Sequel: These Things I'll Never Say ›
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Suffering Alone In Silence
You'll Be The Death Of Me
Frank’s POV
I am dying. I feel humiliated and uncomfortable around Gerard. We are all sitting at a table in the day room facing the window. Outside it is raining.
“How cold is it outside Mikey?” I ask, turning to look at him.
“Uhm, I think the weatherman said it was only meant to get to 50oF” He replied.
I gave a shiver, not only was it raining but it was cold outside as well.
I can’t look at him and I am beginning to get the familiar warmth spread throughout my body, the feeling of wanting to hurt.
“I need to go to the bathroom.” I state, standing up.
Mikey gives a quick nod and a smile.
I’m not quite out of ear shot when Gerard asks Mikey a question that makes me want to hurt even more.
“He hates me doesn’t he? He feels awkward around me don’t he Mikey?”
I walk even quicker towards the bathroom sign in the corner of the large room. Once I reach it I push open the heavy door with great difficulty considering I have no strength. I take a look around the rest room as the door closes with a soft thud behind me. I notice in the corner that there is a paper towel holder with perforated edges.
Who sticks shit like that in a bathroom in a loony bin?
I walk up to it and run my finger lightly over the jagged edges. It sends a shiver down my spine, anticipating my next move. I pull my finger away and replace it with my upper forearm. I take a deep breath in and quickly pull my arm back towards my body. I take a look and notice only tiny scratches. I shrug, the feeling still there.
I repeat my action again, this time with more force. There is a moment of complete stillness.
I take another look at my arm after a couple of seconds. Suddenly there are angry red marks along my skin. Pin prick size drops of blood are forming on my arm.
I decide that there isn’t enough blood and repeat my action once more, forcing the entire weight of my arm behind the action.
Another moment of stillness.
Suddenly there is a white hot pain that shoots up my arm and I let a strangled cry of pain and relief pass my lips. I take a look at my arm and notice I have completely torn the skin away from my arm. I panic and scream again, this time its only a pained scream. Someone must of heard, for in the next few seconds a nurse, Gerard and Mikey are all gathered around me. The nurse is applying first aid and Mikey is crying. Gerard looks shocked and scared.
I cry out in pain once more before the nurse gives me pain relief and hauls me to my feet and drags me to a hospital room, where a doctor is waiting.
I’m given a sedative and the doctor starts stitching me together. The last thing I remember before dozing off is the feel of the 25th stitch closing my skin up.
I am dying. I feel humiliated and uncomfortable around Gerard. We are all sitting at a table in the day room facing the window. Outside it is raining.
“How cold is it outside Mikey?” I ask, turning to look at him.
“Uhm, I think the weatherman said it was only meant to get to 50oF” He replied.
I gave a shiver, not only was it raining but it was cold outside as well.
I can’t look at him and I am beginning to get the familiar warmth spread throughout my body, the feeling of wanting to hurt.
“I need to go to the bathroom.” I state, standing up.
Mikey gives a quick nod and a smile.
I’m not quite out of ear shot when Gerard asks Mikey a question that makes me want to hurt even more.
“He hates me doesn’t he? He feels awkward around me don’t he Mikey?”
I walk even quicker towards the bathroom sign in the corner of the large room. Once I reach it I push open the heavy door with great difficulty considering I have no strength. I take a look around the rest room as the door closes with a soft thud behind me. I notice in the corner that there is a paper towel holder with perforated edges.
Who sticks shit like that in a bathroom in a loony bin?
I walk up to it and run my finger lightly over the jagged edges. It sends a shiver down my spine, anticipating my next move. I pull my finger away and replace it with my upper forearm. I take a deep breath in and quickly pull my arm back towards my body. I take a look and notice only tiny scratches. I shrug, the feeling still there.
I repeat my action again, this time with more force. There is a moment of complete stillness.
I take another look at my arm after a couple of seconds. Suddenly there are angry red marks along my skin. Pin prick size drops of blood are forming on my arm.
I decide that there isn’t enough blood and repeat my action once more, forcing the entire weight of my arm behind the action.
Another moment of stillness.
Suddenly there is a white hot pain that shoots up my arm and I let a strangled cry of pain and relief pass my lips. I take a look at my arm and notice I have completely torn the skin away from my arm. I panic and scream again, this time its only a pained scream. Someone must of heard, for in the next few seconds a nurse, Gerard and Mikey are all gathered around me. The nurse is applying first aid and Mikey is crying. Gerard looks shocked and scared.
I cry out in pain once more before the nurse gives me pain relief and hauls me to my feet and drags me to a hospital room, where a doctor is waiting.
I’m given a sedative and the doctor starts stitching me together. The last thing I remember before dozing off is the feel of the 25th stitch closing my skin up.
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To the 112 readers and 42 subscribers I am soooooo sorry this has been long awaited. I havent been well, Tori has left the story and I've been hell busy at college.I hope this makes up for it.
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