I Don't Even Know His Name...

Alex’s POV:

A few more hours had passed since the phone call from my parents. We had finally arrived in New Jersey and locked up the equipment. It took a lot longer than what we first thought although I don’t think anyone really minded too much. Once we all pitched in Flyzik handed us our individual card keys with an all knowing smirk when he reached us. When Jack realised that our room was indeed on the other end of the corridor he proceeded to celebrate hugging Matt till he couldn’t breathe.

Isn’t he acting a little over the top though? I know this is Jack we are talking about but what if it all proves too much? Well Jack isn’t nervous about these things unlike me. So I proceeded to trudge behind him up the stairs, tugging tightly at my hoodie sleeves. Each step made my me feel that much more uneasy about the idea. I couldn’t help it, I know it sounds stupid but this was a big deal. Thankfully by the time we had reached our room for the night our bags were already waiting for us. The room was really spacious, one king sized bed with an on suite, which was pretty lucky judging by the holiday inns we’re used to.

Closing the door softly I sat on the edge of the bed and got out my phone. It was one of my security blankets, it helped to keep my mind off of current situations and worries. Like always I spaced out for a little not really paying attention to what Jack was doing until I felt his hand on my knee. My heart stopped momentarily. Immediately I looked up from the bright display to see the sincerity in his eyes, lips pressed into a frown.

“Look Lex, if you don't want to do this please say something.” The soft light from the moon shone against his skin lightly through the gap in the curtains illuminating the curiosity in his pupils. My stupid nerves were ruining everything so I decided to suck it up and let things happen naturally. I quickly placed my phone on the bedside cabinet and blushed, eyes trained on the patterns that were now cast on the carpet from the light outside.

“No it’s not that, at all. It’s just me.” Gulping a little I leant my weight on my arms our faces still close together.

“I’m nervous.” I admitted shyly eyes again straying from my boyfriend in front of me. That was until I felt his hand gently cup my jaw, gazes instantly fixating one another.

“Me too, but it’s just me and you. Always has, always will be.” The minute the words left his mouth I felt the rush of emotions fill my chest, all previous feelings forgotten. At this I reached out for him pulling our lips together in a passionate kiss. I could feel this time it was different, as if both of our guards were slowly breaking down. No longer did I have to feel the doubt creep into my head, now I could barely think about anything apart from Jack in his entirety hazing my mind.

I eased back on to the bed a little further as Jack slowly leant over me not once did we break the kiss. Our hands were lost in each others hair as we pressed close, needing the sensation simply to remind us that this was happening.

“Alex...hmm” he murmured against my neck, tongue lapping at all the right places. It wasn’t long until the temperature and sounds in the room rose steadily, shallow breaths and subdued mewls filling the air. One of his hands slowly wandered down my body until it settled on my hip, his fingers gently pressing beneath the fabric. I mumbled a little against his lips before pulling away, just enough so that our lips were still within touching distance. My eyes flicked up to his and then between our bodies, my hand soon pressing against his until I was guiding him slowly under my shirt.

At first my body tensed at his fingertips grazing my skin although by the time I showed him all my weaknesses I was practically arching into his touch. Words don’t even begin to describe how I feel when he did things like this. How affectionate and loving he was with me.

"Jack" I breathed unevenly against his ear, knowing all too well it was a huge turn on for him to hear me like this until we both couldn’t take it much longer. Both shirts were shed soon after. Tugging lightly against his raven hair I rolled us over taking full advantage of the new position. Jack tipped his head back a little exposing his neck in such a tempting way it was impossible to resist. Pressing my lips lightly against his skin at first I slowly progressed into biting and sucking at the flesh, determined to leave my own mark on him.

His hands gripped tightly against my hips as his skin began to feel a lot more heated than earlier. As soon as my tongue brushed against his collarbone he cursed through his teeth, body tensing to reinforce the sensitivity of that spot. It was incredible to me that I could even have this effect on someone like Jack. He leant up slightly until our lips were reunited once more, the fire through our veins was building from every single touch. His nails were now raking over the skin on my back involuntarily making my hips buck. The friction felt like heaven.

“Hnh” I moaned burying my face against his neck. Jack’s hands were all over me in an instant, taunting me, making me gasp for his air, I was trying feebly to fight off low growls of pleasure. Deep in my stomach the pressure was beginning to drive me crazy, body aching for attention to the point it was bordering painful. His long fingers soon managed to move between us, slowly freeing me from my jeans and letting them fall beside the bed. I on the other hand was busy biting behind his ear and feeling him twist beneath me.

“Lex” a low purr of my name rumbled in his chest pulling me from my trance as I pulled back just enough to press our foreheads together. Two sets of liquid brown eyes now glazed with desire seemed to put everything into perspective. This wasn’t about the physical side of sex for us, we were simply strengthening the emotional bond between us. And for once I didn’t feel scared about this anymore. Pressing my nose to his I inhaled deeply trying to calm the hormones that were raging inside me, lips slightly parted in concentration.

The initial rush of us becoming dragged into all these new sensations soon gave way to a more sensual pace. Fingers traced curves and dips of our bodies, eyes watching one another’s reactions, minds busy noting every twitch and whimper which was made. The dark stone washed jeans, after a little more resistance than my own, soon dropped on the now decorated hotel room floor.

“You feeling okay?” He whispered lowly turning us over again so he was pressed on top of me. From all of the feelings swirling in my gut I could barely form sentences anymore. All I could do was nod whilst rocking my hips a little against him, body acting purely on impulse. Jack meanwhile was busy mouthing at my neck before progressing to mould our lips together. It was slow and intense, dragging my brain into deeper phases of bliss. I was so caught up in this I didn’t realise where his hands were moving until I could feel him rub gently between my legs.

“Fuck!” I gasped suddenly, knees drawing together tightly. He seemed to enjoy my reaction applying even more pressure till I cried out loudly. Mercifully he could sense I was teetering incredibly close to that fine line of not enough and too much. The mere sight of my blackened pupils was evidence enough of this as Jack stopped his teasing ways. However his fingers soon hooked into the waistband of my boxers the doubt soon creeping back into my bones. I turned away almost ashamed as I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling tense under his gaze.

Why do I suddenly feel so vulnerable in front of the guy who’s known me my entire life? I just couldn’t help it, I guess I’ve always been worried that I was never good enough to deserve him. Instead of simply continuing regardless he cupped my jaw pulling our faces together until my eyes opened slightly.

“Don’t ever doubt how beautiful you are Alex, to me you’re perfect.” Honestly I didn’t know how to react, I simply let my hands slide into his hair keeping him as close as possible. My eyes closed again whilst my heart swelled in my chest for a whole different reason. And as he tugged away the last of my facade the doubt left with it, leaving me as I was, what I am and what I was yet to become at the hands of my lover.

I mirrored his actions letting the final piece fall to the floor, both entangled carelessly. Jack reached over to the bedside cabinet whilst our lips were brushing seamlessly against one another. It was as if everything seemed to fade around us, a cascade of colours crashing behind my eyelids.

A sudden pressure in my abdomen made me break away breathlessly only to find Jack had began to prep me. It was uncomfortable but nothing that I couldn’t handle. One finger became two, shortly followed by a third. At first I couldn’t help but whimper as the searing ache was completely overwhelming. He tried to sooth me through it by littering my face in kisses, obviously anxious about how I was taking this. However the burn soon subsided until I was left moving against him, begging for more.

Even though the discomfort was residual eventually something stirred inside me. It made my entire body tremble and a desperate whine to be torn from my lungs, skin left feeling too tight over my bones. Never have I felt this amount of heat pulse through me and for it to feel so perfect.

“I think you’re ready.” Those four words rang clear in my mind making me sit up on my forearms watching him through hazy eyes. Using the remainder of the clear solution he made sure he was just as prepared as I was. I won’t describe fully how incredible he looked as some images are personal and I wanted to simply treasure them to myself. Laying me back down against the mattress he wound an arm around my waist the other coming to rest beside my head as he gently raised my hips. I pressed my feet flat against the mattress, toes curled in anticipation knowing all too well what was about to happen. He hesitated, seeing my arm thrown across my face, nose pressed to the triangle formed by my elbow.

“A-are you sure yo-”

“Yes, fuck, just do it. Please...” My impatience was soon rewarded as I felt him finally push forwards, slow yet deep. That was when reality hit me hard. I tensed immediately reaching out for his shoulders, just anything that I could grip onto. Shit this was a bad idea, a really bad idea. Burying my face against his neck I yelped brokenly, a harsh pain tearing through me. Jack instantly tried to move out of me but I shook my head insistent for him to stay.

“No, no, no. Just give me a second.” I panted squeezing my eyes shut. Jack on the other hand was desperately trying still himself, he couldn’t help but let a few groans pass his lips. This was testing both of us to our limits for different reasons. Luckily it didn’t take long for the initial shock to subside, the tension gradually slipping away. Laying back down I looked up at Jack, his head was hung low determined to be patient. Lifting my hips a little he met my gaze knowing I was prepared to continue.

Pressing our body’s close he began to push in a little deeper before pulling out then pressing softly back in. To start with each of our movements were cautious, the discomfort was still ruling my thoughts and actions. Gradually the twinge in my tailbone was soon forgotten as a more euphoric sensation swirled in my stomach. It wasn't long till I was writhing against the sheets, sweat building on my skin.

Our bodies soon became deeply entwined. Muscles working against one another yet fitting against each other seamlessly. A hushed chorus of each other’s names and disjointed vowels echoed off the walls. My jaw slackened a quiet mantra of “uhns” and “ahhs” seemed to reverberate in my throat.

He rocked his hips even deeper, my spine twisted and arched to meet him halfway. A blistering heat surged through me which simply added to the sweltering ambience in the room. My ankles locked around his waist whilst Jack gasped biting my shoulder hard. It was incredible and breathtaking how intense these emotions were. And soon enough these feelings washed over me as Jack found that oh so sensitive bundle of nerves.

“Oh God, there!” He growled gripping my hips tightly as he thrust forward. We became fervent, tugging, biting, shaking, whining frantically trying to hold out for as long as possible.

“Alex, I-I can’t!” He cried out reaching out for my hands desperately. When our fingers intertwined he raised them just above my head, gripping tightly. It brought our faces close together as we kissed for a final time. It was then I felt the twisting in my stomach become too much and I couldn’t control it anymore. I pulled away just as my orgasm practically ripped through me leaving me clenching his hands with all of my strength.

“Uh, Jay!” I screamed coarsly as I shook apart underneath him, succumbing to the fiery fervour of my climax. He looked startled for a second until he felt me tighten around him causing his face to tense in ecstasy. He hissed as his fingers tightened around my own until our skin was white as he groaned loudly. We both collapsed against one another, hands holding on securely whilst we savoured each and every second together in post-coital bliss.

Minutes passed before I could just about breathe evenly, by this time Jack was curled against my side with the sheets pulled half-heartedly over us.

“Alex?” I smiled contently at the hoarse undertones of his voice, guess I did a pretty good job of wearing him out. Snuggling closer and encircling him into a tight embrace I hummed in response, too tired for actual words. He peeked through his now damp and dishevelled fringe with searching eyes.

“Why did you call me Jay back then?” Skipping back through my mind I frowned not really knowing the answer.

“Dunno, heat of the moment I guess. Why?” His fingers were idly tracing patterns across my skin when I saw him smile, his eyes glossy with a sheen of emotions.

“You used to call me that all the time when we were kids. I thought you’d forgotten about it.” He whispered the hidden sentiment was clear in his voice no matter how hard he tried to conceal it. At first I was surprised to think that I hadn’t remembered something like that from our childhood. However fuzzy memories of us as kids began to emerge in my mind, the nickname being emblazoned into my thoughts. Kissing his hair lightly I smiled,

“Sometimes it’s hard for me to remember things from my past. But I’ve learnt that it only takes someone close to you to start piecing together the important moments that never left. I just need reminding every once in awhile.” I felt Jack chuckle against my chest as I looked down at the raven haired boy that I’ve loved for so long.

“Besides there’s no chance of me ever forgetting you Jay.”