Words I've Never Said

Corey,
I'm not being big headed.
Not at all.
I know you like me.
That sounds really big headed doesn't it?
Yes, but your best friend told me you like me.
But I don't see you like that.
Not at all,
And I am sorry that I don't love you.
But I think of you as family,
Nothing less and nothing more,
I know I led you on a bit,
But I stopped you before we got to far,
Before we even kissed.
So I really am sorry Core,
I do love you,
But I'm not in love with you?
I mean I know I'm getting my hopes up even waiting for my crush,
Just because he smiled at me,
Or because he notices me in a crowd,
Or just because he hugs me and I feel warm inside,
But I couldn't lead you on,
Even though my best friends say you'd be the safer choice,
And you wouldn't break my heart,
I know you wouldn't,
Because I wouldn't love you,
So there'd be nothing to break.
I really am sorry Core,
But we're young right?
You can find someone else.
Its not like you was completely and heart wrenching in love with me.
I want you to be so happy Corey,
I want the best for you,
I want to see you with a girl,
And your eyes will sparkle,
I know you say your eyes sparkle whenever I'm near,
But I'm not the good option for you Corey,
I wouldn't love you like another girl could,
I wouldn't be able to do that,
I know I sound selfish,
And I hope you can forgive me,
I'm also so sorry for hurting you Corey,
I really never did intend to do so.
I'm Sorry.