
I should go.
No.
I can't face that.
Yes.
Its the only thing that will save me.

How can you win a fight...
when you're arguing with yourself?
My thoughts are a jumbled mess...
Life is swirling before my eyes,
threatening to keep going on...
without anyone noticing..

That I've faded away into the background...
Swept under, forgotten..
Like dust under a bed.

More hot tears spill onto my cheeks.
More imaginary swords stab into my heart.

I have to go.
I can't hide from this anymore..
I can't numb the pain by ignoring life.

Life doesn't stop.
It goes on, whether you're ready or not.

I'm going to be ready.
I will not be left behind.
I'm just that girl.