Forever They Will Be Secrets To Me

As scary as it seems, dying doesn't make me feel afraid. I want to embrace the cold air of death and hug his pale frame, as awkward as that may seem. I want to tell them all I am not afraid, that I will not let this make me into the person I once was. I will not let this tear at my insides and destroy the life I have worked so hard to build. And most of all, I will not let it ruin my friendship. Yes, we fought. Yes, i did something stupid yet noble, but this is all because of the last days I have on the earth. I won't be here after my birthday. I won't get to experience all of the wonderful things being an adult has to offer. I just want to do some good things now. Yes, I am afraid, but I can't find the words to tell you. I will, however, go on as if nothing is wrong. I'm stronger now than I ever was. I will not be struck down. Fear not, for I will watch over you. I love you with all of my heart.