Rants
Teenage Phase
You can never wash away the hurt and pain someone has done to you.
It’s like you forgave them but you haven’t forgotten.
But I kinda don’t want to forget.
I want to keep my memories of my pain because I’m protecting myself, in a way.
I’m not letting my heart get hurt any more.
I refuse to get hurt by another stupid boy.
No more, I’m done.
Actually, that was a lie.
There is one boy but I’ll get to that later.
Anyway, I’ve kept everything bottled up, and when I’m really hurting I lock myself in my room and cry for hours.
When I’m done I wash my face and lay down on my bed to cool down.
Sometimes I hate crying, and other times I think it’s good to cry so I won’t snap at anyone or bottle it up for so long that it’ll just burst.
I want to talk to someone but I can’t.
I don’t really have anyone I can trust.
Sometimes I just feel so alone and just downright depressed.
I’ve been this way all school year.
I thought it was just a normal teenage phase and it’d go away, but it hasn’t.
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